1 00:00:24,274 --> 00:00:27,360 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 2 00:02:30,943 --> 00:02:33,277 [ Warning Tone Beeping ] 3 00:02:44,832 --> 00:02:46,999 - [ Woman Sneezes ] - Bless you. 4 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:49,168 [ Woman ] It's freezing in here. 5 00:02:55,634 --> 00:02:57,635 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 6 00:02:58,762 --> 00:03:01,013 [ Man Moaning ] 7 00:03:10,732 --> 00:03:12,900 [ Panting ] 8 00:03:26,415 --> 00:03:28,749 [ Moaning, Panting Quicken ] 9 00:04:16,506 --> 00:04:19,216 - Look at that green thumb. - I wish. 10 00:04:19,343 --> 00:04:21,010 - How's your sinuses? - Better. 11 00:04:21,136 --> 00:04:22,678 Good. 12 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:26,140 I should be home by 7:00. 13 00:04:27,601 --> 00:04:30,436 Honey, can you call the landscapers again about the sod? 14 00:04:30,604 --> 00:04:32,605 They gotta get moving, or we're gonna miss — 15 00:04:32,773 --> 00:04:35,358 - I'll try them again. - Thanks, hon. 16 00:04:35,484 --> 00:04:38,611 [ Vehicle Approaching ] 17 00:04:45,869 --> 00:04:47,828 Maybe it's the couch. 18 00:04:47,955 --> 00:04:49,664 Great! 19 00:04:51,166 --> 00:04:53,167 [ Engine Shuts Off ] 20 00:05:03,261 --> 00:05:06,722 - [ People Chattering On TV ] - So, um... 21 00:05:06,848 --> 00:05:09,392 - [ Vacuum Cleaner Running ] - we were thinking... 22 00:05:09,518 --> 00:05:11,435 in here... 23 00:05:11,561 --> 00:05:13,813 um... 24 00:05:13,981 --> 00:05:16,315 with the... 25 00:05:16,441 --> 00:05:20,111 coming-out part along the wall? 26 00:05:20,237 --> 00:05:21,737 Okay, sure. 27 00:05:21,863 --> 00:05:24,699 And I guess come in through there. 28 00:05:24,825 --> 00:05:27,743 - Not through there? - Right. 29 00:05:27,869 --> 00:05:30,246 - Okay. - Great. Thanks. 30 00:05:32,833 --> 00:05:35,751 - ♪♪ [ Upbeat Dance ] - Big push. Four more. 31 00:05:35,877 --> 00:05:38,754 Three, two. Now reach up to the corner. 32 00:05:38,880 --> 00:05:41,757 Up and up. Nice. Good stretch, Bev. 33 00:05:41,883 --> 00:05:43,759 Nice. Push it. Four more. 34 00:05:43,885 --> 00:05:47,263 Three, two. Sasha, here we go. Take it around. 35 00:05:47,389 --> 00:05:50,182 Two, two. Down. Two, two. 36 00:05:50,308 --> 00:05:53,019 Two more. Here we go. Let's smile, ladies. 37 00:05:53,186 --> 00:05:54,854 [ Indistinct ] 38 00:05:54,980 --> 00:05:58,482 Right, two, three, and left, two, three. 39 00:05:58,608 --> 00:06:00,484 Well, I just eventually found... 40 00:06:00,610 --> 00:06:03,195 the whole 12-step thing was like... 41 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,406 just another form of addiction. 42 00:06:05,532 --> 00:06:08,701 - That's exactly what this book is saying. - Yeah? 43 00:06:08,827 --> 00:06:11,370 Yeah, it’s about how to own your own life. 44 00:06:11,496 --> 00:06:15,624 Because what he’s saying is that we don't really own our own lives. 45 00:06:15,751 --> 00:06:17,877 We're taught what to do, what to think.... 46 00:06:18,003 --> 00:06:20,379 but emotionally we're not really in charge. 47 00:06:20,505 --> 00:06:23,466 But see, I think that with the exercise... 48 00:06:23,592 --> 00:06:26,177 and the diet and healthy foods — 49 00:06:26,303 --> 00:06:29,430 [ Woman #1 ] l just think he's very good at certain things. 50 00:06:29,556 --> 00:06:31,223 - Really? - Oh, yeah. 51 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:33,476 - Have you read him, Carol? - No. 52 00:06:33,602 --> 00:06:36,228 He's very good on certain things — 53 00:06:36,354 --> 00:06:37,938 emotional maintenance... 54 00:06:38,065 --> 00:06:40,900 stress management. 55 00:06:41,026 --> 00:06:44,904 You know, Carol, you do not sweat? 56 00:06:45,072 --> 00:06:48,157 Oh, I hate you. 57 00:06:48,283 --> 00:06:49,909 I know. It's true. 58 00:06:50,077 --> 00:06:52,286 No, it's great. 59 00:06:52,412 --> 00:06:54,830 [ Doorbell Rings ] 60 00:07:02,756 --> 00:07:04,340 - Hi. - Hi. 61 00:07:04,466 --> 00:07:07,760 - [ Carol ] Did you forget? - No. It's inside. 62 00:07:09,012 --> 00:07:11,764 - I just, uh — - What? 63 00:07:13,058 --> 00:07:15,684 Something happened. 64 00:07:15,811 --> 00:07:17,520 Come in. 65 00:07:27,948 --> 00:07:29,782 How old was he? 66 00:07:31,952 --> 00:07:33,953 Five years older. 67 00:07:36,873 --> 00:07:40,376 He was the oldest of my mom's kids. 68 00:07:46,633 --> 00:07:48,759 It, um... 69 00:07:50,554 --> 00:07:52,471 wasn't — 70 00:07:52,639 --> 00:07:54,473 No. 71 00:07:55,684 --> 00:07:58,519 That's what everyone keeps — 72 00:07:58,645 --> 00:08:00,563 Not at all. 73 00:08:00,689 --> 00:08:03,190 [ Airplane Droning Overhead ] 74 00:08:05,652 --> 00:08:08,487 'Cause he wasn't married. 75 00:08:08,655 --> 00:08:10,447 Right. 76 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:19,081 It's just so unreal. 77 00:08:31,052 --> 00:08:33,888 - Did you see the den? - At your party. It's gorgeous. 78 00:08:34,014 --> 00:08:36,682 You know, I'm suing the contractor. Did I tell you? 79 00:08:36,850 --> 00:08:38,434 No. 80 00:08:39,686 --> 00:08:41,770 You don't even want to know. 81 00:08:43,815 --> 00:08:46,859 Fulvia? I'm home. 82 00:08:46,985 --> 00:08:49,111 [ Vacuum Cleaner Running ] 83 00:08:53,658 --> 00:08:55,659 [ Phone Ringing ] 84 00:09:07,339 --> 00:09:09,048 Hello? 85 00:09:09,216 --> 00:09:10,883 Hi, Mother. 86 00:09:11,009 --> 00:09:13,886 What? No. I just walked in the door. 87 00:09:14,054 --> 00:09:16,055 That's all right. 88 00:09:17,641 --> 00:09:19,642 How are you feeling? How’s your back? 89 00:09:21,102 --> 00:09:23,145 That's good. 90 00:09:23,271 --> 00:09:25,731 It's not a bad time, Mother. I just — 91 00:09:26,983 --> 00:09:29,193 All right. That's fine. 92 00:09:29,319 --> 00:09:32,404 He's fine. They're fine. 93 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:36,033 I will. 94 00:09:36,159 --> 00:09:37,660 I will, Mother. 95 00:09:37,786 --> 00:09:39,620 ♪♪ [ Pop Rock ] 96 00:09:41,081 --> 00:09:42,915 Okay. 97 00:09:43,041 --> 00:09:44,875 I'll talk to you soon. 98 00:09:45,001 --> 00:09:46,919 Okay. 99 00:09:47,045 --> 00:09:48,879 Bye-bye. 100 00:09:49,005 --> 00:09:51,215 Fulvia? 101 00:09:51,341 --> 00:09:53,592 [ Vacuum Cleaner Powers Down ] 102 00:09:58,890 --> 00:10:01,767 Any teléfono while I was gone? 103 00:10:06,564 --> 00:10:08,315 Oh, my God. 104 00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:15,155 [ Woman ] No, missus. No teléfono. 105 00:10:15,282 --> 00:10:17,449 Is this what they delivered? 106 00:10:20,287 --> 00:10:22,329 Fulvia? 107 00:10:25,125 --> 00:10:29,753 We did — We did not order black. This is — 108 00:10:29,879 --> 00:10:32,631 This is — This is not what we ordered. 109 00:10:33,925 --> 00:10:36,552 ♪ Turn your love around ♪ 110 00:10:37,637 --> 00:10:40,264 Yes, in sherman Oaks. May I have the number... 111 00:10:40,390 --> 00:10:43,600 for Nelson’s on Riverside, please? 112 00:10:43,727 --> 00:10:45,978 I don't believe this. 113 00:10:48,648 --> 00:10:51,317 Ye— Thank you. 114 00:10:57,782 --> 00:11:00,159 Yes, may I have the shipping or delivery depart- 115 00:11:00,327 --> 00:11:04,705 - Thank you. - ♪ That you're still in love with me ♪ 116 00:11:04,831 --> 00:11:07,333 ♪ We're gonna make it ♪ 117 00:11:07,459 --> 00:11:11,253 ♪ And we're gonna take it back where we belong ♪ 118 00:11:11,379 --> 00:11:13,547 ♪ Turn your love around ♪♪ 119 00:11:13,673 --> 00:11:16,008 [ Alarm Clock Ringing ] 120 00:11:24,934 --> 00:11:26,727 [ Off ] 121 00:11:31,232 --> 00:11:33,901 [ Speaking Spanish ] 122 00:11:34,027 --> 00:11:35,736 - Mom? - What, Rory? 123 00:11:35,862 --> 00:11:39,573 - Mom, soccer practice. Don't forget. - l didn't forget last time. 124 00:11:39,699 --> 00:11:43,535 - Whatever. It's the bus. I gotta go. - It was a mix-up. Okay. 125 00:11:43,703 --> 00:11:45,537 - Bye. - Bye, honey. 126 00:11:45,705 --> 00:11:47,706 [ Man On TV Speaking Spanish ] 127 00:11:58,259 --> 00:11:59,885 Fulvia? 128 00:12:02,889 --> 00:12:04,515 Fulvia? 129 00:12:06,810 --> 00:12:08,435 - Fulvia? - Sí? 130 00:12:08,561 --> 00:12:11,355 Where’s my book? My telephone book? 131 00:12:11,481 --> 00:12:14,066 Uh, I put it in the bottom shelf... 132 00:12:14,192 --> 00:12:16,193 because of the cabinet men. 133 00:12:16,319 --> 00:12:18,946 Oh, okay. I see. Thanks. 134 00:12:20,698 --> 00:12:24,493 [ Man On TV ] You've got to step back and say, "Wait a minute. 135 00:12:24,619 --> 00:12:28,414 It's not an honor or a privilege or even a duty to be a patient. 136 00:12:28,581 --> 00:12:33,168 lf people don't want it on religious grounds or quality-of-life grounds —" 137 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:35,587 - Fulvia, could I have some milk? - Sí. 138 00:12:35,713 --> 00:12:38,632 - Some leche, por favor? - Sí, seguro que sí. 139 00:12:38,758 --> 00:12:41,260 [ Man #2 ] ...to let a critically ill patient die... 140 00:12:41,428 --> 00:12:44,680 but you're also saying it is all right to hasten that death. 141 00:12:44,806 --> 00:12:47,766 - [ Man #1 ] l didn't say that. - [ Woman ] I disagree with that. 142 00:12:47,934 --> 00:12:51,145 [ Man #2 ] Isn't Elizabeth Bouvier, by starving herself, hastening her own death? 143 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:54,064 [ Man #1 ] No, I think you have to draw a distinction... 144 00:12:54,190 --> 00:12:57,943 between steps the doctor could take to actively kill somebody — 145 00:12:58,111 --> 00:12:59,778 Señora. 146 00:12:59,946 --> 00:13:01,488 Thank you. 147 00:13:01,614 --> 00:13:03,365 You okay, missus? 148 00:13:03,491 --> 00:13:06,618 ...and say, "Whatever happens, we are going to withdraw from the situation." 149 00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:10,622 [ Man #2 ] It's terrible to say with 30 seconds left, but isn't that a thin line? 150 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:12,791 [ Woman ] But it's a very important line. 151 00:13:12,959 --> 00:13:15,210 It's one thing to remove a piece of machinery... 152 00:13:15,336 --> 00:13:18,630 whether big as a respirator or small as a feeding tube. 153 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,633 It's another thing to say, "His life isn't worth much anyway... 154 00:13:21,759 --> 00:13:24,052 so we're gonna help you out more." 155 00:13:24,179 --> 00:13:26,180 [ Continues, Indistinct ] 156 00:13:26,306 --> 00:13:28,307 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 157 00:13:44,032 --> 00:13:45,824 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 158 00:13:45,992 --> 00:13:48,535 Sorry. They were in the back. 159 00:13:48,661 --> 00:13:51,330 Oh, it's okay. Thanks. 160 00:13:51,498 --> 00:13:54,666 - Oh, that purse is adorable! - Thank you. 161 00:13:54,792 --> 00:13:56,793 - How's your little girl? - Oh, she's fine. 162 00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:59,796 - She's so cute. - Oh, thank you. 163 00:14:01,466 --> 00:14:03,634 Okay. Bye. 164 00:14:03,760 --> 00:14:05,802 Bye. 165 00:14:05,929 --> 00:14:08,263 No, we wanted teal. 166 00:14:08,389 --> 00:14:11,266 We ordered teal, but we received black. 167 00:14:11,392 --> 00:14:13,519 But your original order shows black. 168 00:14:13,686 --> 00:14:17,523 That's impossible, because it doesn't go with anything we have. 169 00:14:19,025 --> 00:14:20,651 All right. 170 00:14:22,904 --> 00:14:26,990 All right. Let me try the Sherman Oaks store upstairs. 171 00:14:27,116 --> 00:14:28,867 See what they have in stock. 172 00:14:29,035 --> 00:14:30,702 Thank you. 173 00:14:32,330 --> 00:14:36,208 [ Woman On Radio, Fervent ] If I told you the end of the world was coming... 174 00:14:36,376 --> 00:14:39,211 and you said to me that you'd get on your knees... 175 00:14:39,337 --> 00:14:42,172 and you'd pray, I'd say you're in trouble. 176 00:14:42,298 --> 00:14:46,718 Because when I go to bed and pull those covers under my neck... 177 00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:50,597 l say, "Jesus, I'll see you in the morning." 178 00:14:50,723 --> 00:14:52,808 [ Man ] You do that very well. Thank you. 179 00:14:52,934 --> 00:14:55,018 [ Woman ] I was raised in a fundamentalist church. 180 00:14:55,144 --> 00:14:58,647 I heard this all my life. We sang songs about being in God's army — 181 00:14:58,773 --> 00:15:01,066 [ Man ] I think you've changed the subject. 182 00:15:01,234 --> 00:15:04,152 - I see a president who's embattled... - [ Coughing ] 183 00:15:04,279 --> 00:15:07,531 and a president who's, based on — what do I base it on? — 184 00:15:07,657 --> 00:15:10,993 not being close to him but close to people who are... 185 00:15:11,119 --> 00:15:15,080 in the press who watch him carefully, as being very pained at the moment... 186 00:15:15,206 --> 00:15:17,666 and certainly... 187 00:15:17,792 --> 00:15:20,085 - a man who wants to make his mark... - [ Coughing ] 188 00:15:20,253 --> 00:15:22,963 I've never heard anybody ever say he's that fundamentalist... 189 00:15:23,089 --> 00:15:25,048 that he believes the end is nigh. 190 00:15:25,174 --> 00:15:28,468 l really — You and l take a different view on that one. 191 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:30,220 But are you married to Marjoe? 192 00:15:30,346 --> 00:15:32,931 - [ Woman On Radio Laughing ] - [ Coughing Continues ] 193 00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:36,935 - No. - Just, you sound — the technique. 194 00:15:37,103 --> 00:15:39,104 [ Woman ] I just really believe... 195 00:15:39,230 --> 00:15:43,442 he thinks he's doing the Lord's work. He's always been a very — 196 00:15:43,568 --> 00:15:46,570 [ Man ] Maybe he's right. 197 00:15:46,696 --> 00:15:48,697 [ Continues, Indistinct ] 198 00:15:50,658 --> 00:15:53,201 [ Jingle Singers ] ♪ In California ♪ 199 00:15:53,328 --> 00:15:57,039 - ♪ KABC talk radio ♪ - [ Tires Screeching ] 200 00:15:59,083 --> 00:16:02,794 [ Coughing, Gasping ] 201 00:16:23,816 --> 00:16:26,234 [ Coughing Continues ] 202 00:16:30,490 --> 00:16:32,574 - [ Tires Screech ] - [ Warning Bell Chiming ] 203 00:16:34,994 --> 00:16:36,995 [ Violent Coughing ] 204 00:16:41,334 --> 00:16:43,377 [ Gasping ] 205 00:16:56,224 --> 00:16:58,225 [ Breathing Steadies ] 206 00:17:04,691 --> 00:17:06,692 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 207 00:17:30,925 --> 00:17:33,552 [ Man On TV ] A movement to save the trees? 208 00:17:34,637 --> 00:17:38,348 Some say it goes deeper than that. 209 00:17:38,474 --> 00:17:41,852 Today, environmentalists from all over the globe... 210 00:17:41,978 --> 00:17:46,106 are adopting a new, more holistic approach to their studies... 211 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:49,735 which they call "deep ecology." 212 00:17:49,902 --> 00:17:54,406 Deep ecology goes beyond the traditional scientific framework... 213 00:17:54,574 --> 00:17:58,910 to incorporate a greater spiritual awareness of the planet. 214 00:17:59,036 --> 00:18:01,913 Or, as ecophilosopher Parlum Grass puts it... 215 00:18:02,039 --> 00:18:05,167 "an understanding of the oneness of all life." 216 00:18:07,670 --> 00:18:12,132 "I have a feeling that we are entering a new time," Pearcel writes... 217 00:18:12,258 --> 00:18:16,553 "a period of a different paradigm or model. 218 00:18:16,679 --> 00:18:20,265 A period of learning to run warm and cool... 219 00:18:20,433 --> 00:18:23,977 not hot and cold, toward viruses... 220 00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:25,937 cells, and one anoth—" 221 00:18:26,105 --> 00:18:28,273 [ Off ] 222 00:19:02,308 --> 00:19:04,351 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 223 00:20:29,562 --> 00:20:31,688 ♪♪ [ Ends ] 224 00:20:31,814 --> 00:20:35,734 I started this fruit diet. 225 00:20:35,902 --> 00:20:40,113 I've been So out of it since my brother's funeral. 226 00:20:40,239 --> 00:20:43,867 - Have you ever done one? - No. 227 00:20:43,993 --> 00:20:47,078 They're supposed to sort of naturally cleanse the body... 228 00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,247 of all the toxins. 229 00:20:49,373 --> 00:20:52,751 I should do it. I’ve been so run down lately. 230 00:20:52,877 --> 00:20:54,544 Really? 231 00:20:54,670 --> 00:20:57,505 Yeah, I’ve just been really busy. 232 00:20:57,632 --> 00:21:00,759 We have this client dinner Coming up, so — 233 00:21:00,885 --> 00:21:04,095 Right. Maybe you should try it. 234 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:05,889 No. 235 00:21:06,015 --> 00:21:07,807 It'd be a lot of fun. 236 00:21:07,934 --> 00:21:10,143 We could do it together. 237 00:21:11,604 --> 00:21:15,190 Come on. Why don't you just try it? 238 00:21:15,316 --> 00:21:17,275 - Do you know what you want? - Yes. 239 00:21:17,401 --> 00:21:20,737 I am going to have the fruit salad and the herbal iced tea. 240 00:21:22,698 --> 00:21:25,784 Okay. And for you? 241 00:21:29,330 --> 00:21:32,123 - I'll have the same. - [ Laughing ] 242 00:21:36,045 --> 00:21:38,129 I got one. I got one. 243 00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:42,425 This beautiful, shapely blonde runs into the emergency room... 244 00:21:42,551 --> 00:21:45,595 and when they ask her what's wrong, she says... 245 00:21:45,721 --> 00:21:47,472 "It's kind of embarrassing... 246 00:21:47,598 --> 00:21:50,517 but I was using my vibrator, and it got stuck. 247 00:21:50,643 --> 00:21:53,353 I can't get it out. It's stuck inside." 248 00:21:53,479 --> 00:21:55,522 So they rush her into emergency, admit her... 249 00:21:55,648 --> 00:21:58,942 they rush her to the operating room, and they get some specialist... 250 00:21:59,068 --> 00:22:02,028 to perform the surgery, and it's a ten-hour ordeal. 251 00:22:02,154 --> 00:22:05,156 And finally she wakes up the next day... 252 00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:07,158 and the specialist walks in and says... 253 00:22:07,284 --> 00:22:11,329 "Well, I got some good news and I got some bad news. 254 00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:15,125 The bad news is we did everything we possibly could. 255 00:22:15,251 --> 00:22:18,795 We tried everything, but we just Couldn't get the darn thing out. 256 00:22:18,921 --> 00:22:20,797 We just couldn't. 257 00:22:20,923 --> 00:22:22,590 But the good news is... 258 00:22:22,717 --> 00:22:24,926 we were able to change the batteries." 259 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,185 Somebody doesn't seem to like your jokes, Ted. 260 00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:36,938 - Huh? - Carol — 261 00:22:40,943 --> 00:22:43,028 Excuse me. I-I don't — 262 00:22:44,864 --> 00:22:46,281 [ Whispering ] Sorry. 263 00:22:57,376 --> 00:22:59,627 I'm so sorry, Greg. 264 00:23:00,671 --> 00:23:02,505 You're just — 265 00:23:02,631 --> 00:23:04,841 You're overexerted, I guess. 266 00:23:08,012 --> 00:23:09,721 I’ve never — 267 00:23:12,558 --> 00:23:15,226 Maybe the doctor can give you something for it. 268 00:23:26,322 --> 00:23:28,239 Well, hmm. 269 00:23:29,450 --> 00:23:32,118 I really don't see anything wrong with you, Carol. 270 00:23:32,244 --> 00:23:35,997 I mean, outside of a slight rash and congestion. 271 00:23:36,999 --> 00:23:40,251 Now, I'll give you some ointment... 272 00:23:40,419 --> 00:23:44,047 and some decongestant, but, uh... 273 00:23:44,173 --> 00:23:46,758 jeez, I-I don't know what else to do. 274 00:23:47,802 --> 00:23:50,470 Are you — Well, what? 275 00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,349 I guess I'm just a little stressed out lately. 276 00:23:54,475 --> 00:23:57,560 - Uh-huh. - And just tired from it. 277 00:23:57,686 --> 00:23:59,729 Well, that's not uncommon. 278 00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:02,607 Um, you're not doing drugs, are you? 279 00:24:02,733 --> 00:24:04,943 No. 280 00:24:05,069 --> 00:24:08,446 I don't take drugs or drink or — 281 00:24:08,572 --> 00:24:11,825 I don't even, um, like coffee very much. 282 00:24:11,951 --> 00:24:16,496 I'm just a total milkaholic, actually. 283 00:24:16,622 --> 00:24:18,790 I mean, before the fruit thing. 284 00:24:18,916 --> 00:24:21,417 Well, stop the fruit diet. You need protein. 285 00:24:21,544 --> 00:24:24,170 And while you're at it... 286 00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:26,631 try staying off dairy. 287 00:24:26,757 --> 00:24:29,050 Dairy's very hard on your digestion... 288 00:24:29,176 --> 00:24:31,302 hard on your intestines. 289 00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:34,764 I'll see you in a couple weeks. You'll be fine. 290 00:24:34,890 --> 00:24:36,641 Thanks. 291 00:24:39,228 --> 00:24:42,772 "In the '80s, there are more and more gangs in the Los Angeles basin... 292 00:24:42,898 --> 00:24:47,193 plus many more stabbings and shootings by AK-47s... 293 00:24:47,319 --> 00:24:49,654 Uzis and MAC-10s... 294 00:24:49,822 --> 00:24:51,823 killing numerous innocent people. 295 00:24:51,991 --> 00:24:53,992 L.A. was the gang capital of America. 296 00:24:54,118 --> 00:24:56,327 Rapes, riots, shooting innocent people... 297 00:24:56,495 --> 00:24:59,789 slashing throats, arms and legs being dissected... 298 00:24:59,915 --> 00:25:02,876 were all common sights in the black ghettos of L.A. 299 00:25:03,002 --> 00:25:05,920 Today, black and chicano gangs are coming into the valleys... 300 00:25:06,046 --> 00:25:08,631 in mostly white areas more and more. 301 00:25:08,757 --> 00:25:12,427 That's why gangs in L.A. are a big American issue. Rory White." 302 00:25:12,553 --> 00:25:16,431 - Good job, Ror. - Why does it have to be so gory? 303 00:25:16,557 --> 00:25:20,226 "Gory"? That's how it really is. God. 304 00:25:20,352 --> 00:25:23,563 - Hey, hey, hey. - You want some coffee? 305 00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:25,690 Yeah, I'd love some. 306 00:25:35,284 --> 00:25:37,619 So what did Hubbard have to say? 307 00:25:38,704 --> 00:25:41,623 He just said I should, uh... 308 00:25:41,749 --> 00:25:44,417 slow down a little, you know. 309 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:48,171 Stop the fruit diet. Eat less dairy. 310 00:25:48,297 --> 00:25:50,381 That's exactly what I said, isn't it? 311 00:25:50,549 --> 00:25:53,426 I knew that whole fruit thing didn't make any sense. 312 00:25:55,221 --> 00:25:58,473 But basically... 313 00:25:58,599 --> 00:26:02,602 there's nothing to really worry about, aside from being a little run down. 314 00:26:02,728 --> 00:26:04,771 Well, that's good. 315 00:26:06,565 --> 00:26:08,191 So — 316 00:26:08,317 --> 00:26:10,360 Dad, how do you spell "Uzi"? 317 00:26:10,486 --> 00:26:12,779 Just how it sounds: U-Z-I. 318 00:26:35,261 --> 00:26:37,262 [ Man Exhales ] 319 00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:43,893 ♪ ...my dreams ♪ 320 00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:46,354 ♪ Get into my car ♪ 321 00:26:47,731 --> 00:26:50,733 - Thanks. - ♪ Get out of my dreams ♪ 322 00:26:52,069 --> 00:26:53,569 Carol... 323 00:26:53,696 --> 00:26:57,323 - we doing a regular cut today? - Yeah. 324 00:26:57,449 --> 00:26:59,784 ♪ Get out of my mind ♪ 325 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:04,122 Actually, I was thinking of-of... 326 00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:07,333 trying a perm for a change. 327 00:27:07,459 --> 00:27:09,377 Perming it. 328 00:27:09,503 --> 00:27:12,171 Elyse didn't tell me you scheduled a perm. 329 00:27:13,632 --> 00:27:16,801 No, I didn't schedule one. 330 00:27:16,927 --> 00:27:19,929 I just thought of it now, of trying it, unless — 331 00:27:20,055 --> 00:27:22,473 No. No, there's time, actually. 332 00:27:22,641 --> 00:27:25,226 I — I had a cancellation. 333 00:27:25,352 --> 00:27:28,104 - You still want that manicure? - Sure. 334 00:27:28,230 --> 00:27:29,731 Thanks. 335 00:27:29,857 --> 00:27:33,860 ♪ Let's make a deal Make it real ♪ 336 00:27:33,986 --> 00:27:37,697 ♪ Like a roadrunner coming after you ♪♪ 337 00:27:37,823 --> 00:27:39,824 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 338 00:28:22,159 --> 00:28:24,410 It's very cute on you. 339 00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:34,462 It looks nice. 340 00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,884 - Oh — Oh, my God! - Oh, my God. 341 00:28:40,010 --> 00:28:42,220 Paula, do you have a Kleenex? Do you — 342 00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:47,016 - Oh, my God! - [ Greg ] Anyway, so... 343 00:28:47,142 --> 00:28:50,061 so we meet him for lunch, Cosford, Ted, and I... 344 00:28:50,187 --> 00:28:53,731 and who comes in but this kid in shorts. 345 00:28:53,899 --> 00:28:56,692 He looked like he was about Jonas's age. 346 00:28:56,819 --> 00:28:58,528 Couldn't believe it. 347 00:28:58,654 --> 00:29:01,656 Ted said I looked like I'd seen a ghost. 348 00:29:01,782 --> 00:29:05,535 I like what they did with your hair. It's great. I like it. 349 00:29:05,661 --> 00:29:07,578 I'm glad, honey. 350 00:29:09,540 --> 00:29:12,417 Yeah. Sexy. 351 00:29:20,843 --> 00:29:22,844 How you feeling? 352 00:29:24,471 --> 00:29:26,472 Huh? 353 00:29:28,851 --> 00:29:32,228 - I still have this, um — - What? 354 00:29:32,354 --> 00:29:34,063 This head thing. 355 00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:36,607 Oh, boy. 356 00:29:36,733 --> 00:29:40,278 - Greg — - Carol, what the hell is going on here? 357 00:29:40,446 --> 00:29:43,156 - Nothing. - Nobody has a fucking headache... 358 00:29:43,282 --> 00:29:45,283 every night of the fucking week! 359 00:29:45,409 --> 00:29:47,410 [ Scoffs ] 360 00:29:53,417 --> 00:29:55,418 [ Sighs ] 361 00:30:00,257 --> 00:30:02,508 I must have a touch of something, because I — 362 00:30:02,634 --> 00:30:04,760 I don't want to hear about it. 363 00:30:15,898 --> 00:30:17,899 I'm sorry. I, um — 364 00:30:20,068 --> 00:30:22,653 I know it's not normal, but... 365 00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:28,201 I can't help it. 366 00:30:40,797 --> 00:30:42,507 Good night. 367 00:30:53,727 --> 00:30:55,853 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 368 00:31:18,293 --> 00:31:21,045 - [ Woman On Radio, Indistinct ] - [ Objects Clinking ] 369 00:31:22,673 --> 00:31:25,049 [ Aerosol Can Shaking, Top Popping ] 370 00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:29,762 [ Man On Radio ] Sixties at the beaches and lower 70s downtown. 371 00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:31,889 Valleys will climb to the mid-70s. 372 00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:35,560 - [ Woman ] Fifty-nine degrees in Hollywood. - [ Man ] Traffic on KNX every six minutes. 373 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:39,021 - [ Woman ] Here's John Engel. - Thanks, Susan. It's been another rough morning. 374 00:31:39,147 --> 00:31:41,023 You need patience on the southland freeways. 375 00:31:41,149 --> 00:31:43,734 It started with that downpour you were talking about. 376 00:31:43,860 --> 00:31:46,862 Had a lot of rain. Right now it's quite the hike. 377 00:31:46,989 --> 00:31:50,074 Sure hope you brought camping gear for that Ventura westbound transition... 378 00:31:50,242 --> 00:31:52,076 to the Golden state southbound. 379 00:31:52,244 --> 00:31:54,787 Non-injury accident in the left lane at the trans road. 380 00:31:54,913 --> 00:31:58,291 When you stop at Pacific, that's what you have to sherman Oaks. 381 00:31:58,417 --> 00:32:01,961 But there is some good news. Just spoke to the van, and guess what? 382 00:32:02,087 --> 00:32:05,089 91 westbound's a cakewalk all through the Santa Ana canyon. 383 00:32:05,257 --> 00:32:08,092 Actually, you're close to maximum speed. You can even go... 384 00:32:08,260 --> 00:32:10,094 [ Chuckles ] maybe 45 miles an hour... 385 00:32:10,262 --> 00:32:12,346 91 westbound to the 15 through the canyon... 386 00:32:12,472 --> 00:32:15,600 into Anaheim Hills, and enjoy that while you can. 387 00:32:15,767 --> 00:32:18,394 I'm sorry, honey. 388 00:32:18,520 --> 00:32:20,271 Me too. 389 00:32:44,087 --> 00:32:45,921 It's okay. 390 00:32:50,135 --> 00:32:52,345 It's okay. 391 00:32:52,471 --> 00:32:54,138 Hey. 392 00:32:57,601 --> 00:32:59,644 - [ Spasms ] - You're all right. 393 00:33:03,148 --> 00:33:04,815 Jesus, honey. 394 00:33:04,941 --> 00:33:06,817 [ Gasping ] 395 00:33:08,195 --> 00:33:10,196 Take a deep breath and hold. 396 00:33:11,531 --> 00:33:13,574 Release. 397 00:33:13,700 --> 00:33:16,035 Again. 398 00:33:16,161 --> 00:33:17,828 Release. 399 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:20,164 Again. 400 00:33:20,332 --> 00:33:23,542 Release. Again. 401 00:33:23,669 --> 00:33:25,252 Okay. 402 00:33:34,388 --> 00:33:36,472 Hey, Greg, how the hell are you? 403 00:33:36,598 --> 00:33:39,475 - Good, good. And you? - I'm okay. Have a seat, guys. 404 00:33:39,601 --> 00:33:41,435 Well... 405 00:33:43,397 --> 00:33:46,691 basically, Carol, you are perfectly healthy. 406 00:33:46,817 --> 00:33:51,195 If anything, your condition has slightly improved since your last visit. 407 00:33:54,449 --> 00:33:57,743 Now, this is just a suggestion, but, uh... 408 00:33:57,869 --> 00:34:01,330 you might want to consult someone, and I know... 409 00:34:01,456 --> 00:34:04,166 a very, very good doctor who's just more suited... 410 00:34:04,292 --> 00:34:07,712 to stress-related conditions, which I think this is 411 00:34:12,718 --> 00:34:14,719 - A psychiatrist? - Yeah. 412 00:34:14,886 --> 00:34:16,387 Uh-huh. 413 00:34:21,518 --> 00:34:23,686 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 414 00:35:59,741 --> 00:36:02,076 - [ Man ] Everything all right, ma'am? - What? 415 00:36:02,202 --> 00:36:03,828 Yeah. 416 00:36:12,212 --> 00:36:14,088 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 417 00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,298 [ Greg ] What are you doing, honey? 418 00:36:19,344 --> 00:36:21,470 I — 419 00:36:21,596 --> 00:36:24,223 I couldn't sleep. 420 00:36:24,349 --> 00:36:26,642 The air, the — 421 00:36:26,768 --> 00:36:28,686 the smell. 422 00:36:33,817 --> 00:36:35,442 Okay. 423 00:36:41,950 --> 00:36:44,618 - ♪♪ [ Upbeat Dance ] - [ Woman ] Clap. 424 00:36:44,744 --> 00:36:48,205 Slow it down. And bring the knee up. Pull. 425 00:36:48,373 --> 00:36:52,084 Good. Get those knees up there. Tummy in. Exhale. Exhale. 426 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,587 And push it out. Here we go. Push. 427 00:36:54,713 --> 00:36:57,298 And right. Push left. Right. 428 00:36:57,424 --> 00:36:59,842 Four more. Three. 429 00:36:59,968 --> 00:37:02,344 Good! Let's scoop to the right. 430 00:37:02,470 --> 00:37:05,347 Two, three. Good. Get that leg up there. 431 00:37:05,473 --> 00:37:07,892 Whoo! 432 00:37:08,018 --> 00:37:10,102 - Carol. - Hi. 433 00:37:10,228 --> 00:37:13,772 - Are you okay? - Yeah, I just have to get somewhere. 434 00:37:13,899 --> 00:37:17,359 Oh. I'll see you at Barbara's Sunday? 435 00:37:17,485 --> 00:37:18,944 - See you Sunday. - Okay. 436 00:37:19,070 --> 00:37:20,905 - Okay, bye. - Bye. 437 00:37:52,187 --> 00:37:53,938 [ Man ] Do you work? 438 00:37:54,064 --> 00:37:55,814 No, I'm a house— 439 00:37:55,941 --> 00:37:58,692 Um, I'm a homemaker. 440 00:37:58,818 --> 00:38:02,112 I'm working on some designs for our house, though... 441 00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:05,282 - Mm-hmm. - in my spare time. 442 00:38:07,452 --> 00:38:10,913 And, uh — And you have one child? 443 00:38:12,123 --> 00:38:14,667 My husband's little boy. 444 00:38:14,793 --> 00:38:18,629 He’s not my son. He's my stepson. 445 00:38:18,797 --> 00:38:20,714 Rory. 446 00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:23,467 He's ten. 447 00:38:23,593 --> 00:38:25,970 How long have you been feeling unwell? 448 00:38:27,305 --> 00:38:30,933 Um, about two months. 449 00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:34,061 Three. Um... 450 00:38:34,187 --> 00:38:37,064 I've been under a lot of stress lately... 451 00:38:37,190 --> 00:38:39,525 and then my friend Linda and I — 452 00:38:39,651 --> 00:38:43,487 She's probably my best friend. She lives down the — 453 00:38:43,613 --> 00:38:45,864 Uh, anyway... 454 00:38:45,991 --> 00:38:50,285 we started this fruit diet together. 455 00:38:50,412 --> 00:38:52,746 I think that sort of set it off. 456 00:38:56,584 --> 00:38:58,252 So — 457 00:39:06,511 --> 00:39:09,304 - Are you uncomfortable? - No. I — 458 00:39:09,431 --> 00:39:11,432 I just thought — 459 00:39:13,852 --> 00:39:15,561 I mean — 460 00:39:18,898 --> 00:39:21,025 Aren't you supposed to ask more questions? 461 00:39:23,987 --> 00:39:26,321 Well, no. 462 00:39:28,575 --> 00:39:31,410 We really need to be hearing from you. 463 00:39:33,705 --> 00:39:35,956 What's going on... 464 00:39:36,082 --> 00:39:38,042 in you? 465 00:39:39,461 --> 00:39:42,171 [ Women Chattering ] 466 00:39:42,297 --> 00:39:45,215 - Oh, that's so cute! - Isn't it? 467 00:39:45,341 --> 00:39:48,218 - Look at this. - I love that little bunny. 468 00:39:48,344 --> 00:39:52,598 - I know. - I wonder what it could be. 469 00:39:52,724 --> 00:39:55,726 - Hope she doesn't — - Oh, a baby book! 470 00:39:55,894 --> 00:39:59,188 - Look at that. - Oh, God, it's beautiful! 471 00:39:59,314 --> 00:40:02,232 - You don't have one? - No, no. 472 00:40:02,358 --> 00:40:05,152 - I'm so glad. - I love it. It's perfect. 473 00:40:05,278 --> 00:40:09,156 If you need to take it back, I won't be offended. It's from Neiman Marcus. 474 00:40:09,282 --> 00:40:11,909 Oh, no, no. I really love it. It’s perfect. 475 00:40:12,035 --> 00:40:17,247 It’s so sweet. You should see my baby book. It's this disgusting puke orange. 476 00:40:17,373 --> 00:40:20,417 - That's very appetizing, Barbara. - I'm serious. 477 00:40:20,543 --> 00:40:23,754 Okay, Lynn. My turn. 478 00:40:23,922 --> 00:40:27,716 - Linda, thank you. - Mm, I hope you like it. 479 00:40:27,842 --> 00:40:30,761 That’s so pretty. Did you wrap that yourself? 480 00:40:30,887 --> 00:40:34,431 God, are you kidding? I wish I were that creative. 481 00:40:34,557 --> 00:40:36,558 I’ve seen you wrap things. 482 00:40:36,684 --> 00:40:39,353 Oh, I can't even draw a straight line. 483 00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:42,189 Oh, God! I love this! 484 00:40:42,315 --> 00:40:44,733 - Do you? - Look at this. It's a mobile. 485 00:40:44,859 --> 00:40:47,152 I thought it'd look great over a crib. 486 00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:50,364 - Who wants decaf? - [ Women Chattering ] 487 00:40:50,490 --> 00:40:52,366 - Herbal tea? - You must be so excited. 488 00:40:52,492 --> 00:40:55,119 - We're really happy. - Real coffee? 489 00:40:55,286 --> 00:40:58,330 - He must be so happy. - "Ecstatic" is more like it. 490 00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:02,251 - What do you think you'll name it? - That is so great. 491 00:41:02,377 --> 00:41:03,919 - Barbara? - Yeah, hon? 492 00:41:04,045 --> 00:41:06,046 - Where’s your bathroom? - There's a powder room... 493 00:41:06,172 --> 00:41:08,590 off the entrance hall to your right. 494 00:41:13,513 --> 00:41:15,806 I like "Tyler." Gary likes "Alex." 495 00:41:59,976 --> 00:42:01,977 [ Women Chattering, Indistinct ] 496 00:42:06,608 --> 00:42:08,108 Mommy! 497 00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:11,570 I heard you, Elyse! I don't know what you should draw now! 498 00:42:11,696 --> 00:42:15,532 Let Mommy have grown-up time with the other mommies, okay? 499 00:42:15,700 --> 00:42:19,077 Someone told me they heard she was seeing their shrink... 500 00:42:19,204 --> 00:42:21,455 so I just thought you might have — 501 00:42:21,581 --> 00:42:24,166 No. I didn't even know that — 502 00:42:24,292 --> 00:42:26,376 Is something wrong with Carol? 503 00:42:26,544 --> 00:42:28,712 No. We were just — 504 00:42:28,838 --> 00:42:32,799 'Cause her skin looks kind of — Her hair looks really cute, but — 505 00:42:32,926 --> 00:42:36,970 Elyse, your ice cream is melting, and Mommy is very busy! 506 00:42:37,096 --> 00:42:38,722 - Did you get some? - No. 507 00:42:38,890 --> 00:42:40,432 - Do you want some? - No. 508 00:42:40,558 --> 00:42:42,476 - Are you sure? - Yeah. 509 00:42:45,897 --> 00:42:48,023 Carol, this is yours. 510 00:42:48,149 --> 00:42:52,361 And you have to eat it immediately, 'cause it's melting all over. 511 00:42:52,487 --> 00:42:54,404 Oh, I shouldn't. 512 00:42:55,531 --> 00:42:57,908 - What do you got there, honey? - My coloring book. 513 00:42:58,034 --> 00:43:00,035 Can I see? 514 00:43:00,161 --> 00:43:02,246 Oh! She's gotten so big. 515 00:43:02,413 --> 00:43:04,122 Mm. 516 00:43:05,083 --> 00:43:09,336 Mmm. Barbara, this is delicious. 517 00:43:09,462 --> 00:43:12,047 You know, we haven’t really talked lately. 518 00:43:12,173 --> 00:43:14,216 How are you doing? 519 00:43:14,342 --> 00:43:16,301 Good. I’ve just been a little — 520 00:43:16,427 --> 00:43:18,971 - Lookit. It's you. - Oh. Yeah. 521 00:43:19,097 --> 00:43:21,598 Um, under the weather. 522 00:43:21,724 --> 00:43:24,101 - Right. - Lookit. She's a princess. 523 00:43:24,227 --> 00:43:27,271 Oh, that's very good. It’s very realistic. 524 00:43:27,397 --> 00:43:30,941 [ Barbara ] Ladies, we are now opening the big present. Please come in. 525 00:43:31,109 --> 00:43:33,485 Okay. Here we come. 526 00:43:33,611 --> 00:43:37,114 Come on, Elyse. Let's go look at the big present, okay? 527 00:43:40,785 --> 00:43:42,619 - Want to sit on my lap? - Yeah. 528 00:43:42,787 --> 00:43:44,746 [ Women Chattering ] 529 00:43:47,375 --> 00:43:49,459 My God. 530 00:43:49,585 --> 00:43:53,297 - Look at this fancy wrapping. - Yeah. 531 00:43:53,464 --> 00:43:55,674 You girls did too much. 532 00:43:55,800 --> 00:43:58,552 - Come on, don't be polite. - I'm trying! 533 00:44:01,431 --> 00:44:03,765 [ Gasps ] A stroller! 534 00:44:03,891 --> 00:44:06,977 Oh, thank you! 535 00:44:07,145 --> 00:44:10,314 That's exactly the one I wanted! Oh! 536 00:44:10,440 --> 00:44:12,649 [ Barbara ] There's a package with the wheels inside. 537 00:44:12,817 --> 00:44:15,902 You just screw them in. Even you can do it. 538 00:44:16,029 --> 00:44:18,030 [ Labored Breathing ] 539 00:44:19,949 --> 00:44:21,950 [ Chattering, Indistinct ] 540 00:44:22,076 --> 00:44:24,077 [ Wheezing Gasps ] 541 00:44:26,664 --> 00:44:28,665 [ Wrapping Paper Tearing ] 542 00:44:29,667 --> 00:44:31,793 [ Labored Breathing Continues ] 543 00:44:36,507 --> 00:44:38,091 Mommy? 544 00:44:41,679 --> 00:44:44,514 [ Chattering Continues ] 545 00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:46,892 Carol? You all right? 546 00:44:47,018 --> 00:44:48,769 Carol — 547 00:44:48,895 --> 00:44:52,647 - [ Barbara ] What's going on? - I don't know. Carol? 548 00:44:52,774 --> 00:44:54,858 Oh, my God. Linda, what happened? 549 00:44:54,984 --> 00:44:56,526 She can't breathe! 550 00:44:56,652 --> 00:44:59,488 Eileen, call her house. Someone should call her doctor. 551 00:44:59,614 --> 00:45:02,115 Jennifer, could you get some water, please? 552 00:45:02,241 --> 00:45:04,368 Just try to relax, okay? 553 00:45:04,494 --> 00:45:07,454 - [ Panicked Wheezing ] - Calm down. 554 00:45:07,580 --> 00:45:09,581 It's okay. It's all gonna be fine. 555 00:45:09,707 --> 00:45:11,917 Just relax. 556 00:45:12,043 --> 00:45:14,044 Just — Just relax. Breathe. 557 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,301 Carol! 558 00:45:23,554 --> 00:45:25,680 [ Voices Fade ] 559 00:45:41,906 --> 00:45:44,116 [ Carol's Voice ] My name is Carol White... 560 00:45:44,242 --> 00:45:46,868 and I live in Southern California. 561 00:45:46,994 --> 00:45:50,372 l saw your notice at the health club near my house... 562 00:45:50,498 --> 00:45:54,042 and decided to write and tell you a little bit about myself. 563 00:45:54,168 --> 00:45:58,463 For some time now, I have not been feeling up to par... 564 00:45:58,589 --> 00:46:03,093 and was hoping your organization might be of some help. 565 00:46:03,261 --> 00:46:05,595 I'm originally from Texas... 566 00:46:05,721 --> 00:46:08,932 although I've lived in the L.A. area most of my life. 567 00:46:09,100 --> 00:46:13,103 l had asthma as a child, but it never really got in the way... 568 00:46:13,271 --> 00:46:15,522 of school or recreation. 569 00:46:15,648 --> 00:46:17,983 I've always thought of myself as someone... 570 00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,569 with a pretty normal upbringing... 571 00:46:20,695 --> 00:46:23,447 and as basically a healthy person... 572 00:46:23,573 --> 00:46:25,740 but for the past several months... 573 00:46:25,867 --> 00:46:28,785 that has all started to change. 574 00:46:28,911 --> 00:46:32,706 - Suddenly I find myself feeling sick. - [ Door Opens ] 575 00:46:34,500 --> 00:46:36,293 Honey, what's going on? 576 00:46:36,461 --> 00:46:38,462 I've been calling. I thought you were asleep. 577 00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,131 Someone — Brenda called about trading... 578 00:46:41,257 --> 00:46:43,675 Thursday carpool for Saturday or something like that. 579 00:46:43,801 --> 00:46:46,136 She said you'd know what that was about. 580 00:46:50,016 --> 00:46:53,435 Anyway, she said she'd call you back. 581 00:46:53,561 --> 00:46:56,980 Um, I thought you were asleep 'Cause you weren't — 582 00:46:58,274 --> 00:47:00,192 Wh-What are you doing? 583 00:47:00,318 --> 00:47:02,986 I was writing this, um — 584 00:47:10,077 --> 00:47:12,078 I don't even — [ Sighs ] 585 00:47:24,509 --> 00:47:26,510 Oh, God, what is this? 586 00:47:28,429 --> 00:47:30,055 What? 587 00:47:39,815 --> 00:47:41,733 Where am I... 588 00:47:46,197 --> 00:47:48,365 right now? 589 00:47:52,411 --> 00:47:54,704 We're in our house. 590 00:47:59,544 --> 00:48:01,836 Greg and Carol's house. 591 00:48:13,891 --> 00:48:15,559 [ Sobs ] 592 00:48:29,782 --> 00:48:31,825 [ Test Pattern Tone ] 593 00:48:39,750 --> 00:48:41,918 [ Man On TV ] Who are you? 594 00:48:42,044 --> 00:48:45,630 You are of all ages and from all walks of life. 595 00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:49,551 But you find you all have one thing in common: 596 00:48:49,677 --> 00:48:52,762 strange, never-ending ailments. 597 00:48:53,931 --> 00:48:55,932 Suddenly you can't cook dinner anymore... 598 00:48:56,058 --> 00:48:59,728 because the smell of the gas from your stove makes you ill. 599 00:48:59,854 --> 00:49:04,149 Or if you take the freeway, you feel as if you might choke on the fumes. 600 00:49:04,275 --> 00:49:08,111 Your family and friends tell you that you're overreacting... 601 00:49:08,279 --> 00:49:10,697 that it's all in your head. 602 00:49:10,823 --> 00:49:13,450 But your symptoms worsen. 603 00:49:13,618 --> 00:49:16,953 Fatigue and depression turn to migraines... 604 00:49:17,079 --> 00:49:20,790 blackouts, even seizures. 605 00:49:20,958 --> 00:49:23,043 Now, if this sounds familiar... 606 00:49:23,169 --> 00:49:25,545 you're not alone. 607 00:49:26,881 --> 00:49:30,925 What you most likely are is one of a vastly growing number of people... 608 00:49:31,052 --> 00:49:33,887 who suffer from environmental illness. 609 00:49:34,013 --> 00:49:37,307 That means that, for reasons not yet known to us... 610 00:49:37,433 --> 00:49:41,353 certain people's natural tolerance to everyday substances... 611 00:49:41,479 --> 00:49:43,688 is breaking down, usually as a result... 612 00:49:43,814 --> 00:49:46,608 of some kind of chemical exposure. 613 00:49:46,734 --> 00:49:50,403 Today, there are 60,000 chemicals in everyday use... 614 00:49:50,529 --> 00:49:54,699 yet only ten percent are tested for human toxicity. 615 00:49:55,951 --> 00:49:58,078 This is a disease that you catch... 616 00:49:58,204 --> 00:50:00,330 from your environment. 617 00:50:04,001 --> 00:50:06,002 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 618 00:50:41,622 --> 00:50:43,998 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 619 00:50:44,125 --> 00:50:45,709 Fulvia? 620 00:50:57,722 --> 00:50:59,305 Fulvia? 621 00:51:03,561 --> 00:51:05,103 Greg? 622 00:51:27,418 --> 00:51:30,128 - Carol? - [ Gasps ] 623 00:51:30,254 --> 00:51:32,172 - You scared me. - Sorry. 624 00:51:32,298 --> 00:51:34,257 No, I'm sorry. I was just — 625 00:51:34,425 --> 00:51:37,427 I just took Fulvia down. So did you just get home? 626 00:51:37,553 --> 00:51:40,805 - Yeah. - So how did it go? 627 00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:45,018 - What? - Your thing this morning. 628 00:51:45,144 --> 00:51:46,811 What was it on? 629 00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:50,899 Well, it was just this thing on getting sick on fumes and bug sprays... 630 00:51:51,025 --> 00:51:53,151 and stuff. 631 00:51:54,403 --> 00:51:56,446 You mean, on... 632 00:51:56,572 --> 00:51:58,656 like, pollution? 633 00:51:58,783 --> 00:52:00,825 More about people who get sick from chemicals... 634 00:52:00,951 --> 00:52:03,119 and what it does to you. 635 00:52:03,245 --> 00:52:05,330 Who told you to go to this? 636 00:52:05,456 --> 00:52:07,624 No, I just — 637 00:52:07,750 --> 00:52:10,919 At the health club, I saw a flyer. 638 00:52:13,631 --> 00:52:16,466 So you think this is what's made you — 639 00:52:16,634 --> 00:52:19,511 I mean, why you’ve been sick? 640 00:52:21,180 --> 00:52:23,431 Because of... bug spray? 641 00:52:23,557 --> 00:52:26,810 No, I — I just — 642 00:52:32,149 --> 00:52:34,108 I don't know why. 643 00:52:36,487 --> 00:52:38,488 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 644 00:53:00,427 --> 00:53:03,763 - ♪♪ [ Fades ] - Okay, that's milk at .01 of three. 645 00:53:03,889 --> 00:53:05,890 So most of the time, there's a trigger — 646 00:53:06,016 --> 00:53:08,351 new carpeting, new kitchen, new car. 647 00:53:08,519 --> 00:53:12,438 Or somebody works around paint fumes or strong fragrances. 648 00:53:13,858 --> 00:53:16,568 Okay. No reaction. Please prepare — 649 00:53:16,694 --> 00:53:18,444 - .01 of two. - Right. 650 00:53:18,571 --> 00:53:22,073 Then one day, bam, it hits you, and suddenly your body is reacting... 651 00:53:22,199 --> 00:53:25,034 to everything like a Geiger counter — food, air, everything. 652 00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:27,203 - .01 of two, milk. - Thank you. 653 00:53:27,329 --> 00:53:30,874 What we're doing now is testing about 50 separate foods and molds... 654 00:53:31,041 --> 00:53:34,711 to determine what your neutralization doses will consist of. 655 00:53:34,837 --> 00:53:38,047 And then they'll, um — they'll stop it? 656 00:53:38,173 --> 00:53:40,216 Uh, no. Arm, please. 657 00:53:40,342 --> 00:53:42,886 No, neutralization-provocation is a way to aid you... 658 00:53:43,012 --> 00:53:46,764 during your cleaning-up process, but that's all it really is, is an aid. 659 00:53:46,891 --> 00:53:49,100 Okay, this'll sting just a little bit. 660 00:53:49,226 --> 00:53:51,394 [ Woman ] Dr. Reynolds, call for you on 8. 661 00:53:51,562 --> 00:53:53,563 Dr. Reynolds, Eric Delaney on 8. 662 00:53:54,899 --> 00:53:57,692 Okay, that's milk at .01 of two. 663 00:53:57,818 --> 00:53:59,736 Excuse me. 664 00:54:01,071 --> 00:54:03,072 Are you okay? 665 00:54:04,533 --> 00:54:06,784 Eric, Dr. Reynolds. What's up? 666 00:54:08,621 --> 00:54:10,496 Right. 667 00:54:11,916 --> 00:54:13,583 Right. 668 00:54:15,210 --> 00:54:17,086 Well, look. If your oasis... 669 00:54:17,212 --> 00:54:19,422 and twice-a-week injections don't simmer you down... 670 00:54:19,590 --> 00:54:21,507 you know you have other hidden sensitivities... 671 00:54:21,634 --> 00:54:23,843 most likely molds or fungus. 672 00:54:23,969 --> 00:54:26,930 Continue the rare fruit diet, and if you don't get better... 673 00:54:27,097 --> 00:54:29,641 check back with me or have Dr. Baines check into... 674 00:54:29,767 --> 00:54:32,602 - an unresolved candida problem. - [ Labored Breathing ] 675 00:54:32,770 --> 00:54:36,397 - Dr. Reynolds, she's reacting. - Eric, I gotta leave you. 676 00:54:36,523 --> 00:54:39,943 Prepare a neutralizing dose at .01 of three, please. 677 00:54:40,110 --> 00:54:43,488 Carol, this will cease momentarily. I apologize for any discomfort. 678 00:54:43,614 --> 00:54:46,074 - [ Carol Wheezing ] - Sarah, be sure to record... 679 00:54:46,200 --> 00:54:47,951 pulse-rate change following injection. 680 00:54:48,077 --> 00:54:51,245 Okay. .01 of three milligrams. 681 00:54:51,372 --> 00:54:54,290 Okay, thank you. 682 00:54:54,416 --> 00:54:56,459 [ Heavy Wheezing ] 683 00:54:56,585 --> 00:54:58,544 Just take it easy. 684 00:55:03,509 --> 00:55:05,635 Okay. 685 00:55:05,761 --> 00:55:08,805 Okay, we have palpitations with deep distress... 686 00:55:08,931 --> 00:55:12,141 in conjunction with a racing pulse rate of 104. 687 00:55:12,309 --> 00:55:14,811 There’s flushing and some wheezing. 688 00:55:16,146 --> 00:55:18,022 Bit of swelling in the mouth. 689 00:55:18,148 --> 00:55:20,441 [ Moaning ] 690 00:55:20,567 --> 00:55:23,152 This is a big one, Carol. Milk's a biggie. 691 00:55:24,446 --> 00:55:26,280 [ Sarah ] It's okay. 692 00:55:30,828 --> 00:55:32,829 [ Breathing Steadies ] 693 00:55:36,458 --> 00:55:38,334 Are you okay? 694 00:55:46,510 --> 00:55:48,344 Have some water. 695 00:55:53,934 --> 00:55:55,768 Yeah. 696 00:55:55,894 --> 00:55:59,230 We can turn it on and off like a switch. 697 00:55:59,356 --> 00:56:02,108 We just don't know how to make it go away. 698 00:56:07,781 --> 00:56:10,867 The first thing you need to do in order to "Clear"... 699 00:56:11,035 --> 00:56:14,871 is create an oasis in which to live. 700 00:56:14,997 --> 00:56:20,126 Your oasis is your safe place, your toxic-free zone... 701 00:56:20,252 --> 00:56:23,713 where your load has been significantly reduced. 702 00:56:25,090 --> 00:56:26,966 For some, that can mean... 703 00:56:27,092 --> 00:56:29,969 an airtight, porcelain-lined enclosure... 704 00:56:30,095 --> 00:56:32,346 something like a refrigerator. 705 00:56:32,473 --> 00:56:34,515 For others, their safe room... 706 00:56:34,641 --> 00:56:38,394 is just a stripped-down room within their house... 707 00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,689 that's conducive to good ventilation... 708 00:56:41,815 --> 00:56:43,691 or air control. 709 00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,443 [ Woman ] My name is Sarah Pinter. 710 00:56:45,569 --> 00:56:48,488 I live in Orange County, near a fumigation company... 711 00:56:48,614 --> 00:56:51,699 and we're in the process of a suit against the company... 712 00:56:51,825 --> 00:56:54,410 for improper handling of their chemicals, so — 713 00:56:54,536 --> 00:56:58,372 Great. Thank you. Yes? 714 00:56:58,499 --> 00:57:00,666 Would you stand, please? 715 00:57:00,793 --> 00:57:04,337 My name is Abigail Cartier-Rousseau... 716 00:57:04,463 --> 00:57:08,091 and my sensitivity originated with fragrances. 717 00:57:08,258 --> 00:57:10,551 I was employed for 23 years. 718 00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:12,637 - Uh-huh. - I've been spending some time... 719 00:57:12,763 --> 00:57:15,681 at the retreat in Wrenwood, so I'm doing much better. 720 00:57:15,808 --> 00:57:17,308 Great. Great. Terrific. 721 00:57:17,434 --> 00:57:20,228 Thank you. And you, ma'am? 722 00:57:21,105 --> 00:57:22,897 [ Whispering ] Honey. 723 00:57:26,944 --> 00:57:30,404 My name’s Carol White. This is my husband, Greg. 724 00:57:30,531 --> 00:57:33,866 We live in the San Fernando Valley. 725 00:57:33,992 --> 00:57:35,827 [ Whispers ] Greg. 726 00:57:36,870 --> 00:57:39,122 We're here for my wife, who's been ill... 727 00:57:39,289 --> 00:57:41,457 to learn more information... 728 00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:43,751 and hopefully gain from it as well. 729 00:57:43,877 --> 00:57:45,419 Thank you. I hope so too. 730 00:57:45,546 --> 00:57:47,421 [ Woman ] My doctor thinks I'm nuts. 731 00:57:47,548 --> 00:57:50,133 He thinks the whole thing is completely in my head. 732 00:57:50,300 --> 00:57:52,927 That's what my husband Still thinks. 733 00:57:53,053 --> 00:57:55,721 It is in your head. It's in all our heads. 734 00:57:55,848 --> 00:57:57,807 What do you mean by that, Helen? 735 00:57:57,933 --> 00:58:00,184 It makes you crazy. She's right. 736 00:58:00,310 --> 00:58:04,522 It ends up in your head because it affects the neurological. 737 00:58:04,648 --> 00:58:07,650 And it will make you depressed. It really will. 738 00:58:07,818 --> 00:58:10,778 [ Helen ] I mean, how does a five-year-old say it's psychosomatic? 739 00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:13,698 How does he make his eyes swell shut? 740 00:58:13,824 --> 00:58:17,160 Why would he want to do that? 741 00:58:17,286 --> 00:58:20,413 He can't go into "Chunky Cheese" anymore. 742 00:58:20,539 --> 00:58:23,207 He can't go into ShowBiz. 743 00:58:23,333 --> 00:58:25,668 Why would he do that to himself? 744 00:58:25,794 --> 00:58:28,880 It’s true. It’s like, you go into a building... 745 00:58:29,006 --> 00:58:31,507 you're walking along the hall. 746 00:58:31,633 --> 00:58:35,511 You don't know when that monster is gonna jump out at you. 747 00:58:35,679 --> 00:58:37,972 You're just, like, going along the wall... 748 00:58:38,098 --> 00:58:40,308 - like any normal person. - Right. 749 00:58:40,434 --> 00:58:43,186 With your mask and your oxygen tank... 750 00:58:43,353 --> 00:58:46,647 and your bottled water. 751 00:58:46,773 --> 00:58:49,192 So at first I didn't understand why Citrus... 752 00:58:49,359 --> 00:58:52,486 Since I had tested negative for citrus, until all of a sudden... 753 00:58:52,613 --> 00:58:55,698 I remembered how the oranges had rolled out of their plastic... 754 00:58:55,824 --> 00:58:58,075 into the bag with Greg's papers in them. 755 00:58:58,202 --> 00:59:01,662 - [ Traffic Roaring ] - 'Cause newspapers, the ink... 756 00:59:01,788 --> 00:59:03,998 - Really? - also — yeah. 757 00:59:04,124 --> 00:59:06,751 That, and um — 758 00:59:06,877 --> 00:59:09,295 You know our couch? Our beautiful new couch? 759 00:59:09,421 --> 00:59:12,173 - Yeah. - Totally toxic. 760 00:59:12,299 --> 00:59:14,717 - Really? - Yeah. - Wow. 761 00:59:14,843 --> 00:59:17,595 I know. So... 762 00:59:17,721 --> 00:59:19,722 um — 763 00:59:19,890 --> 00:59:22,391 It's hard. Like, I, um... 764 00:59:22,559 --> 00:59:24,894 I can't wear makeup anymore. 765 00:59:25,020 --> 00:59:27,730 - God. - Burns my eyes. I get sick. 766 00:59:29,983 --> 00:59:32,777 Well, I guess one good thing is just... 767 00:59:32,903 --> 00:59:35,321 how it’s made you so much more knowledgeable... 768 00:59:35,447 --> 00:59:37,907 on food and everything, and chemicals. 769 00:59:38,033 --> 00:59:39,575 That's true. 770 00:59:39,743 --> 00:59:42,328 They just know so much more about it there, though... 771 00:59:42,454 --> 00:59:45,748 the people who go through this. I mean — 772 00:59:48,252 --> 00:59:51,045 So much of it, too, is that we were raised... 773 00:59:51,171 --> 00:59:53,297 and grown in a chemical place. 774 00:59:53,423 --> 00:59:55,299 And you go into a grocery store... 775 00:59:55,425 --> 00:59:57,885 and you-you-you you grab a chemical... 776 00:59:58,011 --> 01:00:00,846 without reading, without investigating — 777 01:00:00,973 --> 01:00:02,974 [ Coughing ] 778 01:00:12,234 --> 01:00:13,901 Sorry. 779 01:00:14,945 --> 01:00:17,113 Um — 780 01:00:17,239 --> 01:00:20,408 But anyway, it's just made me... 781 01:00:20,534 --> 01:00:23,953 more aware than I used to be. 782 01:00:24,121 --> 01:00:26,080 - You know what I mean? - Yep. 783 01:00:30,711 --> 01:00:33,129 [ Woman On Recording ] Next up, the load: 784 01:00:33,297 --> 01:00:35,298 What is it, why is it... 785 01:00:35,424 --> 01:00:37,758 and what can be done to improve it? 786 01:00:37,884 --> 01:00:40,886 First, what is your total load? 787 01:00:41,013 --> 01:00:43,889 Well, in the chemical-laden world in which we live... 788 01:00:44,016 --> 01:00:46,267 impurities are all around. 789 01:00:46,393 --> 01:00:49,895 Everyone must deal with a certain amount of impurities and toxins... 790 01:00:50,022 --> 01:00:53,149 at any given time, and that's your load. 791 01:00:53,275 --> 01:00:55,818 It's the maximum amount of toxins... 792 01:00:55,986 --> 01:00:57,737 your body can tolerate... 793 01:00:57,863 --> 01:01:00,031 which, for most people, is rather large. 794 01:01:00,157 --> 01:01:04,160 But a chemically sensitive person is not able to carry a normal load. 795 01:01:04,328 --> 01:01:07,121 What we have to do is unload. 796 01:01:07,247 --> 01:01:09,623 This means we go back to zero... 797 01:01:09,750 --> 01:01:13,127 and, starting from scratch, substance by substance... 798 01:01:13,253 --> 01:01:15,338 we build the load back up. 799 01:01:15,464 --> 01:01:18,007 Remember, the goal is to get clear. 800 01:01:18,175 --> 01:01:22,345 And so the safest and quickest way to clear is to fast. 801 01:01:22,512 --> 01:01:26,474 Fasting, which can last up to five days, depending on the individual... 802 01:01:26,600 --> 01:01:29,727 is usually followed by the rotation diet... 803 01:01:29,853 --> 01:01:31,687 or the rare foods diet... 804 01:01:31,813 --> 01:01:33,898 both of which help protect the system... 805 01:01:34,024 --> 01:01:36,400 while reintroducing foods back into it. 806 01:01:36,526 --> 01:01:38,402 Whatever diet you choose... 807 01:01:38,528 --> 01:01:41,739 be sure to omit mold antigen-containing foods... 808 01:01:41,865 --> 01:01:44,408 like bread, cheese, alcohol... 809 01:01:44,534 --> 01:01:46,827 ketchup, vinegar, mayonnaise... 810 01:01:46,953 --> 01:01:48,996 mustard, coffee, or chocolate. 811 01:01:49,122 --> 01:01:51,957 Molds are very hard on the immune system... 812 01:01:52,084 --> 01:01:54,210 whether you're E.I. or not. 813 01:01:54,336 --> 01:01:56,379 And throughout your unloading process... 814 01:01:56,546 --> 01:01:59,799 be sure to have adjusted your living conditions accordingly. 815 01:01:59,925 --> 01:02:03,886 Safe bodies need safe environments in which to live... 816 01:02:04,012 --> 01:02:06,722 and there are healthy alternatives that exist... 817 01:02:06,890 --> 01:02:09,058 for just about every toxic product... 818 01:02:09,184 --> 01:02:11,727 gas, or ventilation system out there. 819 01:02:11,853 --> 01:02:14,480 But it's up to you to find them. 820 01:02:32,499 --> 01:02:36,919 [ Machine Spraying ] 821 01:02:37,045 --> 01:02:40,589 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. We're spraying right now. 822 01:02:43,969 --> 01:02:45,386 Oh, my God! 823 01:02:45,512 --> 01:02:47,513 [ Siren Wailing ] 824 01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:53,227 [ Man ] Carol, you're doing fine. Just hold in there. 825 01:02:53,353 --> 01:02:55,855 Move your head. Concentrate. 826 01:02:55,981 --> 01:02:58,149 Keep your head to the side, Carol. 827 01:02:58,275 --> 01:03:00,693 [ People Chattering, Indistinct ] 828 01:03:01,945 --> 01:03:03,946 Keep with us, Carol. 829 01:03:04,114 --> 01:03:06,115 Carol, keep your head to the Side. 830 01:03:13,248 --> 01:03:15,374 [ Siren Continues Wailing ] 831 01:03:25,177 --> 01:03:28,637 No unusual foods. No medication. 832 01:03:28,805 --> 01:03:31,640 - Emotional strain? - No. 833 01:03:31,766 --> 01:03:35,436 Well, can you think of anything else that might be causing it? 834 01:03:37,939 --> 01:03:40,774 So what you're saying, Carol, is that this is based... 835 01:03:40,901 --> 01:03:44,028 solely on the pesticide and nothing else. 836 01:03:46,490 --> 01:03:49,241 I have a chemical impairment that makes — 837 01:03:49,367 --> 01:03:52,828 I realize that, Carol, but it's just not turning up on the tests. 838 01:03:52,954 --> 01:03:57,374 - [ Aerosol Can Spraying ] - Please don't do that! 839 01:03:57,501 --> 01:03:59,919 Nurse, don't spray that here. 840 01:04:00,045 --> 01:04:01,629 Thanks. 841 01:04:04,341 --> 01:04:07,384 Look, Carol, from a medical standpoint... 842 01:04:07,511 --> 01:04:10,763 there's no way to prove this thing is an immune system breakdown... 843 01:04:10,889 --> 01:04:14,099 much less one based on environmental factors. 844 01:04:14,226 --> 01:04:18,771 Now, if your psychiatrists can't provide — 845 01:04:18,897 --> 01:04:21,023 Think, honey. I mean... 846 01:04:21,149 --> 01:04:23,317 what gave you the bloody lip? 847 01:04:23,443 --> 01:04:27,780 - What would cause you to actually bleed? - I don't know. 848 01:04:31,034 --> 01:04:32,952 The chemicals. 849 01:04:38,625 --> 01:04:41,544 [ Man On TV ] They visit them, pray with them, get them — 850 01:04:41,711 --> 01:04:43,629 [ Man #2 ] New York — 851 01:04:43,755 --> 01:04:46,257 [ Woman ] ...be the same again. 852 01:04:46,383 --> 01:04:49,176 Things just started tumbling down on top of me. 853 01:04:49,302 --> 01:04:51,971 [ Man #3 ] ...is here to ensure your team ring fits — 854 01:04:52,097 --> 01:04:55,266 [ Man #4 ] No question, this is gonna be a big sales — 855 01:04:55,392 --> 01:04:59,061 [ Woman ] It is a real problem, and I think more people are becoming aware... 856 01:04:59,187 --> 01:05:01,814 because more and more people are becoming sick from chemicals. 857 01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:03,983 [ Man ] Nestled in the foothills of Albuquerque... 858 01:05:04,109 --> 01:05:08,445 the Wrenwood Center describes itself as a nonprofit communal settlement... 859 01:05:08,572 --> 01:05:11,115 dedicated to the healing individual. 860 01:05:11,241 --> 01:05:14,493 Offering the services of a combined health retreat and community center... 861 01:05:14,619 --> 01:05:17,246 - Wrenwood consists of 200 residents... - Greg. 862 01:05:17,372 --> 01:05:19,915 - visitors, and staff, many of whom suffer... - Greg! 863 01:05:20,083 --> 01:05:22,459 - from chemical sensitivity... - Listen. This thing’s on. 864 01:05:22,586 --> 01:05:25,254 including its founder, author Peter Dunning. 865 01:05:25,380 --> 01:05:28,549 Environmental illness is just one of a cluster of new immune disorders... 866 01:05:28,675 --> 01:05:31,302 such as Epstein-Barr syndrome, chronic fatigue syndrome... 867 01:05:31,428 --> 01:05:33,095 and, of course, AIDS... 868 01:05:33,221 --> 01:05:36,682 all of which continue to elude conventional medicine. 869 01:05:36,808 --> 01:05:39,602 At Wrenwood, we offer an alternative. 870 01:05:40,604 --> 01:05:43,981 I like to think of us as a safe haven for troubled times. 871 01:05:44,107 --> 01:05:46,025 We're the most extensive... 872 01:05:46,151 --> 01:05:48,611 cooperative treatment residency of our kind. 873 01:05:48,737 --> 01:05:51,697 But what I think makes us really unique... 874 01:05:51,823 --> 01:05:54,366 - [ Carol ] I think I — - is our emphasis on the individual. 875 01:05:54,492 --> 01:05:55,784 What? 876 01:05:55,910 --> 01:05:59,580 I heard about this place from somewhere. 877 01:05:59,706 --> 01:06:02,708 [ Man ] ...warning us of a disease-ridden future? 878 01:06:02,834 --> 01:06:06,670 lf so, the Wrenwood Center is certainly ahead of its time. 879 01:06:06,796 --> 01:06:08,756 People come for all different reasons. 880 01:06:08,882 --> 01:06:11,967 I guess the thing we all have in common is, like, why. 881 01:06:12,135 --> 01:06:15,471 You know? Why did we all get sick to begin with? 882 01:06:15,597 --> 01:06:17,598 [ Greg ] What's it called? 883 01:06:19,059 --> 01:06:20,059 Wrenwood. 884 01:06:20,060 --> 01:06:21,060 Wrenwood. 885 01:06:21,186 --> 01:06:23,520 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 886 01:07:33,383 --> 01:07:35,384 [ Carol ] It's right in here. 887 01:07:57,198 --> 01:07:59,199 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 888 01:08:04,122 --> 01:08:05,748 [ Woman ] Stop! 889 01:08:05,874 --> 01:08:07,875 Stop! 890 01:08:12,922 --> 01:08:14,923 Not allowed! 891 01:08:15,049 --> 01:08:16,759 Go back! 892 01:08:16,885 --> 01:08:20,429 - Not allowed! - What's she going on about? 893 01:08:20,597 --> 01:08:23,807 - Stop! - Wait. You better stop. 894 01:08:23,933 --> 01:08:26,435 Stop! 895 01:08:26,603 --> 01:08:28,479 Go back! 896 01:08:28,605 --> 01:08:32,065 You're contaminating this entire area! 897 01:08:33,485 --> 01:08:35,819 How much do I owe you? 898 01:09:07,560 --> 01:09:09,228 I see you. 899 01:09:44,347 --> 01:09:46,348 [ Woman ] Excuse me. 900 01:09:49,435 --> 01:09:51,520 - Excuse me. Are you Carol? - Yes. 901 01:09:51,688 --> 01:09:53,897 Hi. I'm Susan. I work with Claire. 902 01:09:54,023 --> 01:09:55,899 - We’ve spoken on the phone. - Hi. 903 01:09:56,025 --> 01:09:57,693 We're so glad you made it. 904 01:09:57,861 --> 01:10:01,113 I heard Nell making a ruckus. I thought it might’ve been your car. 905 01:10:01,239 --> 01:10:03,115 - I hope she wasn't too — - Oh, no. 906 01:10:03,241 --> 01:10:06,660 She's been having a rough time lately. Her husband's very sick... 907 01:10:06,786 --> 01:10:09,204 and she's just... 908 01:10:09,372 --> 01:10:11,206 - well — - That's okay. 909 01:10:11,374 --> 01:10:14,042 Well, let me help you with your things. 910 01:10:14,168 --> 01:10:16,169 I'll take this one. 911 01:10:16,296 --> 01:10:18,171 - Thanks. - Sure. 912 01:10:19,674 --> 01:10:22,509 This is a chemical-free zone. 913 01:10:22,635 --> 01:10:26,179 We have reading boxes, Safe TV... 914 01:10:26,306 --> 01:10:28,515 and there's a 911 phone... 915 01:10:28,641 --> 01:10:31,226 in case of any kind of medical emergency. 916 01:10:31,352 --> 01:10:33,520 Right. 917 01:10:33,646 --> 01:10:36,481 We're sorry your husband wouldn't be able to join you. 918 01:10:36,608 --> 01:10:39,735 I know. He's just in the middle of all this business. 919 01:10:39,903 --> 01:10:43,238 They should be here soon, though, he and our son. 920 01:10:43,406 --> 01:10:46,241 - I should call them, actually. - Sure, sure. 921 01:10:46,367 --> 01:10:49,369 - There's a phone inside at the center. - Great. 922 01:10:51,915 --> 01:10:55,250 [ Susan ] We acquired the center in 1978... 923 01:10:55,376 --> 01:10:58,045 and we've been battling to keep it ever since. 924 01:10:58,171 --> 01:11:00,756 But basically, this is where... 925 01:11:00,924 --> 01:11:04,092 all group convening takes place. 926 01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:06,887 Um, we have all of our workshops... 927 01:11:07,013 --> 01:11:09,932 and, um, our evening talks... 928 01:11:10,099 --> 01:11:11,934 that sort of thing, here. 929 01:11:12,101 --> 01:11:15,687 The dining room is right across the way... 930 01:11:15,813 --> 01:11:18,565 - on the other side of the street. - Oh, hi! 931 01:11:18,691 --> 01:11:22,277 - You must be Carol. - Carol, this is Claire, our director. 932 01:11:22,445 --> 01:11:24,446 Hi. Welcome to Wrenwood. 933 01:11:25,615 --> 01:11:27,616 How was your trip? 934 01:11:29,410 --> 01:11:32,537 Whoops. Well, I guess you're just wiped out. 935 01:11:32,664 --> 01:11:34,957 There’s nothing more debilitating than travel. 936 01:11:35,083 --> 01:11:37,584 Claire was hypersensitive when she first came to Wrenwood. 937 01:11:37,710 --> 01:11:40,796 Now I'm just semi-hypersensitive, like the rest of the world. 938 01:11:40,922 --> 01:11:43,590 - I'm a little — from the flight. - I know. 939 01:11:43,716 --> 01:11:47,469 We'll just quick get you checked in and then take you to your cabin... 940 01:11:47,595 --> 01:11:49,638 and you can plop or whatever till dinner. 941 01:11:49,806 --> 01:11:52,265 But I know there are quite a few people... 942 01:11:52,392 --> 01:11:54,393 who are anxious to meet you. 943 01:11:54,519 --> 01:11:56,061 Thank you. 944 01:11:56,187 --> 01:11:59,606 If you want to leave your bags here and use the pay phones... 945 01:11:59,732 --> 01:12:01,775 they are just beyond the chapel. 946 01:12:01,901 --> 01:12:04,820 - The little auditorium to the right. Okay? - Okay. 947 01:12:06,155 --> 01:12:08,657 [ Claire Laughs ] 948 01:12:08,825 --> 01:12:10,659 Thank you. 949 01:12:16,332 --> 01:12:18,583 [ Phone Dialing ] 950 01:12:18,710 --> 01:12:21,753 [ Line Ringing ] 951 01:12:21,879 --> 01:12:24,715 - [ Greg ] Hello? - Hi. It's me. 952 01:12:24,841 --> 01:12:28,010 - Hi. Are you there? - Yeah, I'm here. 953 01:12:28,177 --> 01:12:30,429 Great! 954 01:12:30,555 --> 01:12:32,848 - Is it nice? - Yeah. 955 01:12:32,974 --> 01:12:35,350 Great. That's great, honey. 956 01:12:35,476 --> 01:12:38,020 Yeah. You know, we'll see. 957 01:12:38,146 --> 01:12:41,023 Did you forget anything? 958 01:12:41,149 --> 01:12:45,527 No, I just thought I'd call, tell you I was here and everything. 959 01:12:45,653 --> 01:12:49,114 I'm glad you caught me. We were about to go grab a bite. 960 01:12:49,240 --> 01:12:50,699 Oh, you go ahead. 961 01:12:50,825 --> 01:12:53,201 - I'm sorry. I just — - No, no, I'm glad. 962 01:12:53,369 --> 01:12:56,038 I'm glad it's nice there. That's great. 963 01:12:56,205 --> 01:12:58,749 Look, you just relax... 964 01:12:58,875 --> 01:13:01,251 and take care of yourself, get well quick... 965 01:13:01,377 --> 01:13:04,546 and we'll come see you in a couple of weeks. 966 01:13:04,672 --> 01:13:07,799 Soon as I reach deadline on this. Okay, babe? 967 01:13:07,925 --> 01:13:10,385 Okay. 968 01:13:10,511 --> 01:13:12,721 - Love you. - I love you too, hon. 969 01:13:12,889 --> 01:13:14,347 Say hi to Ror. 970 01:13:14,474 --> 01:13:18,810 I will. And, um, we'll talk again real soon. 971 01:13:18,936 --> 01:13:20,687 - Okay? - Okay. 972 01:13:20,813 --> 01:13:22,898 - Bye-bye, sweetie. - Bye. 973 01:13:23,024 --> 01:13:24,816 - Night. - Night. 974 01:13:29,447 --> 01:13:29,654 [ Claire ] I want to welcome all newcomers... 975 01:13:29,655 --> 01:13:31,865 [ Claire ] I want to welcome all newcomers... 976 01:13:31,991 --> 01:13:34,743 all short- and long-term visitors... 977 01:13:34,869 --> 01:13:37,788 and extend our warmest support for the acceleration... 978 01:13:37,914 --> 01:13:40,373 of your healing process. 979 01:13:40,500 --> 01:13:42,375 So that you can relax... 980 01:13:42,502 --> 01:13:44,795 and receive the full benefit of your stay here... 981 01:13:44,921 --> 01:13:48,090 we ask that you observe community wishes in the following ways: 982 01:13:49,092 --> 01:13:52,010 Silent meals are observed at breakfast and lunch... 983 01:13:52,136 --> 01:13:55,597 with a side of the room for men and a side for women. 984 01:13:55,765 --> 01:13:58,350 In addition, we ask you to refrain from smoking... 985 01:13:58,476 --> 01:14:01,436 drinking, and use of recreational drugs while on the premises... 986 01:14:01,604 --> 01:14:05,440 and we ask that you respect our practice of moderation in dress... 987 01:14:05,566 --> 01:14:08,568 and restraint in sexual interaction. 988 01:14:08,694 --> 01:14:11,780 Instead, we ask that you try... 989 01:14:11,948 --> 01:14:14,616 to focus these feelings inward... 990 01:14:14,742 --> 01:14:18,245 toward your personal growth and self-realization. 991 01:14:18,371 --> 01:14:21,289 - End of speech. Welcome, everybody... - [ Scattered Chuckles ] 992 01:14:21,415 --> 01:14:24,584 especially our long-termers, Carol and Ward. 993 01:14:28,422 --> 01:14:30,423 And now, with no further ado... 994 01:14:30,550 --> 01:14:33,135 I give you our own Peter Dunning. 995 01:14:33,261 --> 01:14:36,138 [ Man ] Yay, Peter! 996 01:14:36,264 --> 01:14:39,391 - Oh, you like this shirt? - Are you familiar with his books? 997 01:14:39,517 --> 01:14:41,768 - No, I don't think so. - They're so wonderful. 998 01:14:41,894 --> 01:14:43,353 I'll lend you some. 999 01:14:43,479 --> 01:14:46,690 Peter is a chemically sensitive person with AIDS... 1000 01:14:46,816 --> 01:14:49,442 so his perspective is incredibly vast. 1001 01:14:49,569 --> 01:14:52,571 - My deepest welcome to Carol and Wade. - [ Claire ] Ward. 1002 01:14:52,697 --> 01:14:56,324 W-Ward. [ Laughing ] Welcome to Wrenwood. 1003 01:14:59,162 --> 01:15:01,079 All right. If you'd all... 1004 01:15:01,205 --> 01:15:03,206 close your eyes... 1005 01:15:04,959 --> 01:15:07,085 and pass your valuables to the front. 1006 01:15:07,211 --> 01:15:09,921 - [ People Laughing ] - No, no. Come on. 1007 01:15:11,966 --> 01:15:13,967 Not really. Okay. [ Chuckles ] 1008 01:15:14,093 --> 01:15:17,804 So we're feeling good, huh? We're feeling warmth. 1009 01:15:17,930 --> 01:15:20,182 We can look into each other's eyes... 1010 01:15:20,349 --> 01:15:22,559 and actually see rejuvenation... 1011 01:15:22,685 --> 01:15:26,521 and personal transformation happening. 1012 01:15:26,647 --> 01:15:28,190 Why? 1013 01:15:28,357 --> 01:15:31,484 Because we've left the judgmental behind. 1014 01:15:31,611 --> 01:15:33,737 Whew! 1015 01:15:33,863 --> 01:15:36,323 And with it... 1016 01:15:36,449 --> 01:15:40,076 the shaming condition that kept us locked up in all the pain. 1017 01:15:41,871 --> 01:15:44,748 But what I want to share with you tonight... 1018 01:15:44,874 --> 01:15:47,542 what I want to give you tonight... 1019 01:15:48,961 --> 01:15:50,962 is an image to reflect on — 1020 01:15:53,216 --> 01:15:55,550 an image of a world outside... 1021 01:15:57,553 --> 01:15:59,554 as positive... 1022 01:16:01,057 --> 01:16:03,058 and as free... 1023 01:16:04,894 --> 01:16:07,062 as the world we’ve created here. 1024 01:16:08,898 --> 01:16:11,233 Because when you look out on the world... 1025 01:16:11,359 --> 01:16:13,401 from a place of love... 1026 01:16:14,946 --> 01:16:17,322 and a place of forgiveness... 1027 01:16:18,908 --> 01:16:21,409 what you are seeing outside... 1028 01:16:24,413 --> 01:16:27,666 is a reflection of what you feel within. 1029 01:16:30,419 --> 01:16:32,087 Does that make sense? 1030 01:16:34,799 --> 01:16:36,883 - So... - [ Rubbing Hands Together ] 1031 01:16:37,009 --> 01:16:40,095 what do I see outside me? 1032 01:16:40,221 --> 01:16:44,808 I see the growth of environmentalism. Right? 1033 01:16:44,934 --> 01:16:46,977 And holistic study. 1034 01:16:47,103 --> 01:16:51,773 I see a decline in drugs and promiscuity. 1035 01:16:57,238 --> 01:16:58,655 [ Man Cheers ] 1036 01:16:58,781 --> 01:17:01,866 I see sensitivity training in the workplace! 1037 01:17:01,993 --> 01:17:04,077 - Yeah! - And the men's movement. 1038 01:17:04,203 --> 01:17:07,539 - And multiculturalism. - [ Cheering ] 1039 01:17:07,665 --> 01:17:11,126 I see all these positive things outside in the world... 1040 01:17:11,294 --> 01:17:14,504 because what I am seeing is a global transformation... 1041 01:17:14,630 --> 01:17:16,798 identical to the transformation... 1042 01:17:19,218 --> 01:17:22,137 I revel at within. 1043 01:17:27,935 --> 01:17:29,894 And with that — 1044 01:17:30,938 --> 01:17:34,774 [ All Reciting ] We are one with the power that created us. 1045 01:17:34,900 --> 01:17:37,485 We are safe... 1046 01:17:37,611 --> 01:17:40,280 and all is well in our world. 1047 01:17:41,490 --> 01:17:43,491 ♪♪ [ Guitar ] 1048 01:17:48,247 --> 01:17:52,334 ♪ Kind friends all gathered 'round ♪ 1049 01:17:52,501 --> 01:17:55,337 ♪ There's something I would say ♪ 1050 01:17:55,504 --> 01:17:59,090 ♪ That what brings us together here ♪ 1051 01:17:59,216 --> 01:18:04,095 ♪ Has blessed us all today ♪ 1052 01:18:04,221 --> 01:18:08,016 ♪ Love has made a circle ♪ 1053 01:18:08,142 --> 01:18:11,728 ♪ That holds us all inside ♪ 1054 01:18:11,854 --> 01:18:16,107 ♪ Where strangers are as family ♪ 1055 01:18:16,233 --> 01:18:21,112 ♪ And loneliness can't hide ♪ 1056 01:18:21,238 --> 01:18:25,575 [ All ] ♪ So give yourself to love ♪ 1057 01:18:25,701 --> 01:18:29,788 ♪ If love is what you're after ♪ 1058 01:18:29,914 --> 01:18:33,792 ♪ Open up your hearts to ♪ 1059 01:18:33,918 --> 01:18:37,003 ♪ The tears and laughter, and ♪ 1060 01:18:37,129 --> 01:18:40,799 ♪ Give yourself to love ♪ 1061 01:18:40,925 --> 01:18:45,095 ♪ Give yourself to love ♪♪ 1062 01:18:57,274 --> 01:18:59,567 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1063 01:20:00,921 --> 01:20:02,922 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 1064 01:20:07,303 --> 01:20:09,387 [ Sobbing ] 1065 01:20:36,415 --> 01:20:39,334 Carol? I'm sorry. 1066 01:20:39,502 --> 01:20:42,212 - Are you having a reaction? - No. No. 1067 01:20:42,338 --> 01:20:44,088 I'm fine. 1068 01:20:51,013 --> 01:20:52,680 [ Claire ] Ohh. 1069 01:20:54,683 --> 01:20:58,144 - [ Sobbing ] - Oh, shh. 1070 01:21:02,358 --> 01:21:04,901 Oh, come on. Shh. 1071 01:21:09,865 --> 01:21:12,325 That's okay. 1072 01:21:12,451 --> 01:21:15,036 Just breathe. [ Inhales ] 1073 01:21:15,204 --> 01:21:17,413 [ Exhales ] That's right. 1074 01:21:17,540 --> 01:21:20,208 [ Inhales ] Good. 1075 01:21:21,377 --> 01:21:23,378 [ Claire Exhales ] 1076 01:21:23,546 --> 01:21:26,464 That's good. You're okay. 1077 01:21:30,052 --> 01:21:32,762 Tsk. Oh, Carol. 1078 01:21:32,888 --> 01:21:35,223 You know something? 1079 01:21:36,350 --> 01:21:40,562 All these feelings you're having are just fine. 1080 01:21:41,564 --> 01:21:43,565 They're so natural. 1081 01:21:44,567 --> 01:21:48,695 I mean, you’ve just done Something so big — 1082 01:21:48,821 --> 01:21:51,406 you know, something... 1083 01:21:51,532 --> 01:21:54,284 many people never do in their lifetimes. 1084 01:21:54,410 --> 01:21:58,871 You’ve taken this big step on your own behalf. 1085 01:21:58,998 --> 01:22:03,626 You’ve... left behind everything that’s known and secure... 1086 01:22:03,752 --> 01:22:06,671 and all the people you love and trust... 1087 01:22:06,797 --> 01:22:09,841 and you’ve come to this strange new place... 1088 01:22:09,967 --> 01:22:12,010 with strange new people. 1089 01:22:14,722 --> 01:22:17,432 It's completely understandable... 1090 01:22:17,558 --> 01:22:19,892 that you might feel lonely... 1091 01:22:20,019 --> 01:22:23,438 or fearful or even angry. 1092 01:22:27,818 --> 01:22:29,861 You know... 1093 01:22:29,987 --> 01:22:32,947 when I first came here, I couldn't even walk. 1094 01:22:34,658 --> 01:22:38,286 I'd been living six miles from this chemical factory — 1095 01:22:38,454 --> 01:22:41,289 this was in Michigan — 1096 01:22:41,415 --> 01:22:45,043 that was leaking, like, 15 gallons... 1097 01:22:45,169 --> 01:22:47,754 of chemical by-products every day. 1098 01:22:49,923 --> 01:22:54,093 When I got here, all I could do was just sit in my safe room... 1099 01:22:54,219 --> 01:22:56,220 and every day... 1100 01:22:56,347 --> 01:22:59,349 every hour of every day... 1101 01:22:59,475 --> 01:23:01,643 I would look at myself in the mirror... 1102 01:23:01,810 --> 01:23:05,229 and I would say to myself... 1103 01:23:05,356 --> 01:23:07,649 "Claire... 1104 01:23:07,775 --> 01:23:09,734 I love you. 1105 01:23:11,820 --> 01:23:13,821 I really love you." 1106 01:23:17,743 --> 01:23:20,870 At the end of the month, I could leave my room... 1107 01:23:20,996 --> 01:23:24,749 and shortly thereafter, I was walking. 1108 01:23:27,836 --> 01:23:30,171 For me... 1109 01:23:30,297 --> 01:23:34,217 this was a gift, this whole thing was a gift... 1110 01:23:34,343 --> 01:23:37,679 because everything got taken away from me. 1111 01:23:37,805 --> 01:23:39,847 I — I mean... 1112 01:23:39,973 --> 01:23:44,602 everything in the material world. 1113 01:23:44,728 --> 01:23:47,647 And what was left... 1114 01:23:49,233 --> 01:23:50,942 was me. 1115 01:23:59,535 --> 01:24:01,536 Thank you, Claire. 1116 01:24:03,706 --> 01:24:05,707 Are you better? 1117 01:24:07,042 --> 01:24:09,043 You'll do fine. 1118 01:24:14,258 --> 01:24:16,050 - Sweet dreams. - Good night. 1119 01:24:16,218 --> 01:24:17,635 Good night. 1120 01:24:27,229 --> 01:24:30,231 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1121 01:24:46,749 --> 01:24:48,750 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 1122 01:24:48,917 --> 01:24:52,253 [ Softly ] ♪ Forever and ever — ♪ 1123 01:24:52,379 --> 01:24:54,422 ♪ You're right where I found — ♪ 1124 01:24:58,594 --> 01:25:01,596 ♪ Sweet love’s showin' us — ♪ 1125 01:25:03,557 --> 01:25:06,684 - ♪ Never seen such a beautiful — ♪ - [ Train Horn Sounds ] 1126 01:25:12,357 --> 01:25:12,440 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1127 01:25:12,441 --> 01:25:14,525 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1128 01:25:29,500 --> 01:25:32,585 [ Carol's Voice ] Dear Greg and Rory... 1129 01:25:32,711 --> 01:25:34,629 how are you guys? 1130 01:25:34,797 --> 01:25:38,633 I hope everything is going good. l really miss you. 1131 01:25:38,801 --> 01:25:42,637 I'm feeling a little better, so I decided to stay the full amount. 1132 01:25:42,763 --> 01:25:45,264 At first it was hard to get used to... 1133 01:25:45,390 --> 01:25:47,892 but now I really think it's starting to help. 1134 01:25:48,018 --> 01:25:51,395 I've been so much more relaxed and eating healthfully... 1135 01:25:51,522 --> 01:25:54,440 and the desert landscape is really beautiful here. 1136 01:26:01,740 --> 01:26:03,741 [ Vehicle Approaching ] 1137 01:26:14,837 --> 01:26:17,755 I can't wait till the 25th to show you around... 1138 01:26:17,881 --> 01:26:20,466 and introduce you to everyone. 1139 01:26:20,592 --> 01:26:23,928 Give my love to Sally and your mother and Linda... 1140 01:26:24,054 --> 01:26:27,098 and be sure and help your dad, Ror. 1141 01:26:27,224 --> 01:26:29,684 Love and kisses, Carol. 1142 01:26:31,395 --> 01:26:33,437 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 1143 01:26:45,075 --> 01:26:47,243 Is that Lester you're watching? 1144 01:26:47,369 --> 01:26:49,370 Sorry. I didn't mean to startle you. 1145 01:26:49,538 --> 01:26:51,205 Oh, it's fine. 1146 01:26:51,373 --> 01:26:54,709 I was just watching him go by. 1147 01:26:54,835 --> 01:26:57,044 Why does he — 1148 01:26:57,170 --> 01:27:01,132 [ Peter ] Oh, poor Lester. He's just... 1149 01:27:01,258 --> 01:27:03,384 very, very afraid — 1150 01:27:03,552 --> 01:27:06,137 afraid to eat, afraid to breathe. 1151 01:27:10,392 --> 01:27:12,810 But let's talk about you. 1152 01:27:12,936 --> 01:27:15,438 I heard you weren't feeling so hot. 1153 01:27:15,564 --> 01:27:18,065 It was just a little, um... 1154 01:27:18,191 --> 01:27:21,652 Shortness of breath and some dizziness. 1155 01:27:21,778 --> 01:27:23,905 I noticed the highway near here... 1156 01:27:24,072 --> 01:27:26,407 and I wondered if maybe my cabin room... 1157 01:27:26,575 --> 01:27:29,201 was a little downwind or something. 1158 01:27:29,328 --> 01:27:31,579 I thought maybe if I tried another cabin — 1159 01:27:31,705 --> 01:27:34,957 - Claire would be the best person to speak to about that. - Claire is? 1160 01:27:35,083 --> 01:27:37,919 - She's really the one. - Okay. 1161 01:27:38,086 --> 01:27:40,880 I remember Claire sharing with me a little while back... 1162 01:27:41,006 --> 01:27:43,090 some concern over you. 1163 01:27:43,258 --> 01:27:45,593 That you'd been feeling Some remorse... 1164 01:27:47,930 --> 01:27:49,931 maybe some apprehension. 1165 01:27:52,392 --> 01:27:54,268 - I was just — - All I'm saying... 1166 01:27:54,394 --> 01:27:58,689 is that these feelings you're having, Carol, are extremely common... 1167 01:27:58,815 --> 01:28:01,734 especially in relation to new environments. 1168 01:28:01,860 --> 01:28:05,529 Especially for someone who's environmentally ill, okay? 1169 01:28:05,656 --> 01:28:08,491 And what we're about is trying to help absorb... 1170 01:28:08,617 --> 01:28:10,952 as many of these tensions as we can... 1171 01:28:11,078 --> 01:28:13,663 so you're free to do the kind of healing... 1172 01:28:13,789 --> 01:28:15,957 that you need to be doing. 1173 01:28:16,083 --> 01:28:18,042 - Does that make any sense? - Yes. 1174 01:28:18,168 --> 01:28:20,586 'Cause when that's accomplished, I'm doing my job. 1175 01:28:20,712 --> 01:28:23,297 No, I know. I'm just still learning... 1176 01:28:23,423 --> 01:28:26,968 you know, um, the words. 1177 01:28:27,094 --> 01:28:29,470 Oh. Well... 1178 01:28:29,638 --> 01:28:31,639 the words are... 1179 01:28:31,807 --> 01:28:34,809 just the way to get to what's true. 1180 01:28:34,935 --> 01:28:36,310 - Right? - Right. 1181 01:28:36,436 --> 01:28:37,853 - See the coyote? - Where? 1182 01:28:37,980 --> 01:28:39,981 Straight. 1183 01:29:35,787 --> 01:29:38,039 - Is that all right? - Sure. 1184 01:29:40,709 --> 01:29:43,085 I need a partner. 1185 01:29:43,211 --> 01:29:45,629 Great. 1186 01:29:45,756 --> 01:29:48,174 Guess we'll have to figure out what to cook. 1187 01:29:48,300 --> 01:29:50,051 - Right. - Yeah. 1188 01:29:51,386 --> 01:29:53,929 All right, well... 1189 01:29:54,056 --> 01:29:57,349 I'll think about... what to cook. 1190 01:29:57,476 --> 01:29:59,477 Me too. 1191 01:30:00,687 --> 01:30:02,438 Bye. 1192 01:30:07,569 --> 01:30:10,321 She had all these little different, you know... 1193 01:30:10,447 --> 01:30:14,700 candies and stuff she'd keep in there. 1194 01:30:14,826 --> 01:30:18,370 [ People Talking Quietly, Voices Overlapping ] 1195 01:30:18,497 --> 01:30:22,166 She used to let me open the clasp and look inside the purse... 1196 01:30:22,292 --> 01:30:25,503 then close the clasp. 1197 01:30:25,629 --> 01:30:28,214 I'll never forget that purse. 1198 01:30:32,052 --> 01:30:33,844 [ Man ] Okay. 1199 01:30:33,970 --> 01:30:36,430 Now, speaker number two... 1200 01:30:36,556 --> 01:30:39,600 describe to your friend a room... 1201 01:30:39,768 --> 01:30:42,103 you remember having as a child. 1202 01:30:45,440 --> 01:30:48,484 - Um — - [ People Talking ] 1203 01:30:49,945 --> 01:30:51,946 Um — Um — 1204 01:30:55,951 --> 01:30:57,952 God, this is — 1205 01:31:03,125 --> 01:31:06,127 I guess this one I had was — 1206 01:31:08,672 --> 01:31:10,464 had... 1207 01:31:11,508 --> 01:31:14,677 - yellow wallpaper... - [ Vehicle Approaches, Stops ] 1208 01:31:14,803 --> 01:31:17,471 - and — - [ Siren Chirps ] 1209 01:31:17,597 --> 01:31:21,559 - [ Vehicle Doors Close ] - [ Footsteps Running ] 1210 01:31:22,769 --> 01:31:24,436 [ People Murmuring ] 1211 01:31:24,563 --> 01:31:27,106 [ Woman ] What's going on over there? 1212 01:31:27,232 --> 01:31:29,567 - Oh, my God. - Who's that? 1213 01:31:29,693 --> 01:31:31,902 - Who's the guy? - I don't know. 1214 01:31:32,028 --> 01:31:36,198 - [ Man ] I think it’s Nell’s husband. - [ Woman #2 ] That looks like Nell's husband. 1215 01:31:40,662 --> 01:31:42,663 [ Man Exclaims ] 1216 01:31:48,670 --> 01:31:50,337 Today... 1217 01:31:53,508 --> 01:31:55,885 is another... 1218 01:31:56,011 --> 01:31:58,512 precious day on earth... 1219 01:32:00,599 --> 01:32:02,683 so let's throw away... 1220 01:32:02,809 --> 01:32:04,685 every negative... 1221 01:32:07,063 --> 01:32:10,107 destructive thought we might have... 1222 01:32:11,860 --> 01:32:14,361 and look around ourselves with love. 1223 01:32:21,328 --> 01:32:23,537 I tried to teach him this — 1224 01:32:28,335 --> 01:32:30,711 to give up the rage... 1225 01:32:36,009 --> 01:32:38,510 to strive for a quiet mind. 1226 01:32:46,645 --> 01:32:49,730 [ Clears Throat ] My concern is, it sounds like a spiraling down. 1227 01:32:49,898 --> 01:32:52,858 If you're feeling more sensitive to the fumes that way... 1228 01:32:52,984 --> 01:32:55,527 you shouldn't really be outside. 1229 01:32:56,738 --> 01:33:00,741 The problem is, there just aren't any center accommodations available now... 1230 01:33:00,867 --> 01:33:03,077 except for cabins and dormitories. 1231 01:33:03,203 --> 01:33:05,454 Oh, I'm fine, really. 1232 01:33:05,580 --> 01:33:09,250 Oh, except for Harry's. 1233 01:33:09,417 --> 01:33:11,669 Harry's? 1234 01:33:11,795 --> 01:33:14,421 Mr. Keene, Nell's husband, built a safe house. 1235 01:33:14,589 --> 01:33:16,882 You can see it. It's right next to recycling... 1236 01:33:17,008 --> 01:33:19,093 over there, the little white igloo. 1237 01:33:19,261 --> 01:33:22,179 - He lived in that? - Oh, yeah. 1238 01:33:22,305 --> 01:33:25,683 After his stroke, he needed a more controllable space... 1239 01:33:25,809 --> 01:33:29,603 so she stayed in the cabin, and he lived in the safe house. 1240 01:33:29,729 --> 01:33:31,772 And he actually improved. 1241 01:33:31,940 --> 01:33:34,108 It's ventilated and porcelain-lined... 1242 01:33:34,276 --> 01:33:38,362 and he was perfectly safe as long as no one set foot inside. 1243 01:33:39,948 --> 01:33:42,533 I don't know what she's planning to do with it. 1244 01:33:45,620 --> 01:33:47,621 [ People Applauding ] 1245 01:33:52,419 --> 01:33:55,879 [ Peter ] Ladies and gentlemen, I have a confession I'd like to make. 1246 01:33:59,050 --> 01:34:01,552 I’ve stopped reading the papers. 1247 01:34:05,056 --> 01:34:07,641 I’ve stopped watching the news on TV. 1248 01:34:10,437 --> 01:34:12,813 I’ve heard the media gloom and doom... 1249 01:34:12,939 --> 01:34:16,191 and I've seen their fatalistic, negative attitude... 1250 01:34:16,318 --> 01:34:19,611 and I finally realized, once and for all, I don't need it. 1251 01:34:21,948 --> 01:34:25,326 And so I transform that negative stimulus... 1252 01:34:25,452 --> 01:34:28,120 into something that will not do harm to me. 1253 01:34:31,374 --> 01:34:34,501 Because if I really believe that life is... 1254 01:34:37,297 --> 01:34:40,424 that devastating, that destructive... 1255 01:34:44,679 --> 01:34:48,015 I'm afraid that my immune system will believe it too... 1256 01:34:51,144 --> 01:34:53,520 and I can't afford to take that risk. 1257 01:34:56,358 --> 01:34:58,525 Neither can you. 1258 01:35:13,208 --> 01:35:14,708 We are one — 1259 01:35:14,834 --> 01:35:17,544 [ All Reciting ] With the power that created us. 1260 01:35:17,712 --> 01:35:20,964 - We are safe... - [ Carol ] We are safe... 1261 01:35:21,091 --> 01:35:23,384 and all is well in our world. 1262 01:35:31,226 --> 01:35:34,228 So my brother called, and Darlene had another girl. 1263 01:35:34,396 --> 01:35:37,064 Oh. I'll call them tonight. 1264 01:35:38,233 --> 01:35:41,110 Oh, and Linda called and said to hurry up... 1265 01:35:41,236 --> 01:35:43,862 and clear or clean or whatever it is.. 1266 01:35:43,988 --> 01:35:46,865 - "Clear." - and come on home. 1267 01:35:46,991 --> 01:35:48,992 That's sweet. 1268 01:35:56,334 --> 01:35:59,211 So you really feel like it's... 1269 01:35:59,337 --> 01:36:02,089 still the right choice? I mean — 1270 01:36:02,257 --> 01:36:05,092 Yeah, I — 1271 01:36:05,260 --> 01:36:07,678 I do. I mean... 1272 01:36:07,804 --> 01:36:10,472 right before the fumes, I was good. 1273 01:36:10,598 --> 01:36:12,641 My load was up. 1274 01:36:12,767 --> 01:36:15,352 I was eating well, so — 1275 01:36:15,478 --> 01:36:17,938 What did they say about the fumes? 1276 01:36:18,106 --> 01:36:22,443 Just that I'd probably move to another, different cabin somewhere... 1277 01:36:22,569 --> 01:36:26,238 - Uh-huh. - where I won't feel them. 1278 01:36:26,364 --> 01:36:28,198 Right. 1279 01:36:30,702 --> 01:36:32,578 Okay. 1280 01:36:32,704 --> 01:36:36,373 I just think it's true what they say — 1281 01:36:36,499 --> 01:36:40,252 that it's up to the individual, and that it takes time. 1282 01:36:42,589 --> 01:36:44,214 Right. 1283 01:36:48,803 --> 01:36:51,930 - [ Greg ] Whose house is that? - [ Carol ] That's Peter's. 1284 01:36:52,056 --> 01:36:55,392 - It's gorgeous, isn't it? - Yeah. 1285 01:36:55,518 --> 01:36:58,979 - Feel like moving? - No. 1286 01:37:05,445 --> 01:37:07,654 [ Nell Sobbing ] 1287 01:37:11,159 --> 01:37:13,160 [ Objects Clattering ] 1288 01:37:19,584 --> 01:37:22,628 [ Sobbing Continues ] 1289 01:37:23,630 --> 01:37:25,422 She's, um — 1290 01:37:27,467 --> 01:37:29,885 Her husband just passed away. 1291 01:37:36,476 --> 01:37:38,477 Come on, Rory. 1292 01:37:42,315 --> 01:37:44,024 Now! 1293 01:37:52,659 --> 01:37:54,201 Steve... 1294 01:37:54,327 --> 01:37:56,537 why did you become sick? 1295 01:37:56,704 --> 01:37:59,873 Um, well, I became sick... 1296 01:37:59,999 --> 01:38:03,502 because I just O.D.'d on all the drugs I was doing. 1297 01:38:03,628 --> 01:38:06,838 Uh-huh. Why did you become addicted? 1298 01:38:08,049 --> 01:38:10,425 Well, I guess I became addicted... 1299 01:38:10,552 --> 01:38:13,720 to, like, blot out the pain... 1300 01:38:13,846 --> 01:38:17,224 of not liking myself. 1301 01:38:18,601 --> 01:38:21,562 - Of hating myself, really. - Mm. 1302 01:38:23,439 --> 01:38:25,816 Self-hatred. 1303 01:38:25,942 --> 01:38:27,568 Yep. 1304 01:38:28,903 --> 01:38:31,238 Okay. Thanks, Steve. 1305 01:38:34,742 --> 01:38:36,535 - Hello, Joyce. - Hi. 1306 01:38:36,661 --> 01:38:39,079 - How are you? - I'm okay. 1307 01:38:40,373 --> 01:38:43,375 Joyce, what do you think was behind your illness? 1308 01:38:44,377 --> 01:38:46,336 Why did you become sick? 1309 01:38:48,256 --> 01:38:51,883 I believe that I made myself sick... 1310 01:38:52,010 --> 01:38:54,094 after my son got sick... 1311 01:38:54,262 --> 01:38:57,431 because I was just — 1312 01:38:57,557 --> 01:39:01,810 Well, you get so eaten up with guilt, really. 1313 01:39:01,936 --> 01:39:05,105 You know, because I felt that I had done it to him. 1314 01:39:05,273 --> 01:39:08,317 I was the one who put him in that school. 1315 01:39:08,443 --> 01:39:10,611 I put him in that environment. 1316 01:39:10,737 --> 01:39:12,779 You were punishing yourself. 1317 01:39:19,120 --> 01:39:20,704 Yeah. 1318 01:39:42,310 --> 01:39:43,852 Thanks. 1319 01:39:46,189 --> 01:39:47,814 Marilyn? 1320 01:39:51,444 --> 01:39:53,445 I was, um... 1321 01:39:55,490 --> 01:39:58,742 deeply wounded as a child... 1322 01:39:59,994 --> 01:40:04,498 and had completely blocked it out for years... 1323 01:40:04,666 --> 01:40:08,919 and then, uh, suddenly became very ill. 1324 01:40:09,045 --> 01:40:11,046 Why, do you think? 1325 01:40:13,508 --> 01:40:16,885 Maybe to let myself know Something was wrong. 1326 01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:19,346 Okay. 1327 01:40:19,514 --> 01:40:22,099 And... 1328 01:40:22,225 --> 01:40:25,018 the person who hurt you the most — 1329 01:40:27,730 --> 01:40:29,439 Was me. 1330 01:40:31,609 --> 01:40:34,027 For? 1331 01:40:36,864 --> 01:40:38,865 Not forgiving him. 1332 01:40:41,452 --> 01:40:43,161 Okay. 1333 01:40:45,039 --> 01:40:47,040 Thank you, Marilyn. 1334 01:40:49,001 --> 01:40:50,711 Um, Carol... 1335 01:40:52,338 --> 01:40:54,506 would you like to respond? 1336 01:40:55,550 --> 01:40:57,551 Okay, okay. 1337 01:40:57,677 --> 01:40:59,928 We don't want to force anyone. 1338 01:41:00,054 --> 01:41:01,555 Nell? 1339 01:41:03,933 --> 01:41:05,517 What? 1340 01:41:05,643 --> 01:41:08,395 Would you like to take part? 1341 01:41:08,563 --> 01:41:10,647 What is the question? 1342 01:41:11,691 --> 01:41:13,608 The question is... 1343 01:41:13,735 --> 01:41:16,486 why did you become sick? 1344 01:41:23,286 --> 01:41:26,371 [ Sighs ] First, I got sick... 1345 01:41:26,497 --> 01:41:29,958 and my husband thought I was crazy... 1346 01:41:30,084 --> 01:41:32,502 and then he got sick the same way. 1347 01:41:34,380 --> 01:41:37,591 What was happening in your life around the time that you — 1348 01:41:37,717 --> 01:41:41,094 How were you feeling when you first got sick? 1349 01:41:46,476 --> 01:41:49,394 I just wanted to get a gun... 1350 01:41:49,520 --> 01:41:53,940 and blow off the heads of everyone who got me like this. 1351 01:41:55,568 --> 01:41:58,111 Nobody out there made you sick. You know that. 1352 01:41:58,237 --> 01:42:01,281 The only person who can make you get sick is you, right? 1353 01:42:01,407 --> 01:42:04,743 Whatever the sickness, if our immune system is damaged... 1354 01:42:04,869 --> 01:42:07,037 it’s because we have allowed it to be... 1355 01:42:07,163 --> 01:42:09,915 through exactly the kind of anger you're showing us now. 1356 01:42:10,041 --> 01:42:12,250 Does that make sense? 1357 01:42:12,376 --> 01:42:14,503 Does anybody have a problem with that? 1358 01:42:16,631 --> 01:42:20,091 Which is why you need to remember your affirmations... 1359 01:42:20,218 --> 01:42:23,094 and figure out how to love Nell a lot more. 1360 01:42:24,222 --> 01:42:26,431 And even Nell's disease. 1361 01:42:28,893 --> 01:42:31,102 And put that gun of yours away. 1362 01:42:38,152 --> 01:42:40,153 Sometimes — 1363 01:42:41,739 --> 01:42:46,243 Sometimes all I see is the hatred and frailty... 1364 01:42:49,747 --> 01:42:52,165 people's cruelty to one another... 1365 01:42:52,333 --> 01:42:54,668 cruelty to themselves... 1366 01:42:56,546 --> 01:42:58,547 and I realize... 1367 01:43:01,133 --> 01:43:02,926 how lucky I am. 1368 01:43:11,352 --> 01:43:13,353 How blessed. 1369 01:43:28,369 --> 01:43:30,579 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1370 01:44:05,990 --> 01:44:07,991 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 1371 01:44:08,117 --> 01:44:10,869 - Is that everything? - I think so. 1372 01:44:12,622 --> 01:44:15,290 Rory, be careful with that. It’s real heavy. 1373 01:44:15,416 --> 01:44:17,042 I have it! 1374 01:44:17,168 --> 01:44:19,419 Rory, don't talk to your mother in that tone. 1375 01:44:19,587 --> 01:44:21,254 Fine. 1376 01:44:23,257 --> 01:44:26,426 - What time's your flight? - 7:20. 1377 01:44:26,594 --> 01:44:28,637 Ror, if you really want to be helpful... 1378 01:44:28,763 --> 01:44:31,932 make sure our stuff's in the car and we're ready to go. 1379 01:44:32,099 --> 01:44:33,683 [ Rory Scoffs ] 1380 01:44:33,809 --> 01:44:35,936 - Want me to get that? - I got it. 1381 01:44:36,062 --> 01:44:37,812 You sure? 1382 01:44:45,780 --> 01:44:47,906 - Whoa. Watch it. - Whoops. 1383 01:44:48,658 --> 01:44:50,367 You okay? 1384 01:44:58,584 --> 01:45:01,002 You all right? 1385 01:45:01,128 --> 01:45:04,297 I think it might be your cologne. 1386 01:45:04,465 --> 01:45:07,133 Honey, I'm not wearing any cologne. 1387 01:45:07,259 --> 01:45:09,594 Uh, maybe in the shirt. 1388 01:45:09,720 --> 01:45:11,638 I don't know. 1389 01:45:11,806 --> 01:45:14,224 [ Sighs, Mutters ] 1390 01:45:20,314 --> 01:45:24,401 Well, I guess we better get moving if we're gonna catch the plane. 1391 01:45:24,527 --> 01:45:26,861 You gonna be okay? 1392 01:45:26,988 --> 01:45:29,990 I'm fine. It's just for a short time. 1393 01:45:30,157 --> 01:45:32,158 - I know. - I'll be fine. 1394 01:45:32,284 --> 01:45:33,868 Okay. 1395 01:45:37,164 --> 01:45:39,624 - Can I hug you? - Of course. 1396 01:46:13,951 --> 01:46:17,579 So this other guy didn't know anything was wrong with him either... 1397 01:46:17,705 --> 01:46:20,790 except that whenever he would go into a mall... 1398 01:46:20,916 --> 01:46:23,418 he would get totally depressed — 1399 01:46:23,544 --> 01:46:27,881 you know, start crying really hard, and contemplating suicide. 1400 01:46:28,007 --> 01:46:31,342 And then he would step outside, and he would be fine. 1401 01:46:31,469 --> 01:46:35,346 You know, totally normal. This would happen every single time. 1402 01:46:35,473 --> 01:46:38,224 - God. - Yeah. 1403 01:46:38,392 --> 01:46:40,894 - You know what they called him? - What? 1404 01:46:41,020 --> 01:46:44,689 "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. For-mall-dehyde." 1405 01:46:44,815 --> 01:46:47,734 [ Carol Laughing ] Oh, God. 1406 01:46:47,860 --> 01:46:50,236 - I'm so gullible. - No, I'm serious. 1407 01:46:50,362 --> 01:46:52,447 This really happened. 1408 01:46:54,033 --> 01:46:57,577 I always forget if it's pasta, cheese, sauce... 1409 01:46:57,745 --> 01:47:00,246 cheese, pasta... 1410 01:47:00,372 --> 01:47:03,625 or pasta, sauce, cheese... 1411 01:47:03,751 --> 01:47:07,212 pasta, cheese, sauce. 1412 01:47:07,338 --> 01:47:10,590 I think it's pasta... 1413 01:47:10,716 --> 01:47:12,884 pasta, pasta, pasta, cheese... 1414 01:47:13,010 --> 01:47:15,637 - Stop it! Stop it! - pasta, sauce. 1415 01:47:15,763 --> 01:47:18,056 Suddenly all I see... 1416 01:47:18,182 --> 01:47:21,309 all over my hands and my legs are... 1417 01:47:21,435 --> 01:47:24,896 black, horrible sores all over me, oozing. 1418 01:47:25,022 --> 01:47:27,440 And at first I'm horrified... 1419 01:47:27,608 --> 01:47:30,276 and I'm full of self-pity and anger. 1420 01:47:30,444 --> 01:47:33,113 I'm enraged until I realize — 1421 01:47:33,239 --> 01:47:35,782 Suddenly I look down again, and I realize... 1422 01:47:35,950 --> 01:47:38,076 that they aren't sores at all... 1423 01:47:38,202 --> 01:47:42,288 but these... black pansies... 1424 01:47:42,414 --> 01:47:46,543 these sort of wilted black pansies I used to pick when I was a child. 1425 01:47:46,669 --> 01:47:48,795 So in my dream, I remember that. 1426 01:47:48,921 --> 01:47:50,964 And as I pick up... 1427 01:47:51,132 --> 01:47:53,258 each wilted flower... 1428 01:47:53,384 --> 01:47:55,635 they would just instantly... 1429 01:47:55,803 --> 01:47:57,762 bloom into beautiful bouquets. 1430 01:47:57,888 --> 01:48:00,140 - Oh! - [ Whistles ] Every single one. 1431 01:48:00,307 --> 01:48:02,976 - [ Susan ] Ending in rejoice. - [ Claire ] That's remarkably clear. 1432 01:48:03,144 --> 01:48:04,978 It's extraordinary. 1433 01:48:05,104 --> 01:48:07,272 Incredible lasagna, by the way, guys. 1434 01:48:07,398 --> 01:48:10,525 - [ Peter ] Yeah. - [ Claire ] Great dinner, both of you. 1435 01:48:10,651 --> 01:48:13,528 And you know, it almost tasted like the real thing. 1436 01:48:13,654 --> 01:48:15,405 To Carol and Chris. 1437 01:48:15,531 --> 01:48:17,740 - To Carol and Chris. - To Carol and Chris. 1438 01:48:17,867 --> 01:48:20,160 ♪♪ [ Pop Rock ] 1439 01:48:21,787 --> 01:48:25,707 ♪ Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light ♪ 1440 01:48:25,833 --> 01:48:29,169 ♪ Never seen such a beautiful sight ♪ 1441 01:48:29,336 --> 01:48:33,173 ♪ Sweet love glowing on us every night ♪ 1442 01:48:33,299 --> 01:48:36,509 ♪ I know forever we'll be doing it ♪ 1443 01:48:36,677 --> 01:48:40,513 ♪ Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light ♪ 1444 01:48:40,639 --> 01:48:43,933 ♪ I never seen such a beautiful sight ♪ 1445 01:48:44,059 --> 01:48:48,104 ♪ Sweet love glowing on us every night ♪ 1446 01:48:48,230 --> 01:48:52,066 ♪ I know forever we'll be doing it right ♪ 1447 01:48:52,193 --> 01:48:56,279 ♪ Whenever I call you friend ♪ 1448 01:48:56,405 --> 01:48:59,741 ♪ I believe I've come to understand ♪ 1449 01:48:59,867 --> 01:49:04,078 ♪ Everywhere we are you and I were meant to be ♪ 1450 01:49:04,205 --> 01:49:06,247 ♪ Forever and ever ♪ 1451 01:49:06,373 --> 01:49:10,877 ♪ I think about the times to come ♪ 1452 01:49:11,003 --> 01:49:14,088 ♪ Knowing I will be the lucky one ♪ 1453 01:49:14,215 --> 01:49:16,966 ♪ And ever our love will last ♪ 1454 01:49:17,092 --> 01:49:22,722 ♪ I always want to call you friend ♪ 1455 01:49:22,890 --> 01:49:26,893 ♪ Sweet love's showin' us a heavenly light ♪ 1456 01:49:27,019 --> 01:49:29,562 ♪ Never seen such a beautiful sight ♪ 1457 01:49:29,730 --> 01:49:32,065 - ♪♪ [ Fades ] - [ All Complaining ] 1458 01:49:32,191 --> 01:49:34,442 Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. 1459 01:49:34,568 --> 01:49:37,487 Um, I've got a little announcement to make. 1460 01:49:37,613 --> 01:49:41,074 Um, since it's almost tomorrow... 1461 01:49:41,200 --> 01:49:43,284 and tomorrow happens to be... 1462 01:49:43,410 --> 01:49:47,372 - Carol's birthday... - [ All ] Ooh! 1463 01:49:47,498 --> 01:49:50,583 we have a little surprise for her. 1464 01:49:50,751 --> 01:49:54,212 ♪ For she's a jolly good fellow ♪ 1465 01:49:54,338 --> 01:49:56,381 ♪ For she's a jolly good fellow ♪ 1466 01:49:56,507 --> 01:49:59,676 ♪ For she's a jolly good fellow ♪ 1467 01:49:59,802 --> 01:50:03,638 ♪ And so say all of us ♪♪ 1468 01:50:09,311 --> 01:50:10,979 Speech! 1469 01:50:11,105 --> 01:50:13,564 - Speech! - [ Man ] Happy birthday, Carol. 1470 01:50:13,691 --> 01:50:16,484 - Speech! - No, I — 1471 01:50:16,610 --> 01:50:19,279 - Happy birthday, sweetie. - I — 1472 01:50:19,405 --> 01:50:23,157 - Say something. - I can't. I’ve never made a speech in my life. 1473 01:50:23,284 --> 01:50:27,161 - [ Man ] Please. - Oh, God. Um... 1474 01:50:27,288 --> 01:50:29,622 I just want to thank Chris for doing this... 1475 01:50:30,874 --> 01:50:34,294 and everybody here so much. 1476 01:50:34,420 --> 01:50:37,297 It just — You pulled me through a really hard period. 1477 01:50:37,423 --> 01:50:40,383 Anyway, I couldn't have done it without you. 1478 01:50:45,222 --> 01:50:48,308 - I don't know what I'm saying. - [ All Laughing ] 1479 01:50:49,476 --> 01:50:52,437 Just that I really hated myself before I came here... 1480 01:50:52,563 --> 01:50:54,439 and, um, so... 1481 01:50:54,565 --> 01:50:58,359 I'm trying to see myself hopefully, um... 1482 01:50:58,485 --> 01:51:01,279 more as I am, more — 1483 01:51:01,405 --> 01:51:03,740 um, more positive... 1484 01:51:03,866 --> 01:51:06,492 like seeing the pluses. 1485 01:51:06,660 --> 01:51:09,037 Like, I think it's slowly opening up now. 1486 01:51:09,163 --> 01:51:11,622 People's minds, like... 1487 01:51:11,749 --> 01:51:13,833 educating and, and... 1488 01:51:14,001 --> 01:51:16,669 AIDS and, um — 1489 01:51:16,837 --> 01:51:19,756 and other types of diseases... 1490 01:51:19,882 --> 01:51:21,758 'cause — 'cause — 1491 01:51:21,884 --> 01:51:24,886 And it is a disease, 'cause it's out there... 1492 01:51:25,012 --> 01:51:28,765 and we just have to be more aware of it — 1493 01:51:28,891 --> 01:51:32,518 make people aware of it and, um, even ourselves... 1494 01:51:32,686 --> 01:51:35,271 like, uh, going — 1495 01:51:35,397 --> 01:51:39,108 reading labels and going into buildings — 1496 01:51:49,703 --> 01:51:51,204 To Carol. 1497 01:51:51,330 --> 01:51:54,123 [ All ] To Carol! 1498 01:52:09,181 --> 01:52:11,474 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1499 01:52:32,913 --> 01:52:34,914 ♪♪ [ Fades ] 1500 01:52:37,876 --> 01:52:40,169 Thank you, Chris... 1501 01:52:40,295 --> 01:52:42,380 for everything. 1502 01:52:43,549 --> 01:52:47,218 - Are you sure you're all right, Carol? - I'm fine, really. 1503 01:52:49,471 --> 01:52:51,305 Okay. 1504 01:52:52,141 --> 01:52:53,850 ♪ Happy birthday ♪ 1505 01:52:56,019 --> 01:52:57,687 Thanks. 1506 01:53:01,275 --> 01:53:04,110 - See you tomorrow. - For sure. 1507 01:53:05,362 --> 01:53:07,405 - Good night. - Night. 1508 01:53:56,330 --> 01:53:58,331 [ Air Hissing ] 1509 01:54:59,601 --> 01:55:02,061 I love — [ Clears Throat ] 1510 01:55:06,316 --> 01:55:08,234 [ Softly ] I love you. 1511 01:55:12,364 --> 01:55:14,407 I really love you. 1512 01:55:20,664 --> 01:55:22,456 I love you. 1513 01:55:47,691 --> 01:55:49,692 ♪♪ [ Ambient Electronic ] 1514 01:58:44,034 --> 01:58:46,035 ♪♪ [ Fades ]