1 00:02:44,832 --> 00:02:46,999 Bless you. 2 00:02:47,125 --> 00:02:49,168 It's freezing in here. 3 00:04:16,506 --> 00:04:19,216 - Look at that green thumb. - I wish. 4 00:04:19,343 --> 00:04:21,010 - How's your sinuses? - Better. 5 00:04:21,136 --> 00:04:22,678 Good. 6 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:26,140 I should be home by 7:00. 7 00:04:27,601 --> 00:04:30,436 Honey, can you call the landscapers again about the sod? 8 00:04:30,604 --> 00:04:32,605 They gotta get moving, or we're gonna miss — 9 00:04:32,773 --> 00:04:35,358 - I'll try them again. - Thanks, hon. 10 00:04:45,869 --> 00:04:47,828 Maybe it's the couch. 11 00:04:47,955 --> 00:04:49,664 Great! 12 00:05:03,261 --> 00:05:06,722 So, um... 13 00:05:06,848 --> 00:05:09,392 we were thinking... 14 00:05:09,518 --> 00:05:11,435 in here... 15 00:05:11,561 --> 00:05:13,813 um... 16 00:05:13,981 --> 00:05:16,315 with the... 17 00:05:16,441 --> 00:05:20,111 coming-out part along the wall? 18 00:05:20,237 --> 00:05:21,737 Okay, sure. 19 00:05:21,863 --> 00:05:24,699 And I guess come in through there. 20 00:05:24,825 --> 00:05:27,743 - Not through there? - Right. 21 00:05:27,869 --> 00:05:30,246 - Okay. - Great. Thanks. 22 00:05:35,877 --> 00:05:38,754 Three, two. Now reach up to the corner. 23 00:05:38,880 --> 00:05:41,757 Up and up. Nice. Good stretch, Bev. 24 00:05:41,883 --> 00:05:43,759 Nice. Push it. Four more. 25 00:05:43,885 --> 00:05:47,263 Three, two. Sasha, here we go. Take it around. 26 00:05:47,389 --> 00:05:50,182 Two, two. Down. Two, two. 27 00:05:50,308 --> 00:05:53,019 Two more. Here we go. Let's smile, ladies. 28 00:05:54,980 --> 00:05:58,482 Right, two, three, and left, two, three. 29 00:05:58,608 --> 00:06:00,484 Well, I just eventually found... 30 00:06:00,610 --> 00:06:03,195 the whole 12-step thing was like... 31 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,406 just another form of addiction. 32 00:06:05,532 --> 00:06:08,701 - That's exactly what this book is saying. - Yeah? 33 00:06:08,827 --> 00:06:11,370 Yeah, it’s about how to own your own life. 34 00:06:11,496 --> 00:06:15,624 Because what he’s saying is that we don't really own our own lives. 35 00:06:15,751 --> 00:06:17,877 We're taught what to do, what to think.... 36 00:06:18,003 --> 00:06:20,379 but emotionally we're not really in charge. 37 00:06:20,505 --> 00:06:23,466 But see, I think that with the exercise... 38 00:06:23,592 --> 00:06:26,177 and the diet and healthy foods — 39 00:06:26,303 --> 00:06:29,430 l just think he's very good at certain things. 40 00:06:29,556 --> 00:06:31,223 - Really? - Oh, yeah. 41 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:33,476 - Have you read him, Carol? - No. 42 00:06:33,602 --> 00:06:36,228 He's very good on certain things — 43 00:06:36,354 --> 00:06:37,938 emotional maintenance... 44 00:06:38,065 --> 00:06:40,900 stress management. 45 00:06:41,026 --> 00:06:44,904 You know, Carol, you do not sweat? 46 00:06:45,072 --> 00:06:48,157 Oh, I hate you. 47 00:06:48,283 --> 00:06:49,909 I know. It's true. 48 00:06:50,077 --> 00:06:52,286 No, it's great. 49 00:07:02,756 --> 00:07:04,340 - Hi. - Hi. 50 00:07:04,466 --> 00:07:07,760 - Did you forget? - No. It's inside. 51 00:07:09,012 --> 00:07:11,764 - I just, uh — - What? 52 00:07:13,058 --> 00:07:15,684 Something happened. 53 00:07:15,811 --> 00:07:17,520 Come in. 54 00:07:27,948 --> 00:07:29,782 How old was he? 55 00:07:31,952 --> 00:07:33,953 Five years older. 56 00:07:36,873 --> 00:07:40,376 He was the oldest of my mom's kids. 57 00:07:46,633 --> 00:07:48,759 It, um... 58 00:07:50,554 --> 00:07:52,471 wasn't — 59 00:07:52,639 --> 00:07:54,473 No. 60 00:07:55,684 --> 00:07:58,519 That's what everyone keeps — 61 00:07:58,645 --> 00:08:00,563 Not at all. 62 00:08:05,652 --> 00:08:08,487 'Cause he wasn't married. 63 00:08:08,655 --> 00:08:10,447 Right. 64 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:19,081 It's just so unreal. 65 00:08:31,052 --> 00:08:33,888 - Did you see the den? - At your party. It's gorgeous. 66 00:08:34,014 --> 00:08:36,682 You know, I'm suing the contractor. Did I tell you? 67 00:08:36,850 --> 00:08:38,434 No. 68 00:08:39,686 --> 00:08:41,770 You don't even want to know. 69 00:08:43,815 --> 00:08:46,859 Fulvia? I'm home. 70 00:09:07,339 --> 00:09:09,048 Hello? 71 00:09:09,216 --> 00:09:10,883 Hi, Mother. 72 00:09:11,009 --> 00:09:13,886 What? No. I just walked in the door. 73 00:09:14,054 --> 00:09:16,055 That's all right. 74 00:09:17,641 --> 00:09:19,642 How are you feeling? How’s your back? 75 00:09:21,102 --> 00:09:23,145 That's good. 76 00:09:23,271 --> 00:09:25,731 It's not a bad time, Mother. I just — 77 00:09:26,983 --> 00:09:29,193 All right. That's fine. 78 00:09:29,319 --> 00:09:32,404 He's fine. They're fine. 79 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:36,033 I will. 80 00:09:36,159 --> 00:09:37,660 I will, Mother. 81 00:09:41,081 --> 00:09:42,915 Okay. 82 00:09:43,041 --> 00:09:44,875 I'll talk to you soon. 83 00:09:45,001 --> 00:09:46,919 Okay. 84 00:09:47,045 --> 00:09:48,879 Bye-bye. 85 00:09:49,005 --> 00:09:51,215 Fulvia? 86 00:09:58,890 --> 00:10:01,767 Any teléfono while I was gone? 87 00:10:06,564 --> 00:10:08,315 Oh, my God. 88 00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:15,155 No, missus. No teléfono. 89 00:10:15,282 --> 00:10:17,449 Is this what they delivered? 90 00:10:20,287 --> 00:10:22,329 Fulvia? 91 00:10:25,125 --> 00:10:29,753 We did — We did not order black. This is — 92 00:10:29,879 --> 00:10:32,631 This is — This is not what we ordered. 93 00:10:37,637 --> 00:10:40,264 Yes, in sherman Oaks. May I have the number... 94 00:10:40,390 --> 00:10:43,600 for Nelson’s on Riverside, please? 95 00:10:43,727 --> 00:10:45,978 I don't believe this. 96 00:10:48,648 --> 00:10:51,317 Ye— Thank you. 97 00:10:57,782 --> 00:11:00,159 Yes, may I have the shipping or delivery depart- 98 00:11:34,027 --> 00:11:35,736 - Mom? - What, Rory? 99 00:11:35,862 --> 00:11:39,573 - Mom, soccer practice. Don't forget. - l didn't forget last time. 100 00:11:39,699 --> 00:11:43,535 - Whatever. It's the bus. I gotta go. - It was a mix-up. Okay. 101 00:11:43,703 --> 00:11:45,537 - Bye. - Bye, honey. 102 00:11:58,259 --> 00:11:59,885 Fulvia? 103 00:12:02,889 --> 00:12:04,515 Fulvia? 104 00:12:06,810 --> 00:12:08,435 - Fulvia? - Sí? 105 00:12:08,561 --> 00:12:11,355 Where’s my book? My telephone book? 106 00:12:11,481 --> 00:12:14,066 Uh, I put it in the bottom shelf... 107 00:12:14,192 --> 00:12:16,193 because of the cabinet men. 108 00:12:16,319 --> 00:12:18,946 Oh, okay. I see. Thanks. 109 00:12:20,698 --> 00:12:24,493 You've got to step back and say, "Wait a minute. 110 00:12:24,619 --> 00:12:28,414 It's not an honor or a privilege or even a duty to be a patient. 111 00:12:28,581 --> 00:12:33,168 lf people don't want it on religious grounds or quality-of-life grounds —" 112 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:35,587 - Fulvia, could I have some milk? - Sí. 113 00:12:35,713 --> 00:12:38,632 - Some leche, por favor? - Sí, seguro que sí. 114 00:12:38,758 --> 00:12:41,260 ...to let a critically ill patient die... 115 00:12:41,428 --> 00:12:44,680 but you're also saying it is all right to hasten that death. 116 00:12:44,806 --> 00:12:47,766 - l didn't say that. - I disagree with that. 117 00:12:47,934 --> 00:12:51,145 Isn't Elizabeth Bouvier, by starving herself, hastening her own death? 118 00:12:51,271 --> 00:12:54,064 No, I think you have to draw a distinction... 119 00:12:54,190 --> 00:12:57,943 between steps the doctor could take to actively kill somebody — 120 00:12:58,111 --> 00:12:59,778 Señora. 121 00:12:59,946 --> 00:13:01,488 Thank you. 122 00:13:01,614 --> 00:13:03,365 You okay, missus? 123 00:13:03,491 --> 00:13:06,618 ...and say, "Whatever happens, we are going to withdraw from the situation." 124 00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:10,622 It's terrible to say with 30 seconds left, but isn't that a thin line? 125 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:12,791 But it's a very important line. 126 00:13:12,959 --> 00:13:15,210 It's one thing to remove a piece of machinery... 127 00:13:15,336 --> 00:13:18,630 whether big as a respirator or small as a feeding tube. 128 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,633 It's another thing to say, "His life isn't worth much anyway... 129 00:13:21,759 --> 00:13:24,052 so we're gonna help you out more." 130 00:13:45,992 --> 00:13:48,535 Sorry. They were in the back. 131 00:13:48,661 --> 00:13:51,330 Oh, it's okay. Thanks. 132 00:13:51,498 --> 00:13:54,666 - Oh, that purse is adorable! - Thank you. 133 00:13:54,792 --> 00:13:56,793 - How's your little girl? - Oh, she's fine. 134 00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:59,796 - She's so cute. - Oh, thank you. 135 00:14:01,466 --> 00:14:03,634 Okay. Bye. 136 00:14:03,760 --> 00:14:05,802 Bye. 137 00:14:05,929 --> 00:14:08,263 No, we wanted teal. 138 00:14:08,389 --> 00:14:11,266 We ordered teal, but we received black. 139 00:14:11,392 --> 00:14:13,519 But your original order shows black. 140 00:14:13,686 --> 00:14:17,523 That's impossible, because it doesn't go with anything we have. 141 00:14:19,025 --> 00:14:20,651 All right. 142 00:14:22,904 --> 00:14:26,990 All right. Let me try the Sherman Oaks store upstairs. 143 00:14:27,116 --> 00:14:28,867 See what they have in stock. 144 00:14:29,035 --> 00:14:30,702 Thank you. 145 00:14:32,330 --> 00:14:36,208 If I told you the end of the world was coming... 146 00:14:36,376 --> 00:14:39,211 and you said to me that you'd get on your knees... 147 00:14:39,337 --> 00:14:42,172 and you'd pray, I'd say you're in trouble. 148 00:14:42,298 --> 00:14:46,718 Because when I go to bed and pull those covers under my neck... 149 00:14:46,886 --> 00:14:50,597 l say, "Jesus, I'll see you in the morning." 150 00:14:50,723 --> 00:14:52,808 You do that very well. Thank you. 151 00:14:52,934 --> 00:14:55,018 I was raised in a fundamentalist church. 152 00:14:55,144 --> 00:14:58,647 I heard this all my life. We sang songs about being in God's army — 153 00:14:58,773 --> 00:15:01,066 I think you've changed the subject. 154 00:15:01,234 --> 00:15:04,152 I see a president who's embattled... 155 00:15:04,279 --> 00:15:07,531 and a president who's, based on — what do I base it on? — 156 00:15:07,657 --> 00:15:10,993 not being close to him but close to people who are... 157 00:15:11,119 --> 00:15:15,080 in the press who watch him carefully, as being very pained at the moment... 158 00:15:15,206 --> 00:15:17,666 and certainly... 159 00:15:17,792 --> 00:15:20,085 a man who wants to make his mark... 160 00:15:20,253 --> 00:15:22,963 I've never heard anybody ever say he's that fundamentalist... 161 00:15:23,089 --> 00:15:25,048 that he believes the end is nigh. 162 00:15:25,174 --> 00:15:28,468 l really — You and l take a different view on that one. 163 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:30,220 But are you married to Marjoe? 164 00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:36,935 - No. - Just, you sound — the technique. 165 00:15:37,103 --> 00:15:39,104 I just really believe... 166 00:15:39,230 --> 00:15:43,442 he thinks he's doing the Lord's work. He's always been a very — 167 00:15:43,568 --> 00:15:46,570 Maybe he's right. 168 00:17:30,925 --> 00:17:33,552 A movement to save the trees? 169 00:17:34,637 --> 00:17:38,348 Some say it goes deeper than that. 170 00:17:38,474 --> 00:17:41,852 Today, environmentalists from all over the globe... 171 00:17:41,978 --> 00:17:46,106 are adopting a new, more holistic approach to their studies... 172 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:49,735 which they call "deep ecology." 173 00:17:49,902 --> 00:17:54,406 Deep ecology goes beyond the traditional scientific framework... 174 00:17:54,574 --> 00:17:58,910 to incorporate a greater spiritual awareness of the planet. 175 00:17:59,036 --> 00:18:01,913 Or, as ecophilosopher Parlum Grass puts it... 176 00:18:02,039 --> 00:18:05,167 "an understanding of the oneness of all life." 177 00:18:07,670 --> 00:18:12,132 "I have a feeling that we are entering a new time," Pearcel writes... 178 00:18:12,258 --> 00:18:16,553 "a period of a different paradigm or model. 179 00:18:16,679 --> 00:18:20,265 A period of learning to run warm and cool... 180 00:18:20,433 --> 00:18:23,977 not hot and cold, toward viruses... 181 00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:25,937 cells, and one anoth—" 182 00:20:31,814 --> 00:20:35,734 I started this fruit diet. 183 00:20:35,902 --> 00:20:40,113 I've been So out of it since my brother's funeral. 184 00:20:40,239 --> 00:20:43,867 - Have you ever done one? - No. 185 00:20:43,993 --> 00:20:47,078 They're supposed to sort of naturally cleanse the body... 186 00:20:47,246 --> 00:20:49,247 of all the toxins. 187 00:20:49,373 --> 00:20:52,751 I should do it. I’ve been so run down lately. 188 00:20:52,877 --> 00:20:54,544 Really? 189 00:20:54,670 --> 00:20:57,505 Yeah, I’ve just been really busy. 190 00:20:57,632 --> 00:21:00,759 We have this client dinner Coming up, so — 191 00:21:00,885 --> 00:21:04,095 Right. Maybe you should try it. 192 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:05,889 No. 193 00:21:06,015 --> 00:21:07,807 It'd be a lot of fun. 194 00:21:07,934 --> 00:21:10,143 We could do it together. 195 00:21:11,604 --> 00:21:15,190 Come on. Why don't you just try it? 196 00:21:15,316 --> 00:21:17,275 - Do you know what you want? - Yes. 197 00:21:17,401 --> 00:21:20,737 I am going to have the fruit salad and the herbal iced tea. 198 00:21:22,698 --> 00:21:25,784 Okay. And for you? 199 00:21:29,330 --> 00:21:32,123 I'll have the same. 200 00:21:36,045 --> 00:21:38,129 I got one. I got one. 201 00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:42,425 This beautiful, shapely blonde runs into the emergency room... 202 00:21:42,551 --> 00:21:45,595 and when they ask her what's wrong, she says... 203 00:21:45,721 --> 00:21:47,472 "It's kind of embarrassing... 204 00:21:47,598 --> 00:21:50,517 but I was using my vibrator, and it got stuck. 205 00:21:50,643 --> 00:21:53,353 I can't get it out. It's stuck inside." 206 00:21:53,479 --> 00:21:55,522 So they rush her into emergency, admit her... 207 00:21:55,648 --> 00:21:58,942 they rush her to the operating room, and they get some specialist... 208 00:21:59,068 --> 00:22:02,028 to perform the surgery, and it's a ten-hour ordeal. 209 00:22:02,154 --> 00:22:05,156 And finally she wakes up the next day... 210 00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:07,158 and the specialist walks in and says... 211 00:22:07,284 --> 00:22:11,329 "Well, I got some good news and I got some bad news. 212 00:22:11,497 --> 00:22:15,125 The bad news is we did everything we possibly could. 213 00:22:15,251 --> 00:22:18,795 We tried everything, but we just Couldn't get the darn thing out. 214 00:22:18,921 --> 00:22:20,797 We just couldn't. 215 00:22:20,923 --> 00:22:22,590 But the good news is... 216 00:22:22,717 --> 00:22:24,926 we were able to change the batteries." 217 00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,185 Somebody doesn't seem to like your jokes, Ted. 218 00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:36,938 - Huh? - Carol — 219 00:22:40,943 --> 00:22:43,028 Excuse me. I-I don't — 220 00:22:44,864 --> 00:22:46,281 Sorry. 221 00:22:57,376 --> 00:22:59,627 I'm so sorry, Greg. 222 00:23:00,671 --> 00:23:02,505 You're just — 223 00:23:02,631 --> 00:23:04,841 You're overexerted, I guess. 224 00:23:08,012 --> 00:23:09,721 I’ve never — 225 00:23:12,558 --> 00:23:15,226 Maybe the doctor can give you something for it. 226 00:23:26,322 --> 00:23:28,239 Well, hmm. 227 00:23:29,450 --> 00:23:32,118 I really don't see anything wrong with you, Carol. 228 00:23:32,244 --> 00:23:35,997 I mean, outside of a slight rash and congestion. 229 00:23:36,999 --> 00:23:40,251 Now, I'll give you some ointment... 230 00:23:40,419 --> 00:23:44,047 and some decongestant, but, uh... 231 00:23:44,173 --> 00:23:46,758 jeez, I-I don't know what else to do. 232 00:23:47,802 --> 00:23:50,470 Are you — Well, what? 233 00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,349 I guess I'm just a little stressed out lately. 234 00:23:54,475 --> 00:23:57,560 - Uh-huh. - And just tired from it. 235 00:23:57,686 --> 00:23:59,729 Well, that's not uncommon. 236 00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:02,607 Um, you're not doing drugs, are you? 237 00:24:02,733 --> 00:24:04,943 No. 238 00:24:05,069 --> 00:24:08,446 I don't take drugs or drink or — 239 00:24:08,572 --> 00:24:11,825 I don't even, um, like coffee very much. 240 00:24:11,951 --> 00:24:16,496 I'm just a total milkaholic, actually. 241 00:24:16,622 --> 00:24:18,790 I mean, before the fruit thing. 242 00:24:18,916 --> 00:24:21,417 Well, stop the fruit diet. You need protein. 243 00:24:21,544 --> 00:24:24,170 And while you're at it... 244 00:24:24,296 --> 00:24:26,631 try staying off dairy. 245 00:24:26,757 --> 00:24:29,050 Dairy's very hard on your digestion... 246 00:24:29,176 --> 00:24:31,302 hard on your intestines. 247 00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:34,764 I'll see you in a couple weeks. You'll be fine. 248 00:24:34,890 --> 00:24:36,641 Thanks. 249 00:24:39,228 --> 00:24:42,772 "In the '80s, there are more and more gangs in the Los Angeles basin... 250 00:24:42,898 --> 00:24:47,193 plus many more stabbings and shootings by AK-47s... 251 00:24:47,319 --> 00:24:49,654 Uzis and MAC-10s... 252 00:24:49,822 --> 00:24:51,823 killing numerous innocent people. 253 00:24:51,991 --> 00:24:53,992 L.A. was the gang capital of America. 254 00:24:54,118 --> 00:24:56,327 Rapes, riots, shooting innocent people... 255 00:24:56,495 --> 00:24:59,789 slashing throats, arms and legs being dissected... 256 00:24:59,915 --> 00:25:02,876 were all common sights in the black ghettos of L.A. 257 00:25:03,002 --> 00:25:05,920 Today, black and chicano gangs are coming into the valleys... 258 00:25:06,046 --> 00:25:08,631 in mostly white areas more and more. 259 00:25:08,757 --> 00:25:12,427 That's why gangs in L.A. are a big American issue. Rory White." 260 00:25:12,553 --> 00:25:16,431 - Good job, Ror. - Why does it have to be so gory? 261 00:25:16,557 --> 00:25:20,226 "Gory"? That's how it really is. God. 262 00:25:20,352 --> 00:25:23,563 - Hey, hey, hey. - You want some coffee? 263 00:25:23,689 --> 00:25:25,690 Yeah, I'd love some. 264 00:25:35,284 --> 00:25:37,619 So what did Hubbard have to say? 265 00:25:38,704 --> 00:25:41,623 He just said I should, uh... 266 00:25:41,749 --> 00:25:44,417 slow down a little, you know. 267 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:48,171 Stop the fruit diet. Eat less dairy. 268 00:25:48,297 --> 00:25:50,381 That's exactly what I said, isn't it? 269 00:25:50,549 --> 00:25:53,426 I knew that whole fruit thing didn't make any sense. 270 00:25:55,221 --> 00:25:58,473 But basically... 271 00:25:58,599 --> 00:26:02,602 there's nothing to really worry about, aside from being a little run down. 272 00:26:02,728 --> 00:26:04,771 Well, that's good. 273 00:26:06,565 --> 00:26:08,191 So — 274 00:26:08,317 --> 00:26:10,360 Dad, how do you spell "Uzi"? 275 00:26:10,486 --> 00:26:12,779 U-Z-I. 276 00:26:52,069 --> 00:26:53,569 Carol... 277 00:26:53,696 --> 00:26:57,323 - we doing a regular cut today? - Yeah. 278 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:04,122 Actually, I was thinking of-of... 279 00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:07,333 trying a perm for a change. 280 00:27:07,459 --> 00:27:09,377 Perming it. 281 00:27:09,503 --> 00:27:12,171 Elyse didn't tell me you scheduled a perm. 282 00:27:13,632 --> 00:27:16,801 No, I didn't schedule one. 283 00:27:16,927 --> 00:27:19,929 I just thought of it now, of trying it, unless — 284 00:27:20,055 --> 00:27:22,473 No. No, there's time, actually. 285 00:27:22,641 --> 00:27:25,226 I — I had a cancellation. 286 00:27:25,352 --> 00:27:28,104 - You still want that manicure? - Sure. 287 00:27:28,230 --> 00:27:29,731 Thanks. 288 00:28:22,159 --> 00:28:24,410 It's very cute on you. 289 00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:34,462 It looks nice. 290 00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,884 - Oh — Oh, my God! - Oh, my God. 291 00:28:40,010 --> 00:28:42,220 Paula, do you have a Kleenex? Do you — 292 00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:47,016 - Oh, my God! - Anyway, so... 293 00:28:47,142 --> 00:28:50,061 so we meet him for lunch, Cosford, Ted, and I... 294 00:28:50,187 --> 00:28:53,731 and who comes in but this kid in shorts. 295 00:28:53,899 --> 00:28:56,692 He looked like he was about Jonas's age. 296 00:28:56,819 --> 00:28:58,528 Couldn't believe it. 297 00:28:58,654 --> 00:29:01,656 Ted said I looked like I'd seen a ghost. 298 00:29:01,782 --> 00:29:05,535 I like what they did with your hair. It's great. I like it. 299 00:29:05,661 --> 00:29:07,578 I'm glad, honey. 300 00:29:09,540 --> 00:29:12,417 Yeah. Sexy. 301 00:29:20,843 --> 00:29:22,844 How you feeling? 302 00:29:24,471 --> 00:29:26,472 Huh? 303 00:29:28,851 --> 00:29:32,228 - I still have this, um — - What? 304 00:29:32,354 --> 00:29:34,063 This head thing. 305 00:29:34,189 --> 00:29:36,607 Oh, boy. 306 00:29:36,733 --> 00:29:40,278 - Greg — - Carol, what the hell is going on here? 307 00:29:40,446 --> 00:29:43,156 - Nothing. - Nobody has a fucking headache... 308 00:29:43,282 --> 00:29:45,283 every night of the fucking week! 309 00:30:00,257 --> 00:30:02,508 I must have a touch of something, because I — 310 00:30:02,634 --> 00:30:04,760 I don't want to hear about it. 311 00:30:15,898 --> 00:30:17,899 I'm sorry. I, um — 312 00:30:20,068 --> 00:30:22,653 I know it's not normal, but... 313 00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:28,201 I can't help it. 314 00:30:40,797 --> 00:30:42,507 Good night. 315 00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:29,762 Sixties at the beaches and lower 70s downtown. 316 00:31:29,888 --> 00:31:31,889 Valleys will climb to the mid-70s. 317 00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:35,560 - Fifty-nine degrees in Hollywood. - Traffic on KNX every six minutes. 318 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:39,021 - Here's John Engel. - Thanks, Susan. It's been another rough morning. 319 00:31:39,147 --> 00:31:41,023 You need patience on the southland freeways. 320 00:31:41,149 --> 00:31:43,734 It started with that downpour you were talking about. 321 00:31:43,860 --> 00:31:46,862 Had a lot of rain. Right now it's quite the hike. 322 00:31:46,989 --> 00:31:50,074 Sure hope you brought camping gear for that Ventura westbound transition... 323 00:31:50,242 --> 00:31:52,076 to the Golden state southbound. 324 00:31:52,244 --> 00:31:54,787 Non-injury accident in the left lane at the trans road. 325 00:31:54,913 --> 00:31:58,291 When you stop at Pacific, that's what you have to sherman Oaks. 326 00:31:58,417 --> 00:32:01,961 But there is some good news. Just spoke to the van, and guess what? 327 00:32:02,087 --> 00:32:05,089 91 westbound's a cakewalk all through the Santa Ana canyon. 328 00:32:05,257 --> 00:32:08,092 Actually, you're close to maximum speed. You can even go... 329 00:32:08,260 --> 00:32:10,094 maybe 45 miles an hour... 330 00:32:10,262 --> 00:32:12,346 91 westbound to the 15 through the canyon... 331 00:32:12,472 --> 00:32:15,600 into Anaheim Hills, and enjoy that while you can. 332 00:32:15,767 --> 00:32:18,394 I'm sorry, honey. 333 00:32:18,520 --> 00:32:20,271 Me too. 334 00:32:44,087 --> 00:32:45,921 It's okay. 335 00:32:50,135 --> 00:32:52,345 It's okay. 336 00:32:52,471 --> 00:32:54,138 Hey. 337 00:32:57,601 --> 00:32:59,644 You're all right. 338 00:33:03,148 --> 00:33:04,815 Jesus, honey. 339 00:33:08,195 --> 00:33:10,196 Take a deep breath and hold. 340 00:33:11,531 --> 00:33:13,574 Release. 341 00:33:13,700 --> 00:33:16,035 Again. 342 00:33:16,161 --> 00:33:17,828 Release. 343 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:20,164 Again. 344 00:33:20,332 --> 00:33:23,542 Release. Again. 345 00:33:23,669 --> 00:33:25,252 Okay. 346 00:33:34,388 --> 00:33:36,472 Hey, Greg, how the hell are you? 347 00:33:36,598 --> 00:33:39,475 - Good, good. And you? - I'm okay. Have a seat, guys. 348 00:33:39,601 --> 00:33:41,435 Well... 349 00:33:43,397 --> 00:33:46,691 basically, Carol, you are perfectly healthy. 350 00:33:46,817 --> 00:33:51,195 If anything, your condition has slightly improved since your last visit. 351 00:33:54,449 --> 00:33:57,743 Now, this is just a suggestion, but, uh... 352 00:33:57,869 --> 00:34:01,330 you might want to consult someone, and I know... 353 00:34:01,456 --> 00:34:04,166 a very, very good doctor who's just more suited... 354 00:34:04,292 --> 00:34:07,712 to stress-related conditions, which I think this is 355 00:34:12,718 --> 00:34:14,719 - A psychiatrist? - Yeah. 356 00:34:14,886 --> 00:34:16,387 Uh-huh. 357 00:35:59,741 --> 00:36:02,076 - Everything all right, ma'am? - What? 358 00:36:02,202 --> 00:36:03,828 Yeah. 359 00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,298 What are you doing, honey? 360 00:36:19,344 --> 00:36:21,470 I — 361 00:36:21,596 --> 00:36:24,223 I couldn't sleep. 362 00:36:24,349 --> 00:36:26,642 The air, the — 363 00:36:26,768 --> 00:36:28,686 the smell. 364 00:36:33,817 --> 00:36:35,442 Okay. 365 00:36:44,744 --> 00:36:48,205 Slow it down. And bring the knee up. Pull. 366 00:36:48,373 --> 00:36:52,084 Good. Get those knees up there. Tummy in. Exhale. Exhale. 367 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,587 And push it out. Here we go. Push. 368 00:36:54,713 --> 00:36:57,298 And right. Push left. Right. 369 00:36:57,424 --> 00:36:59,842 Four more. Three. 370 00:36:59,968 --> 00:37:02,344 Good! Let's scoop to the right. 371 00:37:02,470 --> 00:37:05,347 Two, three. Good. Get that leg up there. 372 00:37:05,473 --> 00:37:07,892 Whoo! 373 00:37:08,018 --> 00:37:10,102 - Carol. - Hi. 374 00:37:10,228 --> 00:37:13,772 - Are you okay? - Yeah, I just have to get somewhere. 375 00:37:13,899 --> 00:37:17,359 Oh. I'll see you at Barbara's Sunday? 376 00:37:17,485 --> 00:37:18,944 - See you Sunday. - Okay. 377 00:37:19,070 --> 00:37:20,905 - Okay, bye. - Bye. 378 00:37:52,187 --> 00:37:53,938 Do you work? 379 00:37:54,064 --> 00:37:55,814 No, I'm a house— 380 00:37:55,941 --> 00:37:58,692 Um, I'm a homemaker. 381 00:37:58,818 --> 00:38:02,112 I'm working on some designs for our house, though... 382 00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:05,282 - Mm-hmm. - in my spare time. 383 00:38:07,452 --> 00:38:10,913 And, uh — And you have one child? 384 00:38:12,123 --> 00:38:14,667 My husband's little boy. 385 00:38:14,793 --> 00:38:18,629 He’s not my son. He's my stepson. 386 00:38:18,797 --> 00:38:20,714 Rory. 387 00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:23,467 He's ten. 388 00:38:23,593 --> 00:38:25,970 How long have you been feeling unwell? 389 00:38:27,305 --> 00:38:30,933 Um, about two months. 390 00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:34,061 Three. Um... 391 00:38:34,187 --> 00:38:37,064 I've been under a lot of stress lately... 392 00:38:37,190 --> 00:38:39,525 and then my friend Linda and I — 393 00:38:39,651 --> 00:38:43,487 She's probably my best friend. She lives down the — 394 00:38:43,613 --> 00:38:45,864 Uh, anyway... 395 00:38:45,991 --> 00:38:50,285 we started this fruit diet together. 396 00:38:50,412 --> 00:38:52,746 I think that sort of set it off. 397 00:38:56,584 --> 00:38:58,252 So — 398 00:39:06,511 --> 00:39:09,304 - Are you uncomfortable? - No. I — 399 00:39:09,431 --> 00:39:11,432 I just thought — 400 00:39:13,852 --> 00:39:15,561 I mean — 401 00:39:18,898 --> 00:39:21,025 Aren't you supposed to ask more questions? 402 00:39:23,987 --> 00:39:26,321 Well, no. 403 00:39:28,575 --> 00:39:31,410 We really need to be hearing from you. 404 00:39:33,705 --> 00:39:35,956 What's going on... 405 00:39:36,082 --> 00:39:38,042 in you? 406 00:39:42,297 --> 00:39:45,215 - Oh, that's so cute! - Isn't it? 407 00:39:45,341 --> 00:39:48,218 - Look at this. - I love that little bunny. 408 00:39:48,344 --> 00:39:52,598 - I know. - I wonder what it could be. 409 00:39:52,724 --> 00:39:55,726 - Hope she doesn't — - Oh, a baby book! 410 00:39:55,894 --> 00:39:59,188 - Look at that. - Oh, God, it's beautiful! 411 00:39:59,314 --> 00:40:02,232 - You don't have one? - No, no. 412 00:40:02,358 --> 00:40:05,152 - I'm so glad. - I love it. It's perfect. 413 00:40:05,278 --> 00:40:09,156 If you need to take it back, I won't be offended. It's from Neiman Marcus. 414 00:40:09,282 --> 00:40:11,909 Oh, no, no. I really love it. It’s perfect. 415 00:40:12,035 --> 00:40:17,247 It’s so sweet. You should see my baby book. It's this disgusting puke orange. 416 00:40:17,373 --> 00:40:20,417 - That's very appetizing, Barbara. - I'm serious. 417 00:40:20,543 --> 00:40:23,754 Okay, Lynn. My turn. 418 00:40:23,922 --> 00:40:27,716 - Linda, thank you. - Mm, I hope you like it. 419 00:40:27,842 --> 00:40:30,761 That’s so pretty. Did you wrap that yourself? 420 00:40:30,887 --> 00:40:34,431 God, are you kidding? I wish I were that creative. 421 00:40:34,557 --> 00:40:36,558 I’ve seen you wrap things. 422 00:40:36,684 --> 00:40:39,353 Oh, I can't even draw a straight line. 423 00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:42,189 Oh, God! I love this! 424 00:40:42,315 --> 00:40:44,733 - Do you? - Look at this. It's a mobile. 425 00:40:44,859 --> 00:40:47,152 I thought it'd look great over a crib. 426 00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:50,364 Who wants decaf? 427 00:40:50,490 --> 00:40:52,366 - Herbal tea? - You must be so excited. 428 00:40:52,492 --> 00:40:55,119 - We're really happy. - Real coffee? 429 00:40:55,286 --> 00:40:58,330 - He must be so happy. - "Ecstatic" is more like it. 430 00:40:58,456 --> 00:41:02,251 - What do you think you'll name it? - That is so great. 431 00:41:02,377 --> 00:41:03,919 - Barbara? - Yeah, hon? 432 00:41:04,045 --> 00:41:06,046 - Where’s your bathroom? - There's a powder room... 433 00:41:06,172 --> 00:41:08,590 off the entrance hall to your right. 434 00:41:13,513 --> 00:41:15,806 I like "Tyler." Gary likes "Alex." 435 00:42:06,608 --> 00:42:08,108 Mommy! 436 00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:11,570 I heard you, Elyse! I don't know what you should draw now! 437 00:42:11,696 --> 00:42:15,532 Let Mommy have grown-up time with the other mommies, okay? 438 00:42:15,700 --> 00:42:19,077 Someone told me they heard she was seeing their shrink... 439 00:42:19,204 --> 00:42:21,455 so I just thought you might have — 440 00:42:21,581 --> 00:42:24,166 No. I didn't even know that — 441 00:42:24,292 --> 00:42:26,376 Is something wrong with Carol? 442 00:42:26,544 --> 00:42:28,712 No. We were just — 443 00:42:28,838 --> 00:42:32,799 'Cause her skin looks kind of — Her hair looks really cute, but — 444 00:42:32,926 --> 00:42:36,970 Elyse, your ice cream is melting, and Mommy is very busy! 445 00:42:37,096 --> 00:42:38,722 - Did you get some? - No. 446 00:42:38,890 --> 00:42:40,432 - Do you want some? - No. 447 00:42:40,558 --> 00:42:42,476 - Are you sure? - Yeah. 448 00:42:45,897 --> 00:42:48,023 Carol, this is yours. 449 00:42:48,149 --> 00:42:52,361 And you have to eat it immediately, 'cause it's melting all over. 450 00:42:52,487 --> 00:42:54,404 Oh, I shouldn't. 451 00:42:55,531 --> 00:42:57,908 - What do you got there, honey? - My coloring book. 452 00:42:58,034 --> 00:43:00,035 Can I see? 453 00:43:00,161 --> 00:43:02,246 Oh! She's gotten so big. 454 00:43:02,413 --> 00:43:04,122 Mm. 455 00:43:05,083 --> 00:43:09,336 Mmm. Barbara, this is delicious. 456 00:43:09,462 --> 00:43:12,047 You know, we haven’t really talked lately. 457 00:43:12,173 --> 00:43:14,216 How are you doing? 458 00:43:14,342 --> 00:43:16,301 Good. I’ve just been a little — 459 00:43:16,427 --> 00:43:18,971 - Lookit. It's you. - Oh. Yeah. 460 00:43:19,097 --> 00:43:21,598 Um, under the weather. 461 00:43:21,724 --> 00:43:24,101 - Right. - Lookit. She's a princess. 462 00:43:24,227 --> 00:43:27,271 Oh, that's very good. It’s very realistic. 463 00:43:27,397 --> 00:43:30,941 Ladies, we are now opening the big present. Please come in. 464 00:43:31,109 --> 00:43:33,485 Okay. Here we come. 465 00:43:33,611 --> 00:43:37,114 Come on, Elyse. Let's go look at the big present, okay? 466 00:43:40,785 --> 00:43:42,619 - Want to sit on my lap? - Yeah. 467 00:43:47,375 --> 00:43:49,459 My God. 468 00:43:49,585 --> 00:43:53,297 - Look at this fancy wrapping. - Yeah. 469 00:43:53,464 --> 00:43:55,674 You girls did too much. 470 00:43:55,800 --> 00:43:58,552 - Come on, don't be polite. - I'm trying! 471 00:44:01,431 --> 00:44:03,765 A stroller! 472 00:44:03,891 --> 00:44:06,977 Oh, thank you! 473 00:44:07,145 --> 00:44:10,314 That's exactly the one I wanted! Oh! 474 00:44:10,440 --> 00:44:12,649 There's a package with the wheels inside. 475 00:44:12,817 --> 00:44:15,902 You just screw them in. Even you can do it. 476 00:44:36,507 --> 00:44:38,091 Mommy? 477 00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:46,892 Carol? You all right? 478 00:44:47,018 --> 00:44:48,769 Carol — 479 00:44:48,895 --> 00:44:52,647 - What's going on? - I don't know. Carol? 480 00:44:52,774 --> 00:44:54,858 Oh, my God. Linda, what happened? 481 00:44:54,984 --> 00:44:56,526 She can't breathe! 482 00:44:56,652 --> 00:44:59,488 Eileen, call her house. Someone should call her doctor. 483 00:44:59,614 --> 00:45:02,115 Jennifer, could you get some water, please? 484 00:45:02,241 --> 00:45:04,368 Just try to relax, okay? 485 00:45:04,494 --> 00:45:07,454 Calm down. 486 00:45:07,580 --> 00:45:09,581 It's okay. It's all gonna be fine. 487 00:45:09,707 --> 00:45:11,917 Just relax. 488 00:45:12,043 --> 00:45:14,044 Just — Just relax. Breathe. 489 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,301 Carol! 490 00:45:41,906 --> 00:45:44,116 My name is Carol White... 491 00:45:44,242 --> 00:45:46,868 and I live in Southern California. 492 00:45:46,994 --> 00:45:50,372 l saw your notice at the health club near my house... 493 00:45:50,498 --> 00:45:54,042 and decided to write and tell you a little bit about myself. 494 00:45:54,168 --> 00:45:58,463 For some time now, I have not been feeling up to par... 495 00:45:58,589 --> 00:46:03,093 and was hoping your organization might be of some help. 496 00:46:03,261 --> 00:46:05,595 I'm originally from Texas... 497 00:46:05,721 --> 00:46:08,932 although I've lived in the L.A. area most of my life. 498 00:46:09,100 --> 00:46:13,103 l had asthma as a child, but it never really got in the way... 499 00:46:13,271 --> 00:46:15,522 of school or recreation. 500 00:46:15,648 --> 00:46:17,983 I've always thought of myself as someone... 501 00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,569 with a pretty normal upbringing... 502 00:46:20,695 --> 00:46:23,447 and as basically a healthy person... 503 00:46:23,573 --> 00:46:25,740 but for the past several months... 504 00:46:25,867 --> 00:46:28,785 that has all started to change. 505 00:46:28,911 --> 00:46:32,706 Suddenly I find myself feeling sick. 506 00:46:34,500 --> 00:46:36,293 Honey, what's going on? 507 00:46:36,461 --> 00:46:38,462 I've been calling. I thought you were asleep. 508 00:46:38,629 --> 00:46:41,131 Someone — Brenda called about trading... 509 00:46:41,257 --> 00:46:43,675 Thursday carpool for Saturday or something like that. 510 00:46:43,801 --> 00:46:46,136 She said you'd know what that was about. 511 00:46:50,016 --> 00:46:53,435 Anyway, she said she'd call you back. 512 00:46:53,561 --> 00:46:56,980 Um, I thought you were asleep 'Cause you weren't — 513 00:46:58,274 --> 00:47:00,192 Wh-What are you doing? 514 00:47:00,318 --> 00:47:02,986 I was writing this, um — 515 00:47:10,077 --> 00:47:12,078 I don't even — 516 00:47:24,509 --> 00:47:26,510 Oh, God, what is this? 517 00:47:28,429 --> 00:47:30,055 What? 518 00:47:39,815 --> 00:47:41,733 Where am I... 519 00:47:46,197 --> 00:47:48,365 right now? 520 00:47:52,411 --> 00:47:54,704 We're in our house. 521 00:47:59,544 --> 00:48:01,836 Greg and Carol's house. 522 00:48:39,750 --> 00:48:41,918 Who are you? 523 00:48:42,044 --> 00:48:45,630 You are of all ages and from all walks of life. 524 00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:49,551 But you find you all have one thing in common: 525 00:48:49,677 --> 00:48:52,762 strange, never-ending ailments. 526 00:48:53,931 --> 00:48:55,932 Suddenly you can't cook dinner anymore... 527 00:48:56,058 --> 00:48:59,728 because the smell of the gas from your stove makes you ill. 528 00:48:59,854 --> 00:49:04,149 Or if you take the freeway, you feel as if you might choke on the fumes. 529 00:49:04,275 --> 00:49:08,111 Your family and friends tell you that you're overreacting... 530 00:49:08,279 --> 00:49:10,697 that it's all in your head. 531 00:49:10,823 --> 00:49:13,450 But your symptoms worsen. 532 00:49:13,618 --> 00:49:16,953 Fatigue and depression turn to migraines... 533 00:49:17,079 --> 00:49:20,790 blackouts, even seizures. 534 00:49:20,958 --> 00:49:23,043 Now, if this sounds familiar... 535 00:49:23,169 --> 00:49:25,545 you're not alone. 536 00:49:26,881 --> 00:49:30,925 What you most likely are is one of a vastly growing number of people... 537 00:49:31,052 --> 00:49:33,887 who suffer from environmental illness. 538 00:49:34,013 --> 00:49:37,307 That means that, for reasons not yet known to us... 539 00:49:37,433 --> 00:49:41,353 certain people's natural tolerance to everyday substances... 540 00:49:41,479 --> 00:49:43,688 is breaking down, usually as a result... 541 00:49:43,814 --> 00:49:46,608 of some kind of chemical exposure. 542 00:49:46,734 --> 00:49:50,403 Today, there are 60,000 chemicals in everyday use... 543 00:49:50,529 --> 00:49:54,699 yet only ten percent are tested for human toxicity. 544 00:49:55,951 --> 00:49:58,078 This is a disease that you catch... 545 00:49:58,204 --> 00:50:00,330 from your environment. 546 00:50:44,125 --> 00:50:45,709 Fulvia? 547 00:50:57,722 --> 00:50:59,305 Fulvia? 548 00:51:03,561 --> 00:51:05,103 Greg? 549 00:51:27,418 --> 00:51:30,128 Carol? 550 00:51:30,254 --> 00:51:32,172 - You scared me. - Sorry. 551 00:51:32,298 --> 00:51:34,257 No, I'm sorry. I was just — 552 00:51:34,425 --> 00:51:37,427 I just took Fulvia down. So did you just get home? 553 00:51:37,553 --> 00:51:40,805 - Yeah. - So how did it go? 554 00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:45,018 - What? - Your thing this morning. 555 00:51:45,144 --> 00:51:46,811 What was it on? 556 00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:50,899 Well, it was just this thing on getting sick on fumes and bug sprays... 557 00:51:51,025 --> 00:51:53,151 and stuff. 558 00:51:54,403 --> 00:51:56,446 You mean, on... 559 00:51:56,572 --> 00:51:58,656 like, pollution? 560 00:51:58,783 --> 00:52:00,825 More about people who get sick from chemicals... 561 00:52:00,951 --> 00:52:03,119 and what it does to you. 562 00:52:03,245 --> 00:52:05,330 Who told you to go to this? 563 00:52:05,456 --> 00:52:07,624 No, I just — 564 00:52:07,750 --> 00:52:10,919 At the health club, I saw a flyer. 565 00:52:13,631 --> 00:52:16,466 So you think this is what's made you — 566 00:52:16,634 --> 00:52:19,511 I mean, why you’ve been sick? 567 00:52:21,180 --> 00:52:23,431 Because of... bug spray? 568 00:52:23,557 --> 00:52:26,810 No, I — I just — 569 00:52:32,149 --> 00:52:34,108 I don't know why. 570 00:53:03,889 --> 00:53:05,890 So most of the time, there's a trigger — 571 00:53:06,016 --> 00:53:08,351 new carpeting, new kitchen, new car. 572 00:53:08,519 --> 00:53:12,438 Or somebody works around paint fumes or strong fragrances. 573 00:53:13,858 --> 00:53:16,568 Okay. No reaction. Please prepare — 574 00:53:16,694 --> 00:53:18,444 - .01 of two. - Right. 575 00:53:18,571 --> 00:53:22,073 Then one day, bam, it hits you, and suddenly your body is reacting... 576 00:53:22,199 --> 00:53:25,034 to everything like a Geiger counter — food, air, everything. 577 00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:27,203 - .01 of two, milk. - Thank you. 578 00:53:27,329 --> 00:53:30,874 What we're doing now is testing about 50 separate foods and molds... 579 00:53:31,041 --> 00:53:34,711 to determine what your neutralization doses will consist of. 580 00:53:34,837 --> 00:53:38,047 And then they'll, um — they'll stop it? 581 00:53:38,173 --> 00:53:40,216 Uh, no. Arm, please. 582 00:53:40,342 --> 00:53:42,886 No, neutralization-provocation is a way to aid you... 583 00:53:43,012 --> 00:53:46,764 during your cleaning-up process, but that's all it really is, is an aid. 584 00:53:46,891 --> 00:53:49,100 Okay, this'll sting just a little bit. 585 00:53:49,226 --> 00:53:51,394 Dr. Reynolds, call for you on 8. 586 00:53:51,562 --> 00:53:53,563 Dr. Reynolds, Eric Delaney on 8. 587 00:53:54,899 --> 00:53:57,692 Okay, that's milk at .01 of two. 588 00:53:57,818 --> 00:53:59,736 Excuse me. 589 00:54:01,071 --> 00:54:03,072 Are you okay? 590 00:54:04,533 --> 00:54:06,784 Eric, Dr. Reynolds. What's up? 591 00:54:08,621 --> 00:54:10,496 Right. 592 00:54:11,916 --> 00:54:13,583 Right. 593 00:54:15,210 --> 00:54:17,086 Well, look. If your oasis... 594 00:54:17,212 --> 00:54:19,422 and twice-a-week injections don't simmer you down... 595 00:54:19,590 --> 00:54:21,507 you know you have other hidden sensitivities... 596 00:54:21,634 --> 00:54:23,843 most likely molds or fungus. 597 00:54:23,969 --> 00:54:26,930 Continue the rare fruit diet, and if you don't get better... 598 00:54:27,097 --> 00:54:29,641 check back with me or have Dr. Baines check into... 599 00:54:29,767 --> 00:54:32,602 an unresolved candida problem. 600 00:54:32,770 --> 00:54:36,397 - Dr. Reynolds, she's reacting. - Eric, I gotta leave you. 601 00:54:36,523 --> 00:54:39,943 Prepare a neutralizing dose at .01 of three, please. 602 00:54:40,110 --> 00:54:43,488 Carol, this will cease momentarily. I apologize for any discomfort. 603 00:54:43,614 --> 00:54:46,074 Sarah, be sure to record... 604 00:54:46,200 --> 00:54:47,951 pulse-rate change following injection. 605 00:54:48,077 --> 00:54:51,245 Okay. .01 of three milligrams. 606 00:54:51,372 --> 00:54:54,290 Okay, thank you. 607 00:54:56,585 --> 00:54:58,544 Just take it easy. 608 00:55:03,509 --> 00:55:05,635 Okay. 609 00:55:05,761 --> 00:55:08,805 Okay, we have palpitations with deep distress... 610 00:55:08,931 --> 00:55:12,141 in conjunction with a racing pulse rate of 104. 611 00:55:12,309 --> 00:55:14,811 There’s flushing and some wheezing. 612 00:55:16,146 --> 00:55:18,022 Bit of swelling in the mouth. 613 00:55:20,567 --> 00:55:23,152 This is a big one, Carol. Milk's a biggie. 614 00:55:24,446 --> 00:55:26,280 It's okay. 615 00:55:36,458 --> 00:55:38,334 Are you okay? 616 00:55:46,510 --> 00:55:48,344 Have some water. 617 00:55:53,934 --> 00:55:55,768 Yeah. 618 00:55:55,894 --> 00:55:59,230 We can turn it on and off like a switch. 619 00:55:59,356 --> 00:56:02,108 We just don't know how to make it go away. 620 00:56:07,781 --> 00:56:10,867 The first thing you need to do in order to "Clear"... 621 00:56:11,035 --> 00:56:14,871 is create an oasis in which to live. 622 00:56:14,997 --> 00:56:20,126 Your oasis is your safe place, your toxic-free zone... 623 00:56:20,252 --> 00:56:23,713 where your load has been significantly reduced. 624 00:56:25,090 --> 00:56:26,966 For some, that can mean... 625 00:56:27,092 --> 00:56:29,969 an airtight, porcelain-lined enclosure... 626 00:56:30,095 --> 00:56:32,346 something like a refrigerator. 627 00:56:32,473 --> 00:56:34,515 For others, their safe room... 628 00:56:34,641 --> 00:56:38,394 is just a stripped-down room within their house... 629 00:56:38,520 --> 00:56:41,689 that's conducive to good ventilation... 630 00:56:41,815 --> 00:56:43,691 or air control. 631 00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,443 My name is Sarah Pinter. 632 00:56:45,569 --> 00:56:48,488 I live in Orange County, near a fumigation company... 633 00:56:48,614 --> 00:56:51,699 and we're in the process of a suit against the company... 634 00:56:51,825 --> 00:56:54,410 for improper handling of their chemicals, so — 635 00:56:54,536 --> 00:56:58,372 Great. Thank you. Yes? 636 00:56:58,499 --> 00:57:00,666 Would you stand, please? 637 00:57:00,793 --> 00:57:04,337 My name is Abigail Cartier-Rousseau... 638 00:57:04,463 --> 00:57:08,091 and my sensitivity originated with fragrances. 639 00:57:08,258 --> 00:57:10,551 I was employed for 23 years. 640 00:57:10,677 --> 00:57:12,637 - Uh-huh. - I've been spending some time... 641 00:57:12,763 --> 00:57:15,681 at the retreat in Wrenwood, so I'm doing much better. 642 00:57:15,808 --> 00:57:17,308 Great. Great. Terrific. 643 00:57:17,434 --> 00:57:20,228 Thank you. And you, ma'am? 644 00:57:21,105 --> 00:57:22,897 Honey. 645 00:57:26,944 --> 00:57:30,404 My name’s Carol White. This is my husband, Greg. 646 00:57:30,531 --> 00:57:33,866 We live in the San Fernando Valley. 647 00:57:33,992 --> 00:57:35,827 Greg. 648 00:57:36,870 --> 00:57:39,122 We're here for my wife, who's been ill... 649 00:57:39,289 --> 00:57:41,457 to learn more information... 650 00:57:41,625 --> 00:57:43,751 and hopefully gain from it as well. 651 00:57:43,877 --> 00:57:45,419 Thank you. I hope so too. 652 00:57:45,546 --> 00:57:47,421 My doctor thinks I'm nuts. 653 00:57:47,548 --> 00:57:50,133 He thinks the whole thing is completely in my head. 654 00:57:50,300 --> 00:57:52,927 That's what my husband Still thinks. 655 00:57:53,053 --> 00:57:55,721 It is in your head. It's in all our heads. 656 00:57:55,848 --> 00:57:57,807 What do you mean by that, Helen? 657 00:57:57,933 --> 00:58:00,184 It makes you crazy. She's right. 658 00:58:00,310 --> 00:58:04,522 It ends up in your head because it affects the neurological. 659 00:58:04,648 --> 00:58:07,650 And it will make you depressed. It really will. 660 00:58:07,818 --> 00:58:10,778 I mean, how does a five-year-old say it's psychosomatic? 661 00:58:10,904 --> 00:58:13,698 How does he make his eyes swell shut? 662 00:58:13,824 --> 00:58:17,160 Why would he want to do that? 663 00:58:17,286 --> 00:58:20,413 He can't go into "Chunky Cheese" anymore. 664 00:58:20,539 --> 00:58:23,207 He can't go into ShowBiz. 665 00:58:23,333 --> 00:58:25,668 Why would he do that to himself? 666 00:58:25,794 --> 00:58:28,880 It’s true. It’s like, you go into a building... 667 00:58:29,006 --> 00:58:31,507 you're walking along the hall. 668 00:58:31,633 --> 00:58:35,511 You don't know when that monster is gonna jump out at you. 669 00:58:35,679 --> 00:58:37,972 You're just, like, going along the wall... 670 00:58:38,098 --> 00:58:40,308 - like any normal person. - Right. 671 00:58:40,434 --> 00:58:43,186 With your mask and your oxygen tank... 672 00:58:43,353 --> 00:58:46,647 and your bottled water. 673 00:58:46,773 --> 00:58:49,192 So at first I didn't understand why Citrus... 674 00:58:49,359 --> 00:58:52,486 Since I had tested negative for citrus, until all of a sudden... 675 00:58:52,613 --> 00:58:55,698 I remembered how the oranges had rolled out of their plastic... 676 00:58:55,824 --> 00:58:58,075 into the bag with Greg's papers in them. 677 00:58:58,202 --> 00:59:01,662 'Cause newspapers, the ink... 678 00:59:01,788 --> 00:59:03,998 - Really? - also — yeah. 679 00:59:04,124 --> 00:59:06,751 That, and um — 680 00:59:06,877 --> 00:59:09,295 You know our couch? Our beautiful new couch? 681 00:59:09,421 --> 00:59:12,173 - Yeah. - Totally toxic. 682 00:59:12,299 --> 00:59:14,717 - Really? - Yeah. - Wow. 683 00:59:14,843 --> 00:59:17,595 I know. So... 684 00:59:17,721 --> 00:59:19,722 um — 685 00:59:19,890 --> 00:59:22,391 It's hard. Like, I, um... 686 00:59:22,559 --> 00:59:24,894 I can't wear makeup anymore. 687 00:59:25,020 --> 00:59:27,730 - God. - Burns my eyes. I get sick. 688 00:59:29,983 --> 00:59:32,777 Well, I guess one good thing is just... 689 00:59:32,903 --> 00:59:35,321 how it’s made you so much more knowledgeable... 690 00:59:35,447 --> 00:59:37,907 on food and everything, and chemicals. 691 00:59:38,033 --> 00:59:39,575 That's true. 692 00:59:39,743 --> 00:59:42,328 They just know so much more about it there, though... 693 00:59:42,454 --> 00:59:45,748 the people who go through this. I mean — 694 00:59:48,252 --> 00:59:51,045 So much of it, too, is that we were raised... 695 00:59:51,171 --> 00:59:53,297 and grown in a chemical place. 696 00:59:53,423 --> 00:59:55,299 And you go into a grocery store... 697 00:59:55,425 --> 00:59:57,885 and you-you-you you grab a chemical... 698 00:59:58,011 --> 01:00:00,846 without reading, without investigating — 699 01:00:12,234 --> 01:00:13,901 Sorry. 700 01:00:14,945 --> 01:00:17,113 Um — 701 01:00:17,239 --> 01:00:20,408 But anyway, it's just made me... 702 01:00:20,534 --> 01:00:23,953 more aware than I used to be. 703 01:00:24,121 --> 01:00:26,080 - You know what I mean? - Yep. 704 01:00:30,711 --> 01:00:33,129 Next up, the load: 705 01:00:33,297 --> 01:00:35,298 What is it, why is it... 706 01:00:35,424 --> 01:00:37,758 and what can be done to improve it? 707 01:00:37,884 --> 01:00:40,886 First, what is your total load? 708 01:00:41,013 --> 01:00:43,889 Well, in the chemical-laden world in which we live... 709 01:00:44,016 --> 01:00:46,267 impurities are all around. 710 01:00:46,393 --> 01:00:49,895 Everyone must deal with a certain amount of impurities and toxins... 711 01:00:50,022 --> 01:00:53,149 at any given time, and that's your load. 712 01:00:53,275 --> 01:00:55,818 It's the maximum amount of toxins... 713 01:00:55,986 --> 01:00:57,737 your body can tolerate... 714 01:00:57,863 --> 01:01:00,031 which, for most people, is rather large. 715 01:01:00,157 --> 01:01:04,160 But a chemically sensitive person is not able to carry a normal load. 716 01:01:04,328 --> 01:01:07,121 What we have to do is unload. 717 01:01:07,247 --> 01:01:09,623 This means we go back to zero... 718 01:01:09,750 --> 01:01:13,127 and, starting from scratch, substance by substance... 719 01:01:13,253 --> 01:01:15,338 we build the load back up. 720 01:01:15,464 --> 01:01:18,007 Remember, the goal is to get clear. 721 01:01:18,175 --> 01:01:22,345 And so the safest and quickest way to clear is to fast. 722 01:01:22,512 --> 01:01:26,474 Fasting, which can last up to five days, depending on the individual... 723 01:01:26,600 --> 01:01:29,727 is usually followed by the rotation diet... 724 01:01:29,853 --> 01:01:31,687 or the rare foods diet... 725 01:01:31,813 --> 01:01:33,898 both of which help protect the system... 726 01:01:34,024 --> 01:01:36,400 while reintroducing foods back into it. 727 01:01:36,526 --> 01:01:38,402 Whatever diet you choose... 728 01:01:38,528 --> 01:01:41,739 be sure to omit mold antigen-containing foods... 729 01:01:41,865 --> 01:01:44,408 like bread, cheese, alcohol... 730 01:01:44,534 --> 01:01:46,827 ketchup, vinegar, mayonnaise... 731 01:01:46,953 --> 01:01:48,996 mustard, coffee, or chocolate. 732 01:01:49,122 --> 01:01:51,957 Molds are very hard on the immune system... 733 01:01:52,084 --> 01:01:54,210 whether you're E.I. or not. 734 01:01:54,336 --> 01:01:56,379 And throughout your unloading process... 735 01:01:56,546 --> 01:01:59,799 be sure to have adjusted your living conditions accordingly. 736 01:01:59,925 --> 01:02:03,886 Safe bodies need safe environments in which to live... 737 01:02:04,012 --> 01:02:06,722 and there are healthy alternatives that exist... 738 01:02:06,890 --> 01:02:09,058 for just about every toxic product... 739 01:02:09,184 --> 01:02:11,727 gas, or ventilation system out there. 740 01:02:11,853 --> 01:02:14,480 But it's up to you to find them. 741 01:02:37,045 --> 01:02:40,589 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. We're spraying right now. 742 01:02:43,969 --> 01:02:45,386 Oh, my God! 743 01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:53,227 Carol, you're doing fine. Just hold in there. 744 01:02:53,353 --> 01:02:55,855 Move your head. Concentrate. 745 01:02:55,981 --> 01:02:58,149 Keep your head to the side, Carol. 746 01:03:01,945 --> 01:03:03,946 Keep with us, Carol. 747 01:03:04,114 --> 01:03:06,115 Carol, keep your head to the Side. 748 01:03:25,177 --> 01:03:28,637 No unusual foods. No medication. 749 01:03:28,805 --> 01:03:31,640 - Emotional strain? - No. 750 01:03:31,766 --> 01:03:35,436 Well, can you think of anything else that might be causing it? 751 01:03:37,939 --> 01:03:40,774 So what you're saying, Carol, is that this is based... 752 01:03:40,901 --> 01:03:44,028 solely on the pesticide and nothing else. 753 01:03:46,490 --> 01:03:49,241 I have a chemical impairment that makes — 754 01:03:49,367 --> 01:03:52,828 I realize that, Carol, but it's just not turning up on the tests. 755 01:03:52,954 --> 01:03:57,374 Please don't do that! 756 01:03:57,501 --> 01:03:59,919 Nurse, don't spray that here. 757 01:04:00,045 --> 01:04:01,629 Thanks. 758 01:04:04,341 --> 01:04:07,384 Look, Carol, from a medical standpoint... 759 01:04:07,511 --> 01:04:10,763 there's no way to prove this thing is an immune system breakdown... 760 01:04:10,889 --> 01:04:14,099 much less one based on environmental factors. 761 01:04:14,226 --> 01:04:18,771 Now, if your psychiatrists can't provide — 762 01:04:18,897 --> 01:04:21,023 Think, honey. I mean... 763 01:04:21,149 --> 01:04:23,317 what gave you the bloody lip? 764 01:04:23,443 --> 01:04:27,780 - What would cause you to actually bleed? - I don't know. 765 01:04:31,034 --> 01:04:32,952 The chemicals. 766 01:04:38,625 --> 01:04:41,544 They visit them, pray with them, get them — 767 01:04:41,711 --> 01:04:43,629 New York — 768 01:04:43,755 --> 01:04:46,257 ...be the same again. 769 01:04:46,383 --> 01:04:49,176 Things just started tumbling down on top of me. 770 01:04:49,302 --> 01:04:51,971 ...is here to ensure your team ring fits — 771 01:04:52,097 --> 01:04:55,266 No question, this is gonna be a big sales — 772 01:04:55,392 --> 01:04:59,061 It is a real problem, and I think more people are becoming aware... 773 01:04:59,187 --> 01:05:01,814 because more and more people are becoming sick from chemicals. 774 01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:03,983 Nestled in the foothills of Albuquerque... 775 01:05:04,109 --> 01:05:08,445 the Wrenwood Center describes itself as a nonprofit communal settlement... 776 01:05:08,572 --> 01:05:11,115 dedicated to the healing individual. 777 01:05:11,241 --> 01:05:14,493 Offering the services of a combined health retreat and community center... 778 01:05:14,619 --> 01:05:17,246 - Wrenwood consists of 200 residents... - Greg. 779 01:05:17,372 --> 01:05:19,915 - visitors, and staff, many of whom suffer... - Greg! 780 01:05:20,083 --> 01:05:22,459 - from chemical sensitivity... - Listen. This thing’s on. 781 01:05:22,586 --> 01:05:25,254 including its founder, author Peter Dunning. 782 01:05:25,380 --> 01:05:28,549 Environmental illness is just one of a cluster of new immune disorders... 783 01:05:28,675 --> 01:05:31,302 such as Epstein-Barr syndrome, chronic fatigue syndrome... 784 01:05:31,428 --> 01:05:33,095 and, of course, AIDS... 785 01:05:33,221 --> 01:05:36,682 all of which continue to elude conventional medicine. 786 01:05:36,808 --> 01:05:39,602 At Wrenwood, we offer an alternative. 787 01:05:40,604 --> 01:05:43,981 I like to think of us as a safe haven for troubled times. 788 01:05:44,107 --> 01:05:46,025 We're the most extensive... 789 01:05:46,151 --> 01:05:48,611 cooperative treatment residency of our kind. 790 01:05:48,737 --> 01:05:51,697 But what I think makes us really unique... 791 01:05:51,823 --> 01:05:54,366 - I think I — - is our emphasis on the individual. 792 01:05:54,492 --> 01:05:55,784 What? 793 01:05:55,910 --> 01:05:59,580 I heard about this place from somewhere. 794 01:05:59,706 --> 01:06:02,708 ...warning us of a disease-ridden future? 795 01:06:02,834 --> 01:06:06,670 lf so, the Wrenwood Center is certainly ahead of its time. 796 01:06:06,796 --> 01:06:08,756 People come for all different reasons. 797 01:06:08,882 --> 01:06:11,967 I guess the thing we all have in common is, like, why. 798 01:06:12,135 --> 01:06:15,471 You know? Why did we all get sick to begin with? 799 01:06:15,597 --> 01:06:17,598 What's it called? 800 01:06:19,059 --> 01:06:20,059 Wrenwood. 801 01:06:20,060 --> 01:06:21,060 Wrenwood. 802 01:07:33,383 --> 01:07:35,384 It's right in here. 803 01:08:04,122 --> 01:08:05,748 Stop! 804 01:08:05,874 --> 01:08:07,875 Stop! 805 01:08:12,922 --> 01:08:14,923 Not allowed! 806 01:08:15,049 --> 01:08:16,759 Go back! 807 01:08:16,885 --> 01:08:20,429 - Not allowed! - What's she going on about? 808 01:08:20,597 --> 01:08:23,807 - Stop! - Wait. You better stop. 809 01:08:23,933 --> 01:08:26,435 Stop! 810 01:08:26,603 --> 01:08:28,479 Go back! 811 01:08:28,605 --> 01:08:32,065 You're contaminating this entire area! 812 01:08:33,485 --> 01:08:35,819 How much do I owe you? 813 01:09:07,560 --> 01:09:09,228 I see you. 814 01:09:44,347 --> 01:09:46,348 Excuse me. 815 01:09:49,435 --> 01:09:51,520 - Excuse me. Are you Carol? - Yes. 816 01:09:51,688 --> 01:09:53,897 Hi. I'm Susan. I work with Claire. 817 01:09:54,023 --> 01:09:55,899 - We’ve spoken on the phone. - Hi. 818 01:09:56,025 --> 01:09:57,693 We're so glad you made it. 819 01:09:57,861 --> 01:10:01,113 I heard Nell making a ruckus. I thought it might’ve been your car. 820 01:10:01,239 --> 01:10:03,115 - I hope she wasn't too — - Oh, no. 821 01:10:03,241 --> 01:10:06,660 She's been having a rough time lately. Her husband's very sick... 822 01:10:06,786 --> 01:10:09,204 and she's just... 823 01:10:09,372 --> 01:10:11,206 - well — - That's okay. 824 01:10:11,374 --> 01:10:14,042 Well, let me help you with your things. 825 01:10:14,168 --> 01:10:16,169 I'll take this one. 826 01:10:16,296 --> 01:10:18,171 - Thanks. - Sure. 827 01:10:19,674 --> 01:10:22,509 This is a chemical-free zone. 828 01:10:22,635 --> 01:10:26,179 We have reading boxes, Safe TV... 829 01:10:26,306 --> 01:10:28,515 and there's a 911 phone... 830 01:10:28,641 --> 01:10:31,226 in case of any kind of medical emergency. 831 01:10:31,352 --> 01:10:33,520 Right. 832 01:10:33,646 --> 01:10:36,481 We're sorry your husband wouldn't be able to join you. 833 01:10:36,608 --> 01:10:39,735 I know. He's just in the middle of all this business. 834 01:10:39,903 --> 01:10:43,238 They should be here soon, though, he and our son. 835 01:10:43,406 --> 01:10:46,241 - I should call them, actually. - Sure, sure. 836 01:10:46,367 --> 01:10:49,369 - There's a phone inside at the center. - Great. 837 01:10:51,915 --> 01:10:55,250 We acquired the center in 1978... 838 01:10:55,376 --> 01:10:58,045 and we've been battling to keep it ever since. 839 01:10:58,171 --> 01:11:00,756 But basically, this is where... 840 01:11:00,924 --> 01:11:04,092 all group convening takes place. 841 01:11:04,260 --> 01:11:06,887 Um, we have all of our workshops... 842 01:11:07,013 --> 01:11:09,932 and, um, our evening talks... 843 01:11:10,099 --> 01:11:11,934 that sort of thing, here. 844 01:11:12,101 --> 01:11:15,687 The dining room is right across the way... 845 01:11:15,813 --> 01:11:18,565 - on the other side of the street. - Oh, hi! 846 01:11:18,691 --> 01:11:22,277 - You must be Carol. - Carol, this is Claire, our director. 847 01:11:22,445 --> 01:11:24,446 Hi. Welcome to Wrenwood. 848 01:11:25,615 --> 01:11:27,616 How was your trip? 849 01:11:29,410 --> 01:11:32,537 Whoops. Well, I guess you're just wiped out. 850 01:11:32,664 --> 01:11:34,957 There’s nothing more debilitating than travel. 851 01:11:35,083 --> 01:11:37,584 Claire was hypersensitive when she first came to Wrenwood. 852 01:11:37,710 --> 01:11:40,796 Now I'm just semi-hypersensitive, like the rest of the world. 853 01:11:40,922 --> 01:11:43,590 - I'm a little — from the flight. - I know. 854 01:11:43,716 --> 01:11:47,469 We'll just quick get you checked in and then take you to your cabin... 855 01:11:47,595 --> 01:11:49,638 and you can plop or whatever till dinner. 856 01:11:49,806 --> 01:11:52,265 But I know there are quite a few people... 857 01:11:52,392 --> 01:11:54,393 who are anxious to meet you. 858 01:11:54,519 --> 01:11:56,061 Thank you. 859 01:11:56,187 --> 01:11:59,606 If you want to leave your bags here and use the pay phones... 860 01:11:59,732 --> 01:12:01,775 they are just beyond the chapel. 861 01:12:01,901 --> 01:12:04,820 - The little auditorium to the right. Okay? - Okay. 862 01:12:08,825 --> 01:12:10,659 Thank you. 863 01:12:21,879 --> 01:12:24,715 - Hello? - Hi. It's me. 864 01:12:24,841 --> 01:12:28,010 - Hi. Are you there? - Yeah, I'm here. 865 01:12:28,177 --> 01:12:30,429 Great! 866 01:12:30,555 --> 01:12:32,848 - Is it nice? - Yeah. 867 01:12:32,974 --> 01:12:35,350 Great. That's great, honey. 868 01:12:35,476 --> 01:12:38,020 Yeah. You know, we'll see. 869 01:12:38,146 --> 01:12:41,023 Did you forget anything? 870 01:12:41,149 --> 01:12:45,527 No, I just thought I'd call, tell you I was here and everything. 871 01:12:45,653 --> 01:12:49,114 I'm glad you caught me. We were about to go grab a bite. 872 01:12:49,240 --> 01:12:50,699 Oh, you go ahead. 873 01:12:50,825 --> 01:12:53,201 - I'm sorry. I just — - No, no, I'm glad. 874 01:12:53,369 --> 01:12:56,038 I'm glad it's nice there. That's great. 875 01:12:56,205 --> 01:12:58,749 Look, you just relax... 876 01:12:58,875 --> 01:13:01,251 and take care of yourself, get well quick... 877 01:13:01,377 --> 01:13:04,546 and we'll come see you in a couple of weeks. 878 01:13:04,672 --> 01:13:07,799 Soon as I reach deadline on this. Okay, babe? 879 01:13:07,925 --> 01:13:10,385 Okay. 880 01:13:10,511 --> 01:13:12,721 - Love you. - I love you too, hon. 881 01:13:12,889 --> 01:13:14,347 Say hi to Ror. 882 01:13:14,474 --> 01:13:18,810 I will. And, um, we'll talk again real soon. 883 01:13:18,936 --> 01:13:20,687 - Okay? - Okay. 884 01:13:20,813 --> 01:13:22,898 - Bye-bye, sweetie. - Bye. 885 01:13:23,024 --> 01:13:24,816 - Night. - Night. 886 01:13:29,447 --> 01:13:29,654 I want to welcome all newcomers... 887 01:13:29,655 --> 01:13:31,865 I want to welcome all newcomers... 888 01:13:31,991 --> 01:13:34,743 all short- and long-term visitors... 889 01:13:34,869 --> 01:13:37,788 and extend our warmest support for the acceleration... 890 01:13:37,914 --> 01:13:40,373 of your healing process. 891 01:13:40,500 --> 01:13:42,375 So that you can relax... 892 01:13:42,502 --> 01:13:44,795 and receive the full benefit of your stay here... 893 01:13:44,921 --> 01:13:48,090 we ask that you observe community wishes in the following ways: 894 01:13:49,092 --> 01:13:52,010 Silent meals are observed at breakfast and lunch... 895 01:13:52,136 --> 01:13:55,597 with a side of the room for men and a side for women. 896 01:13:55,765 --> 01:13:58,350 In addition, we ask you to refrain from smoking... 897 01:13:58,476 --> 01:14:01,436 drinking, and use of recreational drugs while on the premises... 898 01:14:01,604 --> 01:14:05,440 and we ask that you respect our practice of moderation in dress... 899 01:14:05,566 --> 01:14:08,568 and restraint in sexual interaction. 900 01:14:08,694 --> 01:14:11,780 Instead, we ask that you try... 901 01:14:11,948 --> 01:14:14,616 to focus these feelings inward... 902 01:14:14,742 --> 01:14:18,245 toward your personal growth and self-realization. 903 01:14:18,371 --> 01:14:21,289 End of speech. Welcome, everybody... 904 01:14:21,415 --> 01:14:24,584 especially our long-termers, Carol and Ward. 905 01:14:28,422 --> 01:14:30,423 And now, with no further ado... 906 01:14:30,550 --> 01:14:33,135 I give you our own Peter Dunning. 907 01:14:33,261 --> 01:14:36,138 Yay, Peter! 908 01:14:36,264 --> 01:14:39,391 - Oh, you like this shirt? - Are you familiar with his books? 909 01:14:39,517 --> 01:14:41,768 - No, I don't think so. - They're so wonderful. 910 01:14:41,894 --> 01:14:43,353 I'll lend you some. 911 01:14:43,479 --> 01:14:46,690 Peter is a chemically sensitive person with AIDS... 912 01:14:46,816 --> 01:14:49,442 so his perspective is incredibly vast. 913 01:14:49,569 --> 01:14:52,571 - My deepest welcome to Carol and Wade. - - Ward. 914 01:14:52,697 --> 01:14:56,324 W-Ward. Welcome to Wrenwood. 915 01:14:59,162 --> 01:15:01,079 All right. If you'd all... 916 01:15:01,205 --> 01:15:03,206 close your eyes... 917 01:15:04,959 --> 01:15:07,085 and pass your valuables to the front. 918 01:15:07,211 --> 01:15:09,921 No, no. Come on. 919 01:15:11,966 --> 01:15:13,967 Not really. Okay. 920 01:15:14,093 --> 01:15:17,804 So we're feeling good, huh? We're feeling warmth. 921 01:15:17,930 --> 01:15:20,182 We can look into each other's eyes... 922 01:15:20,349 --> 01:15:22,559 and actually see rejuvenation... 923 01:15:22,685 --> 01:15:26,521 and personal transformation happening. 924 01:15:26,647 --> 01:15:28,190 Why? 925 01:15:28,357 --> 01:15:31,484 Because we've left the judgmental behind. 926 01:15:31,611 --> 01:15:33,737 Whew! 927 01:15:33,863 --> 01:15:36,323 And with it... 928 01:15:36,449 --> 01:15:40,076 the shaming condition that kept us locked up in all the pain. 929 01:15:41,871 --> 01:15:44,748 But what I want to share with you tonight... 930 01:15:44,874 --> 01:15:47,542 what I want to give you tonight... 931 01:15:48,961 --> 01:15:50,962 is an image to reflect on — 932 01:15:53,216 --> 01:15:55,550 an image of a world outside... 933 01:15:57,553 --> 01:15:59,554 as positive... 934 01:16:01,057 --> 01:16:03,058 and as free... 935 01:16:04,894 --> 01:16:07,062 as the world we’ve created here. 936 01:16:08,898 --> 01:16:11,233 Because when you look out on the world... 937 01:16:11,359 --> 01:16:13,401 from a place of love... 938 01:16:14,946 --> 01:16:17,322 and a place of forgiveness... 939 01:16:18,908 --> 01:16:21,409 what you are seeing outside... 940 01:16:24,413 --> 01:16:27,666 is a reflection of what you feel within. 941 01:16:30,419 --> 01:16:32,087 Does that make sense? 942 01:16:34,799 --> 01:16:36,883 So... 943 01:16:37,009 --> 01:16:40,095 what do I see outside me? 944 01:16:40,221 --> 01:16:44,808 I see the growth of environmentalism. Right? 945 01:16:44,934 --> 01:16:46,977 And holistic study. 946 01:16:47,103 --> 01:16:51,773 I see a decline in drugs and promiscuity. 947 01:16:58,781 --> 01:17:01,866 I see sensitivity training in the workplace! 948 01:17:01,993 --> 01:17:04,077 - Yeah! - And the men's movement. 949 01:17:04,203 --> 01:17:07,539 And multiculturalism. 950 01:17:07,665 --> 01:17:11,126 I see all these positive things outside in the world... 951 01:17:11,294 --> 01:17:14,504 because what I am seeing is a global transformation... 952 01:17:14,630 --> 01:17:16,798 identical to the transformation... 953 01:17:19,218 --> 01:17:22,137 I revel at within. 954 01:17:27,935 --> 01:17:29,894 And with that — 955 01:17:30,938 --> 01:17:34,774 We are one with the power that created us. 956 01:17:34,900 --> 01:17:37,485 We are safe... 957 01:17:37,611 --> 01:17:40,280 and all is well in our world. 958 01:20:36,415 --> 01:20:39,334 Carol? I'm sorry. 959 01:20:39,502 --> 01:20:42,212 - Are you having a reaction? - No. No. 960 01:20:42,338 --> 01:20:44,088 I'm fine. 961 01:20:51,013 --> 01:20:52,680 Ohh. 962 01:20:54,683 --> 01:20:58,144 Oh, shh. 963 01:21:02,358 --> 01:21:04,901 Oh, come on. Shh. 964 01:21:09,865 --> 01:21:12,325 That's okay. 965 01:21:12,451 --> 01:21:15,036 Just breathe. 966 01:21:15,204 --> 01:21:17,413 That's right. 967 01:21:17,540 --> 01:21:20,208 Good. 968 01:21:23,546 --> 01:21:26,464 That's good. You're okay. 969 01:21:30,052 --> 01:21:32,762 Tsk. Oh, Carol. 970 01:21:32,888 --> 01:21:35,223 You know something? 971 01:21:36,350 --> 01:21:40,562 All these feelings you're having are just fine. 972 01:21:41,564 --> 01:21:43,565 They're so natural. 973 01:21:44,567 --> 01:21:48,695 I mean, you’ve just done Something so big — 974 01:21:48,821 --> 01:21:51,406 you know, something... 975 01:21:51,532 --> 01:21:54,284 many people never do in their lifetimes. 976 01:21:54,410 --> 01:21:58,871 You’ve taken this big step on your own behalf. 977 01:21:58,998 --> 01:22:03,626 You’ve... left behind everything that’s known and secure... 978 01:22:03,752 --> 01:22:06,671 and all the people you love and trust... 979 01:22:06,797 --> 01:22:09,841 and you’ve come to this strange new place... 980 01:22:09,967 --> 01:22:12,010 with strange new people. 981 01:22:14,722 --> 01:22:17,432 It's completely understandable... 982 01:22:17,558 --> 01:22:19,892 that you might feel lonely... 983 01:22:20,019 --> 01:22:23,438 or fearful or even angry. 984 01:22:27,818 --> 01:22:29,861 You know... 985 01:22:29,987 --> 01:22:32,947 when I first came here, I couldn't even walk. 986 01:22:34,658 --> 01:22:38,286 I'd been living six miles from this chemical factory — 987 01:22:38,454 --> 01:22:41,289 this was in Michigan — 988 01:22:41,415 --> 01:22:45,043 that was leaking, like, 15 gallons... 989 01:22:45,169 --> 01:22:47,754 of chemical by-products every day. 990 01:22:49,923 --> 01:22:54,093 When I got here, all I could do was just sit in my safe room... 991 01:22:54,219 --> 01:22:56,220 and every day... 992 01:22:56,347 --> 01:22:59,349 every hour of every day... 993 01:22:59,475 --> 01:23:01,643 I would look at myself in the mirror... 994 01:23:01,810 --> 01:23:05,229 and I would say to myself... 995 01:23:05,356 --> 01:23:07,649 "Claire... 996 01:23:07,775 --> 01:23:09,734 I love you. 997 01:23:11,820 --> 01:23:13,821 I really love you." 998 01:23:17,743 --> 01:23:20,870 At the end of the month, I could leave my room... 999 01:23:20,996 --> 01:23:24,749 and shortly thereafter, I was walking. 1000 01:23:27,836 --> 01:23:30,171 For me... 1001 01:23:30,297 --> 01:23:34,217 this was a gift, this whole thing was a gift... 1002 01:23:34,343 --> 01:23:37,679 because everything got taken away from me. 1003 01:23:37,805 --> 01:23:39,847 I — I mean... 1004 01:23:39,973 --> 01:23:44,602 everything in the material world. 1005 01:23:44,728 --> 01:23:47,647 And what was left... 1006 01:23:49,233 --> 01:23:50,942 was me. 1007 01:23:59,535 --> 01:24:01,536 Thank you, Claire. 1008 01:24:03,706 --> 01:24:05,707 Are you better? 1009 01:24:07,042 --> 01:24:09,043 You'll do fine. 1010 01:24:14,258 --> 01:24:16,050 - Sweet dreams. - Good night. 1011 01:24:16,218 --> 01:24:17,635 Good night. 1012 01:25:29,500 --> 01:25:32,585 Dear Greg and Rory... 1013 01:25:32,711 --> 01:25:34,629 how are you guys? 1014 01:25:34,797 --> 01:25:38,633 I hope everything is going good. l really miss you. 1015 01:25:38,801 --> 01:25:42,637 I'm feeling a little better, so I decided to stay the full amount. 1016 01:25:42,763 --> 01:25:45,264 At first it was hard to get used to... 1017 01:25:45,390 --> 01:25:47,892 but now I really think it's starting to help. 1018 01:25:48,018 --> 01:25:51,395 I've been so much more relaxed and eating healthfully... 1019 01:25:51,522 --> 01:25:54,440 and the desert landscape is really beautiful here. 1020 01:26:14,837 --> 01:26:17,755 I can't wait till the 25th to show you around... 1021 01:26:17,881 --> 01:26:20,466 and introduce you to everyone. 1022 01:26:20,592 --> 01:26:23,928 Give my love to Sally and your mother and Linda... 1023 01:26:24,054 --> 01:26:27,098 and be sure and help your dad, Ror. 1024 01:26:27,224 --> 01:26:29,684 Love and kisses, Carol. 1025 01:26:45,075 --> 01:26:47,243 Is that Lester you're watching? 1026 01:26:47,369 --> 01:26:49,370 Sorry. I didn't mean to startle you. 1027 01:26:49,538 --> 01:26:51,205 Oh, it's fine. 1028 01:26:51,373 --> 01:26:54,709 I was just watching him go by. 1029 01:26:54,835 --> 01:26:57,044 Why does he — 1030 01:26:57,170 --> 01:27:01,132 Oh, poor Lester. He's just... 1031 01:27:01,258 --> 01:27:03,384 very, very afraid — 1032 01:27:03,552 --> 01:27:06,137 afraid to eat, afraid to breathe. 1033 01:27:10,392 --> 01:27:12,810 But let's talk about you. 1034 01:27:12,936 --> 01:27:15,438 I heard you weren't feeling so hot. 1035 01:27:15,564 --> 01:27:18,065 It was just a little, um... 1036 01:27:18,191 --> 01:27:21,652 Shortness of breath and some dizziness. 1037 01:27:21,778 --> 01:27:23,905 I noticed the highway near here... 1038 01:27:24,072 --> 01:27:26,407 and I wondered if maybe my cabin room... 1039 01:27:26,575 --> 01:27:29,201 was a little downwind or something. 1040 01:27:29,328 --> 01:27:31,579 I thought maybe if I tried another cabin — 1041 01:27:31,705 --> 01:27:34,957 - Claire would be the best person to speak to about that. - Claire is? 1042 01:27:35,083 --> 01:27:37,919 - She's really the one. - Okay. 1043 01:27:38,086 --> 01:27:40,880 I remember Claire sharing with me a little while back... 1044 01:27:41,006 --> 01:27:43,090 some concern over you. 1045 01:27:43,258 --> 01:27:45,593 That you'd been feeling Some remorse... 1046 01:27:47,930 --> 01:27:49,931 maybe some apprehension. 1047 01:27:52,392 --> 01:27:54,268 - I was just — - All I'm saying... 1048 01:27:54,394 --> 01:27:58,689 is that these feelings you're having, Carol, are extremely common... 1049 01:27:58,815 --> 01:28:01,734 especially in relation to new environments. 1050 01:28:01,860 --> 01:28:05,529 Especially for someone who's environmentally ill, okay? 1051 01:28:05,656 --> 01:28:08,491 And what we're about is trying to help absorb... 1052 01:28:08,617 --> 01:28:10,952 as many of these tensions as we can... 1053 01:28:11,078 --> 01:28:13,663 so you're free to do the kind of healing... 1054 01:28:13,789 --> 01:28:15,957 that you need to be doing. 1055 01:28:16,083 --> 01:28:18,042 - Does that make any sense? - Yes. 1056 01:28:18,168 --> 01:28:20,586 'Cause when that's accomplished, I'm doing my job. 1057 01:28:20,712 --> 01:28:23,297 No, I know. I'm just still learning... 1058 01:28:23,423 --> 01:28:26,968 you know, um, the words. 1059 01:28:27,094 --> 01:28:29,470 Oh. Well... 1060 01:28:29,638 --> 01:28:31,639 the words are... 1061 01:28:31,807 --> 01:28:34,809 just the way to get to what's true. 1062 01:28:34,935 --> 01:28:36,310 - Right? - Right. 1063 01:28:36,436 --> 01:28:37,853 - See the coyote? - Where? 1064 01:28:37,980 --> 01:28:39,981 Straight. 1065 01:29:35,787 --> 01:29:38,039 - Is that all right? - Sure. 1066 01:29:40,709 --> 01:29:43,085 I need a partner. 1067 01:29:43,211 --> 01:29:45,629 Great. 1068 01:29:45,756 --> 01:29:48,174 Guess we'll have to figure out what to cook. 1069 01:29:48,300 --> 01:29:50,051 - Right. - Yeah. 1070 01:29:51,386 --> 01:29:53,929 All right, well... 1071 01:29:54,056 --> 01:29:57,349 I'll think about... what to cook. 1072 01:29:57,476 --> 01:29:59,477 Me too. 1073 01:30:00,687 --> 01:30:02,438 Bye. 1074 01:30:07,569 --> 01:30:10,321 She had all these little different, you know... 1075 01:30:10,447 --> 01:30:14,700 candies and stuff she'd keep in there. 1076 01:30:18,497 --> 01:30:22,166 She used to let me open the clasp and look inside the purse... 1077 01:30:22,292 --> 01:30:25,503 then close the clasp. 1078 01:30:25,629 --> 01:30:28,214 I'll never forget that purse. 1079 01:30:32,052 --> 01:30:33,844 Okay. 1080 01:30:33,970 --> 01:30:36,430 Now, speaker number two... 1081 01:30:36,556 --> 01:30:39,600 describe to your friend a room... 1082 01:30:39,768 --> 01:30:42,103 you remember having as a child. 1083 01:30:45,440 --> 01:30:48,484 Um — 1084 01:30:49,945 --> 01:30:51,946 Um — Um — 1085 01:30:55,951 --> 01:30:57,952 God, this is — 1086 01:31:03,125 --> 01:31:06,127 I guess this one I had was — 1087 01:31:08,672 --> 01:31:10,464 had... 1088 01:31:11,508 --> 01:31:14,677 yellow wallpaper... 1089 01:31:14,803 --> 01:31:17,471 and — 1090 01:31:24,563 --> 01:31:27,106 What's going on over there? 1091 01:31:27,232 --> 01:31:29,567 - Oh, my God. - Who's that? 1092 01:31:29,693 --> 01:31:31,902 - Who's the guy? - I don't know. 1093 01:31:32,028 --> 01:31:36,198 - I think it’s Nell’s husband. - That looks like Nell's husband. 1094 01:31:48,670 --> 01:31:50,337 Today... 1095 01:31:53,508 --> 01:31:55,885 is another... 1096 01:31:56,011 --> 01:31:58,512 precious day on earth... 1097 01:32:00,599 --> 01:32:02,683 so let's throw away... 1098 01:32:02,809 --> 01:32:04,685 every negative... 1099 01:32:07,063 --> 01:32:10,107 destructive thought we might have... 1100 01:32:11,860 --> 01:32:14,361 and look around ourselves with love. 1101 01:32:21,328 --> 01:32:23,537 I tried to teach him this — 1102 01:32:28,335 --> 01:32:30,711 to give up the rage... 1103 01:32:36,009 --> 01:32:38,510 to strive for a quiet mind. 1104 01:32:46,645 --> 01:32:49,730 My concern is, it sounds like a spiraling down. 1105 01:32:49,898 --> 01:32:52,858 If you're feeling more sensitive to the fumes that way... 1106 01:32:52,984 --> 01:32:55,527 you shouldn't really be outside. 1107 01:32:56,738 --> 01:33:00,741 The problem is, there just aren't any center accommodations available now... 1108 01:33:00,867 --> 01:33:03,077 except for cabins and dormitories. 1109 01:33:03,203 --> 01:33:05,454 Oh, I'm fine, really. 1110 01:33:05,580 --> 01:33:09,250 Oh, except for Harry's. 1111 01:33:09,417 --> 01:33:11,669 Harry's? 1112 01:33:11,795 --> 01:33:14,421 Mr. Keene, Nell's husband, built a safe house. 1113 01:33:14,589 --> 01:33:16,882 You can see it. It's right next to recycling... 1114 01:33:17,008 --> 01:33:19,093 over there, the little white igloo. 1115 01:33:19,261 --> 01:33:22,179 - He lived in that? - Oh, yeah. 1116 01:33:22,305 --> 01:33:25,683 After his stroke, he needed a more controllable space... 1117 01:33:25,809 --> 01:33:29,603 so she stayed in the cabin, and he lived in the safe house. 1118 01:33:29,729 --> 01:33:31,772 And he actually improved. 1119 01:33:31,940 --> 01:33:34,108 It's ventilated and porcelain-lined... 1120 01:33:34,276 --> 01:33:38,362 and he was perfectly safe as long as no one set foot inside. 1121 01:33:39,948 --> 01:33:42,533 I don't know what she's planning to do with it. 1122 01:33:52,419 --> 01:33:55,879 Ladies and gentlemen, I have a confession I'd like to make. 1123 01:33:59,050 --> 01:34:01,552 I’ve stopped reading the papers. 1124 01:34:05,056 --> 01:34:07,641 I’ve stopped watching the news on TV. 1125 01:34:10,437 --> 01:34:12,813 I’ve heard the media gloom and doom... 1126 01:34:12,939 --> 01:34:16,191 and I've seen their fatalistic, negative attitude... 1127 01:34:16,318 --> 01:34:19,611 and I finally realized, once and for all, I don't need it. 1128 01:34:21,948 --> 01:34:25,326 And so I transform that negative stimulus... 1129 01:34:25,452 --> 01:34:28,120 into something that will not do harm to me. 1130 01:34:31,374 --> 01:34:34,501 Because if I really believe that life is... 1131 01:34:37,297 --> 01:34:40,424 that devastating, that destructive... 1132 01:34:44,679 --> 01:34:48,015 I'm afraid that my immune system will believe it too... 1133 01:34:51,144 --> 01:34:53,520 and I can't afford to take that risk. 1134 01:34:56,358 --> 01:34:58,525 Neither can you. 1135 01:35:13,208 --> 01:35:14,708 We are one — 1136 01:35:14,834 --> 01:35:17,544 With the power that created us. 1137 01:35:17,712 --> 01:35:20,964 - We are safe... - We are safe... 1138 01:35:21,091 --> 01:35:23,384 and all is well in our world. 1139 01:35:31,226 --> 01:35:34,228 So my brother called, and Darlene had another girl. 1140 01:35:34,396 --> 01:35:37,064 Oh. I'll call them tonight. 1141 01:35:38,233 --> 01:35:41,110 Oh, and Linda called and said to hurry up... 1142 01:35:41,236 --> 01:35:43,862 and clear or clean or whatever it is.. 1143 01:35:43,988 --> 01:35:46,865 - "Clear." - and come on home. 1144 01:35:46,991 --> 01:35:48,992 That's sweet. 1145 01:35:56,334 --> 01:35:59,211 So you really feel like it's... 1146 01:35:59,337 --> 01:36:02,089 still the right choice? I mean — 1147 01:36:02,257 --> 01:36:05,092 Yeah, I — 1148 01:36:05,260 --> 01:36:07,678 I do. I mean... 1149 01:36:07,804 --> 01:36:10,472 right before the fumes, I was good. 1150 01:36:10,598 --> 01:36:12,641 My load was up. 1151 01:36:12,767 --> 01:36:15,352 I was eating well, so — 1152 01:36:15,478 --> 01:36:17,938 What did they say about the fumes? 1153 01:36:18,106 --> 01:36:22,443 Just that I'd probably move to another, different cabin somewhere... 1154 01:36:22,569 --> 01:36:26,238 - Uh-huh. - where I won't feel them. 1155 01:36:26,364 --> 01:36:28,198 Right. 1156 01:36:30,702 --> 01:36:32,578 Okay. 1157 01:36:32,704 --> 01:36:36,373 I just think it's true what they say — 1158 01:36:36,499 --> 01:36:40,252 that it's up to the individual, and that it takes time. 1159 01:36:42,589 --> 01:36:44,214 Right. 1160 01:36:48,803 --> 01:36:51,930 - Whose house is that? - That's Peter's. 1161 01:36:52,056 --> 01:36:55,392 - It's gorgeous, isn't it? - Yeah. 1162 01:36:55,518 --> 01:36:58,979 - Feel like moving? - No. 1163 01:37:23,630 --> 01:37:25,422 She's, um — 1164 01:37:27,467 --> 01:37:29,885 Her husband just passed away. 1165 01:37:36,476 --> 01:37:38,477 Come on, Rory. 1166 01:37:42,315 --> 01:37:44,024 Now! 1167 01:37:52,659 --> 01:37:54,201 Steve... 1168 01:37:54,327 --> 01:37:56,537 why did you become sick? 1169 01:37:56,704 --> 01:37:59,873 Um, well, I became sick... 1170 01:37:59,999 --> 01:38:03,502 because I just O.D.'d on all the drugs I was doing. 1171 01:38:03,628 --> 01:38:06,838 Uh-huh. Why did you become addicted? 1172 01:38:08,049 --> 01:38:10,425 Well, I guess I became addicted... 1173 01:38:10,552 --> 01:38:13,720 to, like, blot out the pain... 1174 01:38:13,846 --> 01:38:17,224 of not liking myself. 1175 01:38:18,601 --> 01:38:21,562 - Of hating myself, really. - Mm. 1176 01:38:23,439 --> 01:38:25,816 Self-hatred. 1177 01:38:25,942 --> 01:38:27,568 Yep. 1178 01:38:28,903 --> 01:38:31,238 Okay. Thanks, Steve. 1179 01:38:34,742 --> 01:38:36,535 - Hello, Joyce. - Hi. 1180 01:38:36,661 --> 01:38:39,079 - How are you? - I'm okay. 1181 01:38:40,373 --> 01:38:43,375 Joyce, what do you think was behind your illness? 1182 01:38:44,377 --> 01:38:46,336 Why did you become sick? 1183 01:38:48,256 --> 01:38:51,883 I believe that I made myself sick... 1184 01:38:52,010 --> 01:38:54,094 after my son got sick... 1185 01:38:54,262 --> 01:38:57,431 because I was just — 1186 01:38:57,557 --> 01:39:01,810 Well, you get so eaten up with guilt, really. 1187 01:39:01,936 --> 01:39:05,105 You know, because I felt that I had done it to him. 1188 01:39:05,273 --> 01:39:08,317 I was the one who put him in that school. 1189 01:39:08,443 --> 01:39:10,611 I put him in that environment. 1190 01:39:10,737 --> 01:39:12,779 You were punishing yourself. 1191 01:39:19,120 --> 01:39:20,704 Yeah. 1192 01:39:42,310 --> 01:39:43,852 Thanks. 1193 01:39:46,189 --> 01:39:47,814 Marilyn? 1194 01:39:51,444 --> 01:39:53,445 I was, um... 1195 01:39:55,490 --> 01:39:58,742 deeply wounded as a child... 1196 01:39:59,994 --> 01:40:04,498 and had completely blocked it out for years... 1197 01:40:04,666 --> 01:40:08,919 and then, uh, suddenly became very ill. 1198 01:40:09,045 --> 01:40:11,046 Why, do you think? 1199 01:40:13,508 --> 01:40:16,885 Maybe to let myself know Something was wrong. 1200 01:40:17,011 --> 01:40:19,346 Okay. 1201 01:40:19,514 --> 01:40:22,099 And... 1202 01:40:22,225 --> 01:40:25,018 the person who hurt you the most — 1203 01:40:27,730 --> 01:40:29,439 Was me. 1204 01:40:31,609 --> 01:40:34,027 For? 1205 01:40:36,864 --> 01:40:38,865 Not forgiving him. 1206 01:40:41,452 --> 01:40:43,161 Okay. 1207 01:40:45,039 --> 01:40:47,040 Thank you, Marilyn. 1208 01:40:49,001 --> 01:40:50,711 Um, Carol... 1209 01:40:52,338 --> 01:40:54,506 would you like to respond? 1210 01:40:55,550 --> 01:40:57,551 Okay, okay. 1211 01:40:57,677 --> 01:40:59,928 We don't want to force anyone. 1212 01:41:00,054 --> 01:41:01,555 Nell? 1213 01:41:03,933 --> 01:41:05,517 What? 1214 01:41:05,643 --> 01:41:08,395 Would you like to take part? 1215 01:41:08,563 --> 01:41:10,647 What is the question? 1216 01:41:11,691 --> 01:41:13,608 The question is... 1217 01:41:13,735 --> 01:41:16,486 why did you become sick? 1218 01:41:23,286 --> 01:41:26,371 First, I got sick... 1219 01:41:26,497 --> 01:41:29,958 and my husband thought I was crazy... 1220 01:41:30,084 --> 01:41:32,502 and then he got sick the same way. 1221 01:41:34,380 --> 01:41:37,591 What was happening in your life around the time that you — 1222 01:41:37,717 --> 01:41:41,094 How were you feeling when you first got sick? 1223 01:41:46,476 --> 01:41:49,394 I just wanted to get a gun... 1224 01:41:49,520 --> 01:41:53,940 and blow off the heads of everyone who got me like this. 1225 01:41:55,568 --> 01:41:58,111 Nobody out there made you sick. You know that. 1226 01:41:58,237 --> 01:42:01,281 The only person who can make you get sick is you, right? 1227 01:42:01,407 --> 01:42:04,743 Whatever the sickness, if our immune system is damaged... 1228 01:42:04,869 --> 01:42:07,037 it’s because we have allowed it to be... 1229 01:42:07,163 --> 01:42:09,915 through exactly the kind of anger you're showing us now. 1230 01:42:10,041 --> 01:42:12,250 Does that make sense? 1231 01:42:12,376 --> 01:42:14,503 Does anybody have a problem with that? 1232 01:42:16,631 --> 01:42:20,091 Which is why you need to remember your affirmations... 1233 01:42:20,218 --> 01:42:23,094 and figure out how to love Nell a lot more. 1234 01:42:24,222 --> 01:42:26,431 And even Nell's disease. 1235 01:42:28,893 --> 01:42:31,102 And put that gun of yours away. 1236 01:42:38,152 --> 01:42:40,153 Sometimes — 1237 01:42:41,739 --> 01:42:46,243 Sometimes all I see is the hatred and frailty... 1238 01:42:49,747 --> 01:42:52,165 people's cruelty to one another... 1239 01:42:52,333 --> 01:42:54,668 cruelty to themselves... 1240 01:42:56,546 --> 01:42:58,547 and I realize... 1241 01:43:01,133 --> 01:43:02,926 how lucky I am. 1242 01:43:11,352 --> 01:43:13,353 How blessed. 1243 01:44:08,117 --> 01:44:10,869 - Is that everything? - I think so. 1244 01:44:12,622 --> 01:44:15,290 Rory, be careful with that. It’s real heavy. 1245 01:44:15,416 --> 01:44:17,042 I have it! 1246 01:44:17,168 --> 01:44:19,419 Rory, don't talk to your mother in that tone. 1247 01:44:19,587 --> 01:44:21,254 Fine. 1248 01:44:23,257 --> 01:44:26,426 - What time's your flight? - 7:20. 1249 01:44:26,594 --> 01:44:28,637 Ror, if you really want to be helpful... 1250 01:44:28,763 --> 01:44:31,932 make sure our stuff's in the car and we're ready to go. 1251 01:44:33,809 --> 01:44:35,936 - Want me to get that? - I got it. 1252 01:44:36,062 --> 01:44:37,812 You sure? 1253 01:44:45,780 --> 01:44:47,906 - Whoa. Watch it. - Whoops. 1254 01:44:48,658 --> 01:44:50,367 You okay? 1255 01:44:58,584 --> 01:45:01,002 You all right? 1256 01:45:01,128 --> 01:45:04,297 I think it might be your cologne. 1257 01:45:04,465 --> 01:45:07,133 Honey, I'm not wearing any cologne. 1258 01:45:07,259 --> 01:45:09,594 Uh, maybe in the shirt. 1259 01:45:09,720 --> 01:45:11,638 I don't know. 1260 01:45:20,314 --> 01:45:24,401 Well, I guess we better get moving if we're gonna catch the plane. 1261 01:45:24,527 --> 01:45:26,861 You gonna be okay? 1262 01:45:26,988 --> 01:45:29,990 I'm fine. It's just for a short time. 1263 01:45:30,157 --> 01:45:32,158 - I know. - I'll be fine. 1264 01:45:32,284 --> 01:45:33,868 Okay. 1265 01:45:37,164 --> 01:45:39,624 - Can I hug you? - Of course. 1266 01:46:13,951 --> 01:46:17,579 So this other guy didn't know anything was wrong with him either... 1267 01:46:17,705 --> 01:46:20,790 except that whenever he would go into a mall... 1268 01:46:20,916 --> 01:46:23,418 he would get totally depressed — 1269 01:46:23,544 --> 01:46:27,881 you know, start crying really hard, and contemplating suicide. 1270 01:46:28,007 --> 01:46:31,342 And then he would step outside, and he would be fine. 1271 01:46:31,469 --> 01:46:35,346 You know, totally normal. This would happen every single time. 1272 01:46:35,473 --> 01:46:38,224 - God. - Yeah. 1273 01:46:38,392 --> 01:46:40,894 - You know what they called him? - What? 1274 01:46:41,020 --> 01:46:44,689 "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. For-mall-dehyde." 1275 01:46:44,815 --> 01:46:47,734 Oh, God. 1276 01:46:47,860 --> 01:46:50,236 - I'm so gullible. - No, I'm serious. 1277 01:46:50,362 --> 01:46:52,447 This really happened. 1278 01:46:54,033 --> 01:46:57,577 I always forget if it's pasta, cheese, sauce... 1279 01:46:57,745 --> 01:47:00,246 cheese, pasta... 1280 01:47:00,372 --> 01:47:03,625 or pasta, sauce, cheese... 1281 01:47:03,751 --> 01:47:07,212 pasta, cheese, sauce. 1282 01:47:07,338 --> 01:47:10,590 I think it's pasta... 1283 01:47:10,716 --> 01:47:12,884 pasta, pasta, pasta, cheese... 1284 01:47:13,010 --> 01:47:15,637 - Stop it! Stop it! - pasta, sauce. 1285 01:47:15,763 --> 01:47:18,056 Suddenly all I see... 1286 01:47:18,182 --> 01:47:21,309 all over my hands and my legs are... 1287 01:47:21,435 --> 01:47:24,896 black, horrible sores all over me, oozing. 1288 01:47:25,022 --> 01:47:27,440 And at first I'm horrified... 1289 01:47:27,608 --> 01:47:30,276 and I'm full of self-pity and anger. 1290 01:47:30,444 --> 01:47:33,113 I'm enraged until I realize — 1291 01:47:33,239 --> 01:47:35,782 Suddenly I look down again, and I realize... 1292 01:47:35,950 --> 01:47:38,076 that they aren't sores at all... 1293 01:47:38,202 --> 01:47:42,288 but these... black pansies... 1294 01:47:42,414 --> 01:47:46,543 these sort of wilted black pansies I used to pick when I was a child. 1295 01:47:46,669 --> 01:47:48,795 So in my dream, I remember that. 1296 01:47:48,921 --> 01:47:50,964 And as I pick up... 1297 01:47:51,132 --> 01:47:53,258 each wilted flower... 1298 01:47:53,384 --> 01:47:55,635 they would just instantly... 1299 01:47:55,803 --> 01:47:57,762 bloom into beautiful bouquets. 1300 01:47:57,888 --> 01:48:00,140 - Oh! - Every single one. 1301 01:48:00,307 --> 01:48:02,976 - Ending in rejoice. - That's remarkably clear. 1302 01:48:03,144 --> 01:48:04,978 It's extraordinary. 1303 01:48:05,104 --> 01:48:07,272 Incredible lasagna, by the way, guys. 1304 01:48:07,398 --> 01:48:10,525 - Yeah. - Great dinner, both of you. 1305 01:48:10,651 --> 01:48:13,528 And you know, it almost tasted like the real thing. 1306 01:48:13,654 --> 01:48:15,405 To Carol and Chris. 1307 01:48:15,531 --> 01:48:17,740 - To Carol and Chris. - To Carol and Chris. 1308 01:49:32,191 --> 01:49:34,442 Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. 1309 01:49:34,568 --> 01:49:37,487 Um, I've got a little announcement to make. 1310 01:49:37,613 --> 01:49:41,074 Um, since it's almost tomorrow... 1311 01:49:41,200 --> 01:49:43,284 and tomorrow happens to be... 1312 01:49:43,410 --> 01:49:47,372 - Carol's birthday... - Ooh! 1313 01:49:47,498 --> 01:49:50,583 we have a little surprise for her. 1314 01:50:09,311 --> 01:50:10,979 Speech! 1315 01:50:11,105 --> 01:50:13,564 - Speech! - Happy birthday, Carol. 1316 01:50:13,691 --> 01:50:16,484 - Speech! - No, I — 1317 01:50:16,610 --> 01:50:19,279 - Happy birthday, sweetie. - I — 1318 01:50:19,405 --> 01:50:23,157 - Say something. - I can't. I’ve never made a speech in my life. 1319 01:50:23,284 --> 01:50:27,161 - Please. - Oh, God. Um... 1320 01:50:27,288 --> 01:50:29,622 I just want to thank Chris for doing this... 1321 01:50:30,874 --> 01:50:34,294 and everybody here so much. 1322 01:50:34,420 --> 01:50:37,297 It just — You pulled me through a really hard period. 1323 01:50:37,423 --> 01:50:40,383 Anyway, I couldn't have done it without you. 1324 01:50:45,222 --> 01:50:48,308 I don't know what I'm saying. 1325 01:50:49,476 --> 01:50:52,437 Just that I really hated myself before I came here... 1326 01:50:52,563 --> 01:50:54,439 and, um, so... 1327 01:50:54,565 --> 01:50:58,359 I'm trying to see myself hopefully, um... 1328 01:50:58,485 --> 01:51:01,279 more as I am, more — 1329 01:51:01,405 --> 01:51:03,740 um, more positive... 1330 01:51:03,866 --> 01:51:06,492 like seeing the pluses. 1331 01:51:06,660 --> 01:51:09,037 Like, I think it's slowly opening up now. 1332 01:51:09,163 --> 01:51:11,622 People's minds, like... 1333 01:51:11,749 --> 01:51:13,833 educating and, and... 1334 01:51:14,001 --> 01:51:16,669 AIDS and, um — 1335 01:51:16,837 --> 01:51:19,756 and other types of diseases... 1336 01:51:19,882 --> 01:51:21,758 'cause — 'cause — 1337 01:51:21,884 --> 01:51:24,886 And it is a disease, 'cause it's out there... 1338 01:51:25,012 --> 01:51:28,765 and we just have to be more aware of it — 1339 01:51:28,891 --> 01:51:32,518 make people aware of it and, um, even ourselves... 1340 01:51:32,686 --> 01:51:35,271 like, uh, going — 1341 01:51:35,397 --> 01:51:39,108 reading labels and going into buildings — 1342 01:51:49,703 --> 01:51:51,204 To Carol. 1343 01:51:51,330 --> 01:51:54,123 To Carol! 1344 01:52:37,876 --> 01:52:40,169 Thank you, Chris... 1345 01:52:40,295 --> 01:52:42,380 for everything. 1346 01:52:43,549 --> 01:52:47,218 - Are you sure you're all right, Carol? - I'm fine, really. 1347 01:52:49,471 --> 01:52:51,305 Okay. 1348 01:52:56,019 --> 01:52:57,687 Thanks. 1349 01:53:01,275 --> 01:53:04,110 - See you tomorrow. - For sure. 1350 01:53:05,362 --> 01:53:07,405 - Good night. - Night. 1351 01:54:59,601 --> 01:55:02,061 I love — 1352 01:55:06,316 --> 01:55:08,234 I love you. 1353 01:55:12,364 --> 01:55:14,407 I really love you. 1354 01:55:20,664 --> 01:55:22,456 I love you.